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"it's a long way down.. Do you want to jump?" you're on the edge of the hospital roof, about to end it all. Maybe it's for the best, y'know? everyone will be happier like that.
You're so lost in your thoughts you dont notice the loud running coming from the stairs. You dangle one foot in the air and...
"SUNNY!!!" uh- what? you look up to see why you aren't falling to your demise yet.
"oh- oh thank god.. i caught you!" your vision is bad, partially because you're now blind in one eye, but also because your kinda hanging by your arm in the air. but you manage to make out blonde hair and a beat up face..
"Basil..?" wow, real asshole move there, basil. first stabbing your eye and now preventing you from killing yourself? now that's just the cherry on top of the fucked up cake that's your life.
Basil pulls you back up to safety, he's crying.
"S-sunny i... please dont do this to me..." he can barely articulate a sentence between his sobs.
you stay silent and stare at Basil. "i just can't do this anymore Basil..."
"sunny please... you have so much to live fo-" before he can finish his sentence, you cut it short.
"i dont. m-mari is dead and it's all my fault... i fucked it up. i just can't do this." Basil looks up at you, teary eyed
"Sunny please, i care too much about you to let you do this..."
"oh really? then i guess you STABBING MY FUCKING EYE was just you looking out for me!" basil doesnt seem to be fond of your sarcasm, he goes silent and looks down.
"sunny I.." "save it Basil." Basil looks back up at you, he's clearly feeling guilty.
"look, that doesnt even matter right now just please listen to me sunny... just know i care. a lot. so please dont..." Basil is practically begging you by now.
you sigh, basil does have a point... you're only sixteen... but, what does he know of your life anyways? i mean except all your deepest darkest secrets..
"just... get out of the way." Basil looked up at you, horrified.
"no... no... no. no, no, no, NO, NO!" Basil runs to the open edge of the roof to block you.. it reminds you of something... of... mari... four years ago...
you try and push the thought to the back of your head. "Basil. don't. just move." but Basil doesnt budge.
"im not letting you do this!" he's crying again.
you start getting cold sweats... this is all too familiar... what if you mess up again..? "B-basil please..."
"if you jump then im going down with you." Basil is on the verge of exploding into tears
"you arent being serious." "try me." you look at Basil again... and cant help but give up. you barely have the energy to be alive, let alone any left for whatever is going on. you decide to just go back to your hospital room.
Basil runs after you "Sunny look.. we really need to talk about this..." "goodnight, Basil." you decide to ignore any confrontation and just take a nap. who cares if it's still morning, right?
you slowly close your eyes and fall asleep as soon as your head hit the pillow.
a few minutes (or hours...) later, you get woken up by someone knocking on your door.
"go away, Basil.." you're still very sleepy.
He opens the door anywa- wait, Kel!??
"sunny? are you in there?" Kel peaks through the opening of the door.
"Kel!!" you're so glad to see him! i mean, he kinda is the reason you even got out of your house in the first place...
Kel walks in "im so glad you're okay! what even happened to you and Basil??"
You go silent and your smile slowly wipes off your face. right... this is one of the main reasons you wanted to kill yourself.
Just then you notice blue eyes peaking from behind Kel... "h-hi sunny..." of course. you shouldve known Basil would be here too.
you sigh "hi, Basil..." you ended up sounding a lot more gentle then you intended.
"hey could we... talk? like.. just you and me..?" you slowly nod, even tho you dont really want kel to go, he always lightens up the mood! but it might be time you and Basil... talked.
Kel walks out of the room, and you're left alone with Basil once again.
"l-look sunny im... really sorry... for, everything. i should've been able to find a better solution... for Mari.. and for.." he looks up at your eye patch "this..."
"its.. fine, i guess.." Basil's eyes light up when you say that, he was probably expecting you to be angry and snap, i mean, he's used to Aubrey more than anything after these four years..
"i mean i haven't made the best decisions either... its really my fault, Basil.." Basil seems to get a little worried as you start blaming yourself.
"no,no Sunny i-its not your fault really!! i know it... y-your a good person, Sunny! im sure of it!" Basil looks at you, his eyes filled with hope.
"im really not Basil... i-im a monster..." the thoughts you used to have when you were locked up in your room, they're coming back. your self-esteem is crumbling, just like that, on the spot, and your eyes start filling with tears.
Basil seems to get really worried about you the second these words exit your mouth. "no! you cant just say that sunny!! i-its all gonna be okay in the end... i know it! w-we can do this! together!" Basils words are getting old. he seems to be repeating the same sentences since you were twelve.
"then prove it. prove you'll be here for me, even when i want to kill myself or when i do something stupid again." You look at Basil, trying to drink back your tears but failing miserably.
Basil looks at you, confused. "i-im not sure how to do that but.." he seems to take a second to find his words and each millisecond that passes makes you lose hope of ever recovering from any of this a little more. "okay. I'll do it." Basil stares into your eyes with determination. Was he always this determined to help you? Were you just too blind to see you had someone to lean onto this whole time..? And to think just yesterday you were fighting to death with him in his own room... How i the world does he still trust you..?
"you're probably just saying that. y-you didnt even come to visit me after.." that's it, tears start streaming down your face like a faucet someone forgot to close.
"s-sunny..." Basil looks at you, pitiful. "please dont cry... im so sorry.. i know i should've come to see you i was just so... scared..." he looks down, he definitly feels guilty again.
"I'll be here for you this time... i swear.. i wont leave you again.." Basil grabs your hand to bring you comfort. But now you feel a little bad for making him feel bad and worry so much. this is why you never open up. This was a bad idea. a really bad idea. oh no... what have you done... Basil obviously just feels bad for you. he definitely doesn't care.
"we'll go through this together, Sunny." Basil's words still feel untrue and forced to you, but theres not much you can do about that, youre way too tired for another confrontation today.
You force a smile which seems to convience basil and he gets out of your room. The second basil closes the door you lay back in bed, staring at the ceiling. shortly after, you start crying. oh god, this is all really bad. what in the world are you gonna do..?
You suddenly remember quite an important detail, youre moving. TOMORROW.
you should probably think about telling basil that...
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