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January 1st, 2024
Dear diary ,
it all started on new year , the end of me as i called it , when my phone refused to turn on ( first of all fuck you sumsung) i plugged it and left it at night to charge but it didn't work and when it did it asked me to delate everything accidentely i clicked the factory reset option and got all my data delated with all my pics from the last 3 years my notes with all my passwords and emails , i applied to a study visa in france with one of those emails, when i say i cried i mean till my eyes were puffy and swollen as hell i didn't cry like this in years the last time was in covid when staying locked down in a 3bedroom house with 7 toxic people almost made me commit suicide , i dressed up with no will to live and took my phone to a person to fix it and went to work , i must have looked awful cause even my coworkers started cheering me up , feriel told me to wash up , amel told me about her experience with her phonz similar to mine and when i tell you those people aren't the nicest there i mean it .
the rest of the day went slow and boring i was stressed about my phone i couldn't focus at work at all thank god we were not crowded as usually ( i don't get why my boss does this like last time it was the prophet birthday all people hade vaccations but he told all of us to come ) , so i went home early around 15H thank god my boss let me go , in my way i got my cats some dry and wet food , went home had a salad and a boiled egg fed the cats and went to my bad to cry my eyes out again i was already tired and overworked to have my phone do this to me , like why me god why meeee ? like i feel so much regret right now you know why i wanted to get a flash disk and put all my pics on it but didn't have time to get a new one now look at me i lost everything i feel so awful and stressed about it , i forggot so many passwords and i don't know how to get them back , just thinking about it made me want to kill myself this was my last straw for 2023 i mean i already failed my year for a lot of reasons i will tell you about it in another letter soon ; anyways i wanted to write some letters to my friend mina (hi baby if you reading this i may have ended my life stay tooned to know why lol) to update her about my life but my hand writting is awful i guess i will just type it for you now (for you and other people apparently)
sleeping that night was awful i wanted to wake up tomorrow and think of it as a nightmare , but it wasn't it was the harsh life slapping me right in the face (not like it was gentil on me anyways) .
yours , MICHA