Work Text:
flood
i don't want it to do so
life is like
or at least my life
i have no one to talk to honestly
not even my parents or close close close friends
that i've known for almost my whole life
i
silently
sometimes
(sometimes)
think about
about how i get on with a day
with a still smile
and the fact that no one asks me if i'm alright or okay
just adds up to my anxiety
just
i don't know how to word my thoughts out
if i did
i might've worded it wrong
visualize it
you're in the middle
of an ocean
a sea
lake
large body of water
you're just there
mouth zipped silent
standing sitting crouching
whatever you wish to do
helpless in all situations
no one to ask
for directions
for help
so
you're just there.
stuck
sitting standing crouching
whatever
probably talking to yourself silently
afraid people might hear
and make fun
but
they're too far
but
they're sometimes near to you
but they figure out how to get to you
dry
safe
warm
fine
they can't
but sometimes
you try to reach out too
but they aren't listening
responding
not paying any attention to you at all
i cry silently about it sometimes
sometimes
it's
relieving though
i was able to get out at least
some
of those feelings off
my chest
here i am
writing
pathetic
but it's okay
it'll pass
someday
right?
everything will pass,
right?
thanks