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They say boys don't cry
But your dad has shed a lot of tears
They say I should be a strong man
But baby, I'm still filled with fear
Sometimes I don't know who I am
Sometimes I question why I'm here
I just wanna be a good dad
Will I be? I have no idea
They say girls shouldn't be tough
And moms should raise their kids at home
But baby, I know that that isn't true
Cause your momma's the toughest person I know
I wanna raise you to be like her
And watch you show the world how to do it on your own
I'm still tryna figure out who I am
I don't wanna mess this up or do this wrong
I'm gonna be there for your first breath
I don't know if I'll be there for your first step
I can promise you that I'll try to work less
But the tour's routed, and I got this album
Put in so many hours, and I just want the outcome
To be something that I can look back and I can be proud of
Don't wanna be a dad that's living in FaceTime
But I've got a world to sing to and you at the same time
I won't spoil you, you can trust that
For your sweet sixteen, you get a bus pass
Had your heart broken? Been there, done that
I love you and I can't give you enough of that
Get back to community that raised you up
Read Langston Hughes, I suggest "A Raisin in the Sun"
Listen to Sam Cooke, a change gon' come
You put the work in, don't worry about the praise, my love
Don't try to change the world, find something that you love
And do it every day
Do that for the rest of your life
And eventually, the world will change
I look at my beautiful wife,She was finally sleeping after decorating the babys room.I look at her 8 month baby bump.Our twin child.
I'm happy that the baby was twin but, Different genders,So I can feel how it feels like to have a son and a daughter.
I decide to take this chance to talk to our child.I lower myself so my face was facing the bump,I put my right hand over the bump to hug it,and then I start my speech.
"Hey,guys its me your dad, Your mom is tired so she's sleepin now.so I could talk to you guys,okey?.I think calling you guys 'guys' is weird.So I'm just gonna call you by the name I got for you guys. For the gal I'm going to call you Lily Rosemary Rogers and for the boy is James Christopher rogers.I hope you guys love it and I hope your mom loves it too,I haven't tell her yet,Because I'm afraid she'll hate it.I know,you guys probably think I'm a scardy cat,huh. Well. I thought so too but, Your mom kept telling me that I'm not, you guys will love her and I have a fel 'life lesson' or just a reminder for you guys.So I'll tell you one by one,okay?. First, James I just want to tell you that everybody have fears and its okey to cry.I'm telling you this because I saw a lot of boys out there whose afraid to cry,and if someone told you 'you're weak',don't listen to them. Trust me,I'm maybe a strong man but I still cry,and I still have fears to face. So its fine if you want to cry but, Remember Don't Give Up,okey? And second,Lily I want you to be strong,to be brave like your mom.No matter what happen you need to be strong.
God,I hope I'll be a good dad,you know I just hope I don't mess this up cause you guys and your mother are the most important thing to me in this whole world,and I promise I'll be there for your guys birth I won't miss it for the world but, still I don't know if I'll be there for your first walk,your first word.but,I promise I'll do my best to be there 'cause I got a world to protect,and I have to protect it because I want you guys and mommy to be safe. So I hope you'll guys understand it,okey?.okey,now let me tell you about your uncle and auntie. First,uncle tony you guys need to stay away from him,Especially you lily,oh and don't get too spoiled from him,okey. I could tell you that me and your mom won't spoil you too much,that's uncle tony job but,your mom already told him not to spoil you guys too much or she'll break his toys" and then I go on about the rest of the avengers,after every avengers is done.I talk to them about how much I love them.
"I hope you guys knows how much I love you,I can't even describe how much I love you guys and don't forget where you belong,even if you guys are living at other big cities and other country. Visit us,come back home to mommy and daddy,cause trust me.me and your mom will be here forever thanks to the serum and thor gift.I don't know if that will effect you guys too.and now for you guys later hard work.I want you guys to work your best and don't be effected by the praise and the mock they gave you,cause they won't be there forever and please I beg you guys don't try to change the world,believe me it doesn't work that way, cause your uncle tony have tried but it came out nashty,you guys just have to do what you guys love and trust me the world will change for you. Just like how my world change when I met your mother"I took a deep breath as I think what should I say next.
I'll be patient, one more month
You'll wrap your fingers 'round my thumb
Times are changing, I know, but who am I if
I'm the person you become
If I'm still growing up, up, up, up
If I'm still growing up, up, up, up
I'm still growing up
"I can't believe that I just have to wait one more month for you guys.I can't believe it eight month has past and just one more month you'll guys be here in me and mom arms ,I just can't imagine having you guys. Y'know I keep asking myself how I could I be this lucky to have you guys and your mom.y'know I think I'm the luckiest guy alive to have such a beautiful family."
I recommend that you read "The Alchemist"
Listen to your teachers, but cheat in calculus
Tell the truth, regardless of the consequence
And every day, give your momma a compliment
Take your girl to the prom
But don't get too drunk hanging out the limo
Slow dance with your woman in your arms
Sneak her in after but boy, you better tiptoe
Don't wake your mom up,do yoga, learn 'bout karma
Find God, but leave the dogma
The quickest way to happiness? Learning to be selfless
Ask more questions, talk about yourself less
Study David Bowie, James Baldwin and 2Pac
Watch the sun set with best friends from a rooftop
Wear a helmet, don't be stupid,jaywalk, but look before you do it
If it snows, go outside, build a jump, get some help
Get a sled, thrash the hill with your friends, 'til it melts
Go to festivals, camp, fall in love and dance
You're only young once, my loved one, this is your chance
Take risks, cause life moves so fast
You're only young once, my loved one, this is your chance
"and now for the last of my speech I'm going to tell you guys about something important.First,I want you to listen to your teacher, be good at school and don't be lazy. Second,always be honest no matter what happen and no matter what is the consequences,always be honest. Third,I want you to enjoy life,enjoy the little things in life like the sunsets,I don't want you guys to be to mushed up on your cellphones like kids these days. Four,have fun,be brave but don't be reckless and always be safe,and last take risks,cause you guys only live once so make it worth it.couse if I didn't take the risk on that serum,i won't be here,I won't meet your mom and you guys wouldn't be here.I guess that's all for today,I don't want to you guys to hear my blabering too much.go to sleep,okay.I'll talk to you guys soon,well good bye for now and I love you lily and james,remember that.
When I was done.I kiss the bump and pull (y/n) down.
"thank you,it was freezing.y'know"(y/n) said.I must have woken her
"sorry,did I wake you up?" I moved to lay down next to her.
"yeah, but its fine.oh and I like it" (y/n) hugged me.
"huh?"
"The name"
"Oh,I thought you were gonna hatte it...."
" No,I love it.Lily Rosemary Rogers and James Christopher Rogers,its a good name"
"good,but enough baby talking,sleep now"
"I love you so much and you're gonna be a great dad"
"I love you too honey and thanks.and you're gonna be a great mommy too"
"But,I think natasha will be pissed that the baby name isn't her name"
"Worry later,sleep now"
"But-" I cut her with a kiss
"Shut up and sleep"
"Geez,fine dad" I chuckle,God I love her so much and I can't believe that just one more month and then I'll be a father,just one more month of waiting.
"Sleep tight,lily and james"I said before I drift off,dreaming of my family
I'm still growing up
I'm still growing up, ooh
I'm still growing up
I'm still growing up