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Shinsou didn't expect anyone to be in his panic attack curbord. Let alone Izuku Midoriya. Who was as the Curbord states in the middle of a panic attack. It was strange seeing the always smiling and cheerful person trying to stop himself from shaking violently and trying to muffle sobs.
The first thing he did was shut the door quickly but quietly behind himself because he knew that if he was in this state he wouldn't want anyone to see him like this. Then as slowly as he could made his way next to him and after asking permission hugged him because he knew that he needed the help.
He guesses that it's been about 15 minutes of holding Midoriya in the dimly lit curbord to calm him down when Izuku finally speaks," Y-you know I a-actually thought it would be different this time." With venom in his voice that was so unexpected that it made Shinsou freeze a little but Izuku continued,"I actually thought that someone like me could be loved by someone like him and that he wouldn't hate me for thinking that but he loves him and I can't change that because I can't make him fall in love with me or even like me; But the moment I met him I fell so hard I should have broke but I didn't because he made me feel like I was flying. But I should have knew because it's never happened before why would it happen now. Why would I get happiness now?! When it's never happened before?!"
Shinsou never expected this. Ever in his life time to happen but he doesn't think about it before Izuku turns to him tears streaming down his face, eyes filled with hurt and self hatred and asks," Do you ever feel so worthless and insignificant that you start to question your own existence? Because you know shouted to your friend at lunch and you were sure that it was loud enough for them to hear you but they carry on without a second glance. Because that's how I am. That's what the smile always hides. And that's why I always cry at the little things because I don't want to break because I don't want to bother the people I even question are friends because I know that he'll hate me more and he'll call me weak and I'll get hurt but I'll love him more and more and more to the point it kills me and I know it's half way there because I already feel like I'm dying. It's eating at my soul and my being and it's tearing me apart and I don't know what to do-"
Somewhere during that spiral Shinsou felt his heart tug more and more and more to the point where he wanted him to stop because he knew that he loved this boy. The boy who stood in the rain because it reminded him of his mother. The boy who gave his classmates chocolates and flowers and company on valentine's Day because he didn't want them to spend it alone. The boy that made food for the students who don't seem to eat enough because he didn't want them to go hungry. The boy with a kit of everything his classmates might need because he knows that they'll need it. The boy who makes friends as easily as he breathes. The boy who loves. So he kissed him. And he kissed back and he fell deeper in love with him because he's so kind and good and sweet and generous and beautiful. The moment they broke away the boy looked at him and he smiled and he shined. He was beautiful and he had to say it," I love you." It was barley a whisper but the boy heard it and he said,
"I love you too."