Chapter Text
1. I'm an idiot with a painted face
Song : Me and my husband - Mitski
Tw : Toxic relationship, manipulation, angst (ofc)
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Hyunjin was never loved
Well before he came along. When he came along, it was like hyunjin saw the bright opening of his life
What he didn't know that, that opening would also lead to a dead end.
It started with small talks, sitting together at lunch, cuddling together. Just small things you know.
To any normal person, this would seen like a start of a normal friendship, but to hyunjin, it was everything.
You see, he never knew or understood what it felt like to be loved, to be appreciated. So when *he* came along and appreciated hyunjin, hyunjin felt special.
After a while, it grew... Weird. They started dating after that he started being controlling and possessive, hyunjin didn't think anything of it though.
Hyunjin thought that it was normal for the significant other to control the things you do or limit your choices. He never questioned it.
As time went by, hyunjin was punished for certain things like if he said to hyunjin not to talk or interact with a certain person and if hyunjin didn't obey, then hyunjin would have to face consequences.
Why would hyunjin object this behavior though? He told hyunjin that he is the only one who will put up with hyunjin, and hyunjin knew he was right.
He was right, Hyunjin realized that his parents never put up with him and if he was willing to deal with hyunjin then hyunjin was more than happy to satisfy him and obey him. After all, he was finally getting to know how it feels to be loved.
Hitting, slapping, punching, kicking, were the things that hyunjin never expected. He still said nothing. Hyunjin knew he himself had done something bad, something that he told hyunjin not to do, because he wants to protect hyunjin right? Right.
It continued for years until one day hyunjin broke. Hyunjin still loves him though. Till his last breath.
After all he is the only one that loves hyunjin the most. Without him, hyunjin wouldn't survive, would he?