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**Chapter One: The Queen of the Room**

The music pulsed low and lazy, like a heartbeat beneath the chatter of voices and clinking of glasses. The rooftop bar at Chulalongkorn’s student commons was always busiest on Friday nights—half students celebrating the end of midterms, the other half pretending they didn’t exist. A thin layer of heat clung to everything, mingling with the scent of fried food, expensive cologne, and the sweet smoke of flavored hookah.

And in the center of it all was Namtan Tipnaree.

She was leaned back on a couch, long legs stretched out, one arm draped over the backrest like it was a throne. Her black cropped jacket had slipped off one shoulder, revealing the ink of a tiny star near her collarbone. Her hair was tied up in a messy ponytail, loose strands framing a face that always looked like it knew more than it said.

People watched her. They always did.

Not because she was the most beautiful girl on campus—though she might’ve been—but because she was the most *unbothered*. Confident. Untouchable. She was the girl people told stories about. The kind who broke hearts with a smile and never looked back.

Across from her, Beam was talking loudly with his usual theatrics, flicking his lighter open and closed like a nervous tic. Pear, ever the instigator, sat beside him with a drink in hand and a smirk playing on her lips.

“She’s not your type,” Pear said suddenly, tossing the comment across the low table like a challenge.

Namtan raised an eyebrow lazily. “Who?”

Pear nodded toward the far end of the rooftop, where a girl sat alone on a high stool, half-shadowed by a string of golden fairy lights. She had a book open in front of her, untouched fries cooling beside her drink. Her posture was relaxed, but not comfortable—like she was used to being alone but hadn’t yet made peace with it.

“Film,” Pear said. “Rachanun. You’ve seen her around.”

Namtan followed Pear’s gaze. She *had* seen her. Once, maybe twice. Always alone. Always quiet. Pretty, in an understated way—soft cheeks, long lashes, a thoughtful mouth. There was something about her that felt... closed off. Like a house with the windows shuttered.

“She’s the girl who told off a professor last semester,” Beam added, grinning. “Total badass.”

“And she hasn’t dated anyone since first year,” Pear chimed in. “Rumor is someone really messed her up.”

“Rumor is she’s immune to charm,” Beam laughed. “Even yours.”

That got Namtan’s attention.

“Oh?” she said, sitting up slightly. Her voice was smooth, calm. Curious. “You think I couldn’t make her fall for me?”

Pear smirked. “I think you’d try. But I think she’d see through you in a second.”

The table chuckled. Namtan’s pride bristled, but she didn’t let it show. She simply looked over at Film again—this time longer.

The girl was flipping a page in her book with slow, deliberate movements. She wasn’t wearing makeup. Her dark hoodie looked too big, like it was borrowed. Her eyes, when she glanced up briefly, looked like they’d been trained not to hope.

Not even a flicker of recognition crossed her face when they locked eyes. No spark. No reaction.

It was the first time in a long time that someone had looked at Namtan and seen *nothing*.

And somehow, that made her want everything.

Namtan tilted her head, lips curving into a slow, dangerous smile.

“I don’t lose dares,” she said, her voice low.

Pear grinned. “Then prove it.”

The rules were simple: make Film fall in love.

No deadline. No pressure.

But Namtan didn’t need either. She was already standing, brushing imaginary dust off her jeans.

As she made her way across the rooftop, her heart wasn’t pounding. Her steps didn’t falter.

She didn’t believe in love. Never had.

But she believed in winning.

And she hadn’t realized yet: this wasn’t the kind of dare you walk away from.

---

**Chapter Two: First Move**

The walk from her table to Film’s felt longer than it should have.

Not because of the distance—twenty steps, maybe twenty-five—but because the space between them felt like it belonged to a different world. On Namtan’s side, laughter, alcohol, confidence. On Film’s, stillness. A kind of quiet solitude that didn’t ask to be interrupted.

But Namtan was never one to ask.

She moved with practiced ease, every inch of her body language saying *I belong here*. That was her gift. She didn’t wait to be invited in. She arrived, and the room adjusted.

Film didn’t look up when Namtan stopped at her table.

Up close, she looked even softer than Namtan expected. There was a faint scar on her jaw, a tiny, pale thing, almost elegant. Her nails were unpainted. She didn’t have headphones in, just silence—and she seemed to wear it like armor.

Namtan cleared her throat, just enough to announce her presence. No charm yet. Just her voice.

“You always read in noisy places?”

Film didn’t look up. Not right away. She turned a page first, like the sentence she was reading deserved to be finished before she acknowledged the world.

When she did glance up, her eyes were clear and unreadable.

“I like the noise,” she said simply. “Makes the silence feel like mine.”

Namtan blinked. Not the answer she expected.

“Huh,” she said, sliding into the chair across from her. “Deep.”

Film narrowed her eyes just a little. “I didn’t invite you to sit.”

Namtan smiled. “You didn’t not invite me, either.”

Film closed her book, but didn’t push it aside. Her hand stayed on it, like it was a barrier between them. Like she could open it again at any second and pretend Namtan wasn’t there.

“What do you want?” she asked, blunt.

Namtan leaned back in her chair, pretending not to notice the cold front. She tilted her head, as if considering the question seriously.

“I guess I just wanted to meet the girl who never smiles.”

Film gave the smallest of snorts. “And?”

“And here you are,” Namtan said with a smirk. “Still not smiling.”

“I’m not a puzzle,” Film said, looking straight at her now. “You don’t get to solve me and win a prize.”

Something about the way she said it made Namtan pause.

This wasn’t the kind of girl who fell for compliments and casual charm. She didn’t play the game. She didn’t even stand near the board.

But it didn’t deter Namtan. If anything, it intrigued her more.

“So you’ve heard of me,” she said, voice lilting.

Film’s expression didn’t change. “Everyone’s heard of you.”

“And yet,” Namtan leaned forward, resting her elbows on the table, “you don’t seem impressed.”

“I’m not.”

Namtan laughed—really laughed, taken off guard by how direct she was. “Okay, wow. Brutal honesty. I like it.”

Film said nothing.

Namtan let the silence linger, watching her. There was a calmness to Film that made Namtan feel restless in contrast. Like she was the flame flickering in the wind and Film was the stone too heavy to move.

“You’re really not going to flirt back?” Namtan asked, feigning disappointment.

“I don’t flirt with people I don’t trust,” Film replied.

The air shifted just slightly.

Namtan smiled, but it was smaller now. Realer. “Fair enough.”

She sat back in her chair again, legs crossed, like she was settling in.

“I’m Namtan.”

“I know.”

“You’re Film.”

“Also correct.”

They stayed like that for a moment. Not speaking. Not smiling. Just two people watching each other closely, waiting to see who would break the rhythm first.

Then Namtan’s phone buzzed. A message from Pear:

> *Bet you already got shot down lol.*

Namtan didn’t respond. She slipped the phone back into her pocket and stood up.

“Well, this was enlightening,” she said. “Maybe I’ll see you around.”

“Maybe,” Film said, not looking up again.

Namtan hesitated a second longer. She could walk away now. Laugh it off, call it a failed first attempt. Say she didn’t care.

But she *did* care. Not because of the dare. Not yet.

Because something in Film’s voice stayed with her. That quiet strength. That wall made not of arrogance, but of damage.

She wasn’t like anyone Namtan had met before.

And Namtan had no idea yet what that would mean.

But she was going to find out.

---

**Chapter Three: The Quiet Between**

**Film’s Perspective**

The rooftop bar was always too loud.

The noise didn’t bother her—not in the usual sense. It was like white noise in her head, a muffled hum that kept her grounded. It gave her permission to disappear. In silence, people noticed. In noise, she could be just another face in the blur.

That’s why she came here. Every Friday.

She didn’t drink. Barely ate. She ordered the same passionfruit soda each time and read the same worn book—*Letters to a Young Poet*. Rilke’s words were like old friends, ones who didn’t ask questions, who didn’t pry.

Tonight had been the same. Almost.

Until Namtan Tipnaree sat across from her.

Film hadn’t even flinched when she approached. She was good at stillness. Practiced at detachment.

But inside, her gut had twisted.

Everyone knew Namtan. The campus flirt. The magnetic one. The girl who walked like she owned every space and never had to ask permission.

Film had seen her before, of course—heard the rumors, the stories, the names dropped like trophies. But she had never spoken to her. Never wanted to.

Namtan was the type of person who could break someone without meaning to.

And Film had been broken enough.

---

She sat alone again now, after Namtan had left, her soda still full, the ice melting into watery spirals.

She didn’t open her book again.

Her fingers tapped the cover slowly, over and over, the sound drowned out by the bar’s ambient buzz.

**You don’t get to solve me and win a prize.**

She hadn’t meant to sound bitter. But maybe she had been.

Film had learned, painfully, what it meant to be a prize to someone.

That first love—if you could call it that—had been slow to start, but even slower to heal from. She’d said all the right things. Looked at her like she was something rare. Told her she was difficult, but worth the effort.

And then, when she let her guard down—when she’d let herself hope—she'd laughed. Told her it had all been a game. Said no one would love her without a reason. That she was cold. Hard to reach. Not enough.

She hadn’t dated since. She barely made eye contact with anyone she didn’t already know.

So when Namtan sat across from her, all smirks and confidence, Film’s stomach had knotted instantly.

She was beautiful, yes. That much was obvious.

But she was also dangerous.

People like Namtan could make you feel wanted, just long enough to believe it.

And then leave you hollow.

---

Film stood up slowly, picking up her things with calm precision.

She walked past the table where Namtan had been before, her friends still sitting there, laughing. She didn’t look at them, but she could feel their eyes on her. Or maybe it was paranoia.

She walked home. Alone, like always.

---

Her apartment was small and quiet—one room, minimal furniture, books stacked along the wall like bricks in a fortress. A record player hummed a soft piano piece from a speaker. The light was dim.

She kicked off her shoes and sat on the edge of the bed, pulling her knees up to her chest.

She wasn’t afraid of Namtan. Not exactly.

But her arrival had stirred something. A question Film didn’t want to ask.

*Why me?*

People like Namtan didn’t notice people like her. Not unless there was a reason. Not unless there was something to win.

Her thoughts wouldn’t stop circling.

Maybe it had just been a dare.

Maybe it didn’t matter.

Maybe she should just ignore her next time.

But…

Something in the way Namtan looked at her hadn’t felt like a performance. Not entirely. Something in her voice when she said her name. Not *Namtan the player*. Just… Namtan.

Film lay back on the bed, one arm folded under her head, staring up at the ceiling fan.

She hated that she was thinking about this. About *her*.

But the thought was already planted.

And Film knew herself well enough to recognize the danger:

She wanted to know what would happen if she let her guard down again.

Even just a little.

---

**Chapter Four: The Space Between Intention and Action**
*Namtan’s Perspective*

There was something about being told she couldn’t do something that made Namtan incapable of letting it go.

It wasn’t pride. Or at least, not only pride. It was something deeper. Something older.

Maybe it was the fact that people had always expected her to be able to get anything—or anyone—she wanted. So when someone didn’t respond the way she predicted, it unsettled her. Made her itch to fix it. To control the narrative again.

Film was a question she hadn’t been able to answer yet.

That annoyed her.

But in an interesting way.

---

The next day, Namtan stood in front of the mirror in her room, lazily running a flat iron through the ends of her hair. Her room was a curated kind of chaos: makeup scattered across her vanity, textbooks under her bed, a designer jacket draped over the back of her chair. Everything she needed within reach.

She didn’t even glance at her phone when it buzzed.

**Pear**:
> She’s not gonna fall for it. You’re wasting your time.

Namtan smirked and typed back:

**Namtan**:
> Watch me.

She tossed the phone onto her bed and pulled on a clean shirt. Loose, slightly oversized, casually cool. Just enough effort to look effortless. Her reflection stared back at her, smug and bored.

She didn’t feel excited.

She felt *focused*.

This wasn’t about feelings. This wasn’t about *her*.

It was a game. And she was good at games.

---

She spotted Film again the next afternoon. Not at the bar this time, but tucked into a quiet corner of the university library. The sunlight filtered in through high arched windows, painting soft lines across the dusty wooden floor. Film was sitting on the floor beside a low bookshelf, legs crossed, a book in her lap, and a mechanical pencil balanced behind one ear.

It took Namtan twenty minutes to approach her.

She didn’t mean for it to take that long. She wasn’t nervous, not really. She just… didn’t want to come off too strong. Or maybe too obvious. She didn’t want Film to think she cared.

Because she didn’t.

Right?

Finally, she grabbed a random book off a nearby shelf—something about political history she absolutely wasn’t going to read—and made her way over.

Film didn’t look up.

Not when Namtan sat on the floor next to her, not when she crossed her legs and cracked open the book like she was actually reading it.

Five minutes passed.

Still nothing.

Namtan exhaled a breath, half amused, half frustrated.

“You always this cold to people, or is it just me?”

Film turned a page. “You always this persistent?”

“Only when I’m intrigued.”

Film didn’t answer.

Another minute of silence.

Then—finally—she glanced over.

“Do you actually read?” she asked, eyes flicking to the book in Namtan’s hands.

Namtan grinned. “Sure. I read people.”

Film raised an eyebrow, but didn’t comment. She just turned back to her book.

Namtan watched her for a beat too long. The way her fingers moved when she turned a page, gentle but precise. The crease between her eyebrows as she concentrated. The soft shadow beneath her eyes, like she hadn’t been sleeping much.

She was beautiful in a quiet way. The kind of beauty that didn’t try to be seen. The kind that surprised you when you *did* see it.

But that wasn’t why Namtan was here.

It was about the win. The *pull*. The thrill of being the exception.

Of being the one Film finally let in.

---

Later that day, she told Pear: “She’s not as cold as she wants people to think.”

Pear laughed over the phone. “You’re projecting.”

“No,” Namtan said, lying on her back across her bed, staring at the ceiling. “I’m observing. She wants to be left alone, yeah. But not because she doesn’t want people. She just doesn’t trust them.”

Pear was quiet for a second. “So what’s your angle?”

Namtan smiled slowly. “I’m gonna make her trust me.”

Pear’s laughter was tinny in her ear. “You’re ridiculous. She’s gonna break your streak.”

“No,” Namtan said confidently. “She’s going to fall in love with me.”

And she meant it.

That was the whole point.

She wasn’t looking for connection. She wasn’t looking to feel anything.

She just wanted to win.

---

That night, she scrolled through Film’s social media. It wasn’t much. Her Instagram had barely twenty posts, most of them landscapes, books, and cats. No selfies. No tags. No stories. No attention-seeking captions.

It was like she was deliberately hiding in plain sight.

That only made her more fascinating.

Namtan didn’t care about quiet girls. She usually went for the flirty ones, the party types, the kind who could keep up with her sarcasm.

But Film was different. Untouched. Distant.

A challenge.

The kind that made you lean in just to see if she’d flinch.

And Namtan had every intention of leaning in.

Closer.

And closer.

Until Film *had* to look at her.

---

**Chapter Five: Flicker**
*Film’s Perspective*

The day was overcast. Grey light filtered through the windows of the art building’s empty stairwell, dulling the colors of the posters on the wall. Film liked this spot—third floor landing, behind the exit sign—because no one came here. It was too quiet for most people, too tucked away. But for her, it was peace.

She had an hour between classes and nowhere to be. The hard concrete steps were uncomfortable, but familiar. She pulled her knees to her chest and opened the novel in her lap.

She was halfway through the chapter when the footsteps came.

She knew it was her before she even looked up.

Namtan.

Of course.

No one else walked like that—like the world was just waiting for them to arrive. Confident but easy. Unhurried. Like she never worried whether she was welcome.

Film didn’t move. She kept her eyes on the page, even as her heart picked up slightly.

“New hiding spot?” Namtan said, voice echoing slightly in the stairwell.

Film turned a page. “It’s not hiding if I come here every Thursday.”

Namtan sat down two steps below her, close enough to share the quiet, but not so close that their bodies touched.

“That makes it sound like a routine.”

Film didn’t respond. She was hyper-aware of the way the air shifted around Namtan. Of the subtle scent of her perfume—fresh, a little sweet, like jasmine and rain.

“I brought something,” Namtan added after a moment.

Film looked down to find a drink being offered upward. A plastic cup with a paper sleeve and condensation beading down the sides. Milk tea. The same brand she usually bought. No pearls.

Her eyes flicked up.

“How did you—?”

“You left the cup on the table in the library yesterday,” Namtan said with a smirk. “I remember things.”

Film hesitated.

It was a small gesture. Insignificant, even. A drink. A guess. But it landed with more weight than it should have.

Because no one paid attention like that.

No one remembered things like that.

She took the cup, cautiously. “Thanks.”

Namtan didn’t gloat. She just leaned back against the wall and stared up at the ceiling, like they were just two strangers sharing the silence.

But they weren’t strangers anymore, were they?

Not exactly.

---

Ten minutes passed.

Namtan didn’t speak again.

She didn’t press.

Didn’t ask personal questions or fill the space with stories about herself like Film had seen so many others do when trying to impress someone.

She just sat there.

Present.

Like she was comfortable not knowing everything at once.

Like she was willing to wait.

It was unsettling.

And, somehow, comforting.

---

Film closed her book after a while and rested her chin on her knees. She peeked down at Namtan from the corner of her eye.

“You don’t get bored of people who don’t give you attention?”

Namtan smiled, but didn’t look at her. “I don’t get bored easily.”

“That’s not an answer.”

“Maybe I’m not here for attention.”

Film scoffed softly. “Then what are you here for?”

Namtan shrugged. “Maybe I just like the way you don’t pretend to be someone else.”

Film stared at her.

That one sentence did something strange inside her chest. A flicker of warmth. Of confusion. Like someone had touched something raw, something she thought was hidden too deep to be noticed.

She looked away.

“You don’t know me,” she said quietly.

“No,” Namtan replied. “But I’d like to.”

---

When Namtan finally left, Film didn’t move for a long time.

She stared at the stairwell wall, unmoving, her tea cold in her hands.

She didn’t want to admit what she felt.

She didn’t want to name it, even silently.

Because maybe it was nothing. Maybe it was just attention. Just the echo of a past wound responding to kindness.

But still...

It had been a long time since anyone tried this hard to stay.

---

**Chapter Six: The First Crack**
*Film’s Perspective*

It started with a text.

Just one.

**Unknown number**:
> Hope you weren’t allergic to the milk tea. That would’ve made this awkward.

She stared at it for too long before responding.

**Film**:
> I drank it.
> I’m still alive. So. Good guess.

Three hours later, another reply.

**Namtan**:
> I like knowing things about you.

Film stared at that line again and again until the screen dimmed.

She didn’t respond. Not because she didn’t want to—but because she did.

And that scared her.

---

She saw her again the next day.

The campus courtyard was half-shaded by trees and full of lazy movement—students walking between buildings, chatting on benches, the occasional blur of a bike cutting through the stone path. It was the kind of afternoon Film usually liked. Everyone busy with their own lives. No one looking too closely.

Until Namtan did.

She was sitting on the far bench, one leg slung over the other, sunglasses perched on her head, scribbling something into a notebook.

Film tried to walk past without slowing down.

It didn’t work.

Namtan looked up, smiled, and patted the empty space beside her.

Film hesitated. Her feet betrayed her.

She sat down.

The silence stretched comfortably between them for a while.

And then:

“Do you like it here?” Namtan asked, voice soft.

Film tilted her head. “School?”

“No,” Namtan said. “This place. This part of campus.”

Film looked out over the courtyard. At the vines climbing the old bricks, the way the trees filtered the light into gold. She exhaled quietly.

“It’s quiet. And nobody watches you here.”

“Except me.”

Film turned her head. Namtan’s eyes were already on her.

She didn’t smile this time. Didn’t tease. She just looked.

Film swallowed. Her throat felt tight.

“You don’t have to keep doing this,” she said, voice low. “Whatever this is.”

Namtan blinked. “Doing what?”

“Whatever this... game is.” She tried to keep her voice steady. “I’m not some puzzle. I’m not someone you can just... figure out for fun.”

For a second, Namtan didn’t answer. And for the first time, Film couldn’t tell what she was thinking.

Then Namtan said, “Who said it’s for fun?”

That made Film pause.

She looked down at her hands. Twisted her fingers together. Her voice was barely audible.

“I’ve been lied to before.”

Namtan didn’t move.

“Someone once told me,” Film continued, “that no one would love me without a reason. That if anyone did... it was only because they wanted something.”

There was another long silence.

And then Namtan shifted. Her shoulder brushed against Film’s just slightly.

“I’m not that person,” she said quietly.

Film turned to her. “No,” she said. “You’re not. But I don’t know who you are yet.”

---

After that, they sat in silence again.

But this time, it felt different.

Like something had cracked open, just slightly.

A fracture in the wall.

Namtan didn’t press. She didn’t ask more questions. She just sat with her, the way she had in the stairwell. Steady. Quiet.

That night, Film looked at her own reflection for a long time. Tried to understand what it was she felt building inside her.

Hope?

Fear?

A wanting she wasn’t ready for?

She couldn’t name it. Not yet.

But she knew one thing:

She was starting to trust her.

And that was the most dangerous feeling of all.

---

**Chapter Seven: All In**
*Namtan’s Perspective*

The dare didn’t start out serious.

It had been tossed out like a joke, some harmless challenge between drinks. Pear had leaned forward over the bar, grinning like a villain in a high school drama.

**“Okay, okay. I dare you to make her fall in love with you.”**

Film Rachanun.

The name had landed on the table with weight. Not because she was loud. But because she was untouchable. The girl who walked through campus like she didn’t owe anyone anything. The girl who never looked twice at anyone. The girl with silence for armor and eyes that never gave too much away.

Namtan had smirked at the time, twirling her straw between her fingers. She’d accepted it like a game. Like something she’d already won.

But that had been almost a month ago.

And Film still hadn’t fallen.

She’d softened, yes. Let Namtan sit beside her, text her sometimes, share space. But love? No. She wasn’t there yet. Namtan could tell.

And the longer it took, the more Namtan found herself getting… *involved*.

Not emotionally. Not like that.

But invested.

The way you get invested in a difficult song, or a puzzle that’s just missing one piece. You don’t love it. You just can’t let it go.

---

She made her move on a Tuesday.

It was raining—light, steady, the kind of rain that made the sky look like wet paper. She saw Film leaving the science building with her hoodie pulled up, one hand over her bag.

Namtan didn’t call out to her.

She just pulled her umbrella closer and fell into step beside her.

Film blinked at her under the shadow of her hood. “Stalking me now?”

“You walk the same way every week,” Namtan said. “That’s not stalking. That’s pattern recognition.”

“You’re proud of that?”

“Of course,” she said with a grin. “How else am I supposed to be in the right place at the right time?”

Film gave a small shake of her head, but Namtan caught the ghost of a smile.

They walked the next few blocks in silence, shoes splashing quietly through shallow puddles.

Then Namtan asked, “Do you trust people easily?”

Film looked at her sharply.

Namtan added quickly, “Not asking for myself. Just wondering.”

Film turned her gaze back to the pavement. Her voice was soft. “No.”

“Because of him?”

Film didn’t answer.

That was answer enough.

---

Namtan didn’t ask anything else after that. She just walked her home, umbrella tilted slightly toward Film’s side even though it meant her own shoulder was getting wet.

When they reached the apartment building, Namtan didn’t say goodbye right away.

She looked at Film for a long moment.

Film looked back.

“Do you want to hang out this weekend?” Namtan asked casually. “Nothing intense. Just coffee. A bookstore maybe.”

“Is that your version of a date?”

“Would you say yes if it was?”

Film paused. “Maybe.”

Namtan tilted her head, eyes glinting. “Then maybe it is.”

---

Saturday came.

And Namtan didn’t treat it like a date—not exactly. She treated it like strategy.

She picked the café Film liked. The quiet one with the windows that steamed up when it rained and indie music playing soft over the speakers. She brought a paperback she pretended to be reading. She let Film take the lead when they browsed the shelves next door.

She didn’t flirt too much.

Didn’t crowd her.

Just… watched. Paid attention. Noticed the way Film read the backs of books like they were secrets. The way she held things gently, like they could fall apart if touched wrong.

She even let Film talk about one of her favorite authors—let her voice rise just slightly when she got caught in the excitement of describing a character arc.

And when Film stopped herself mid-sentence and muttered, “Sorry, I’m rambling,” Namtan said, “No, I like hearing you talk. You don’t usually.”

Film didn’t respond, but she didn’t pull away either.

That felt like something.

---

They didn’t touch that day.

Not even accidentally.

But the space between them got smaller.

And Namtan felt it.

Not as something romantic. Not as emotion.

But as momentum.

Progress.

Evidence that the dare was working.

That she was getting closer.

She walked away that afternoon feeling like she'd unlocked a new level in a game.

She didn’t notice the way her chest tightened when Film waved goodbye, eyes lingering a little too long.

She didn’t notice how she thought about the way Film smiled on the train ride home.

Because to her, it still wasn’t anything.

Not yet.

Just a dare.

A win waiting to be claimed.

---

**Chapter Eight: Pieces She Doesn’t See Coming**
*Film’s Perspective*

The first time Namtan touched her, really touched her, it wasn’t a big moment.

There was no dramatic lighting, no sudden background music swelling to hint at something life-changing.

It was quiet.

Small.

They were sitting on the floor of Film’s apartment, books spread around them like a second carpet. Rain ticked gently against the window, a metronome for the silence.

Film had said yes to letting her in—not just the apartment, but her space.

It still felt strange. Letting someone this close. But she told herself it was temporary. Just a casual thing. Just company.

Namtan leaned forward to grab a pen, and her hand brushed against Film’s knee.

A second too long.

Not a mistake.

Not quite intentional either.

But something in Film still locked up for a moment.

Not out of fear.

But anticipation.

When she didn’t pull away, Namtan glanced up at her.

Eyes dark. Focused.

Film held her breath.

Namtan smiled—small, almost shy, like she wasn’t sure if she’d be allowed to smile like that. Like she didn’t know how much power she already had.

And then she turned back to the paper between them, scribbling something down.

Film didn’t move for a while after that.

She just stared at the space where their hands had almost been.

---

Later that evening, Namtan curled up at the edge of the couch, legs tucked under her. She held a cup of tea Film had made—overly sweet, because Namtan had requested “something comforting” in a mock-whiny voice.

Film sat in the armchair across from her, knees pulled up again.

She never quite let herself relax fully around people.

But she was getting closer.

Namtan was looking around the room, at the walls covered in mismatched prints and notes taped to the side of the bookshelf.

“Your space feels like you,” she said.

Film blinked. “What does that mean?”

“Like it’s quiet at first. But if you look long enough, there’s color everywhere.”

Film didn’t know what to say to that.

Compliments usually came in the form of a smile, or an awkward thank you, or a laugh. This one sat differently. It was too observant. Too soft.

Too… real.

She looked away. “You don’t have to say things like that.”

“I’m not saying them because I have to.”

Film didn’t answer.

But she didn’t look away, either.

And she didn’t kick her out.

---

The next time they met, Namtan brought flowers.

Not a full bouquet. Just a small bundle of dried lavender, wrapped in brown paper.

“I saw it and thought of you,” she said casually.

Film held them like she didn’t know what to do with them.

Because she didn’t.

Who gives someone lavender? Who notices little, still things like that?

Who—?

No one.

Not before.

Not the last person.

She put the lavender in a glass jar on her desk. She didn’t say thank you.

But Namtan didn’t seem to mind.

---

Something was building.

That was the worst part.

Film could feel it in the pauses. In the quiet between glances. In the slow, creeping comfort of shared space.

In the way Namtan leaned closer now when she spoke.

In the way her voice softened just a little when she said Film’s name.

In the way Film found herself watching Namtan’s hands when she talked.

Looking for something she hadn’t let herself want in years.

She told herself she wasn’t falling.

But every time Namtan laughed—really laughed, head thrown back, eyes shining—something inside her cracked.

She didn’t know if it was a wall breaking down or a wound reopening.

But she knew it would hurt.

Eventually.

Even if it didn’t yet.

---

**Namtan’s Perspective**

She was winning.

She could feel it.

Film wasn’t cold anymore. Not really. She didn’t flinch when Namtan reached for her wrist to point something out in a book. She didn’t pull away when their knees touched on the couch.

She looked at her now.

Listened.

Laughed sometimes—real laughter, like she forgot to guard it.

That felt like progress.

And Namtan?

She was proud of it.

The way someone’s proud when they learn how to read a new language, one gesture at a time.

It still wasn’t about feelings.

It was about control.

About proving she could.

About watching someone who was unreachable slowly begin to open their door.

She told herself that was all.

That the tightness in her chest when Film smiled wasn’t anything.

That the way her eyes lingered on the curve of Film’s mouth wasn’t interest—it was observation.

That she could stop anytime.

She just didn’t want to.

Yet.

---

**Chapter Nine: A Night That Hangs Too Long**

*Film’s Perspective*

It was a quiet Friday evening when Namtan showed up at Film’s door unannounced. The rain had stopped, leaving the air heavy and thick with the scent of wet earth, and Film had already settled into the familiar solitude of her apartment.

She was sitting cross-legged on the floor, a half-empty mug of tea beside her, a thick book open but unread. Her eyes were tracing the words, but her mind was elsewhere.

The knock on the door startled her. She wasn’t used to visitors.

She opened it to find Namtan standing in the hallway, her hands tucked into the pockets of her jacket, a casual grin playing at the corner of her mouth.

“I brought you something,” Namtan said, holding up a small, wrapped package. “It’s not much.”

Film stared at the package for a beat, then glanced back up at Namtan’s face. There was nothing overtly flirtatious about the gesture, but it felt… different. It wasn’t the usual teasing or bravado. It was a soft kind of care that left Film off balance.

“What is it?” Film asked, her voice quieter than she intended.

“Just something I thought you might like.” Namtan shrugged casually, but the way she avoided looking directly at Film made her uneasy. There was a softness there, like something unsaid.

Film hesitated, but eventually reached out and took the package, carefully unwrapping it. Inside was a small leather journal, the kind with an aged, weathered look that gave it character.

“I thought you might want something to write in,” Namtan said, her voice quiet now, almost uncertain.

Film felt a strange flutter in her chest. A gift. A personal one. And it wasn’t the first time she’d noticed how often Namtan paid attention to little things—things no one else seemed to care about.

“You’ve been paying attention,” Film said softly, looking down at the journal in her hands.

“I do that,” Namtan replied with a smile. “I pay attention.”

---

They didn’t talk much at first. Namtan entered the apartment and settled into the chair by the window, pulling her legs up underneath her. The rain had left the streets below glistening, the neon lights from the nearby cafes reflecting off the wet pavement. The silence between them wasn’t uncomfortable, but it was thick with the weight of things unspoken.

Film watched her for a moment, unsure of what to do with the journal. It wasn’t the kind of thing she’d asked for—she hadn’t asked for anything. But the gesture felt… thoughtful. Too thoughtful.

“You’re staying for a while?” Film asked, though it wasn’t really a question.

“Yeah,” Namtan answered, her voice low. She didn’t look at Film, but there was a softness in the way she spoke. She was settled in now, her shoulders relaxed, her eyes distant as she watched the streetlights flicker outside. “I don’t have anywhere else to be.”

Film didn’t know what to say to that. Her heart was beating faster than it should have been. Namtan wasn’t like anyone she’d known before, and as much as she wanted to keep her distance, it felt harder and harder to do so.

She sat back down on the floor, the journal resting in her lap. She wasn’t sure if she was supposed to say thank you or if she should just let it hang there, unanswered. But the tension between them was like a thread pulling tighter with every moment of quiet.

The longer they sat, the closer Namtan seemed to drift to her. It wasn’t obvious—nothing overt, nothing that screamed "I’m interested" or "This is more than just a visit." But there was a subtle shift, something that clung to the air.

Film’s fingers hovered near the edge of the journal, tracing the worn leather. She could feel Namtan’s presence in the room like a constant pull, drawing her in without even trying.

---

A few moments later, Namtan finally spoke.

“You know,” she said, still not looking at Film, her voice soft but deliberate, “I’ve been wondering why you don’t let anyone get close.”

Film’s stomach dropped at the question. She hadn’t expected it, didn’t know how to answer it. But there was something in the way Namtan spoke, like she wasn’t judging, just… observing.

She paused, wondering if she should just deflect. Say something about her life being complicated, or that it was easier not to let people in. But Namtan wasn’t asking for an excuse. She was asking because she cared enough to notice.

“I don’t trust people,” Film said quietly. “I’ve been hurt before.”

The words felt like they had a weight to them, like a truth she wasn’t used to saying out loud.

Namtan finally turned her head to meet Film’s eyes. “You don’t trust me?”

Film swallowed hard, her throat dry. “I don’t know.”

The silence between them stretched for a long time. It felt like they were both holding their breath, waiting for something—waiting for the walls that kept them apart to either stay standing or crumble.

“I won’t hurt you,” Namtan said, her voice a little quieter now, the words softer than usual.

Film’s heart skipped in her chest.

---

The evening stretched on in the quiet hum of the apartment, the only sound being the occasional rattle of rain against the windows. It wasn’t until much later that Namtan spoke again, her voice low, almost hesitant.

“You’re different when it’s just us,” she said.

Film didn’t know how to respond. She wasn’t sure if it was a compliment or an observation, or maybe something else altogether. She glanced at Namtan, unsure of what she saw in her expression. There was a vulnerability there now, something raw and real that Film wasn’t used to seeing from her.

For a moment, neither of them said anything. The air between them felt charged, full of unspoken words, and Film’s mind was racing. She didn’t want to want this closeness. She didn’t want to feel anything more than just the lingering guilt she’d carried for weeks now. But every time Namtan smiled, or spoke, or just sat beside her, it was getting harder to keep her heart from betraying her.

“I don’t know what this is,” Film said softly. “I don’t know what any of this means.”

Namtan didn’t answer immediately. She simply sat there, her eyes soft. “It doesn’t have to mean anything. Not yet.”

Film wasn’t sure if she was relieved or disappointed by the response. She didn’t know if she wanted to hear the truth, or if she was just too scared of what that truth might mean.

---

As the night drew on, Namtan eventually got up to leave. She didn’t say goodbye in the usual way. There was no quick hug or a teasing wink, no casual dismissal of the evening.

She just stood at the door, her fingers brushing the handle lightly, and looked back at Film.

“I’ll see you soon,” she said quietly, a promise in her tone.

Film nodded, her throat tight. She didn’t speak, not because she didn’t want to—but because she couldn’t find the words to make sense of the mix of emotions that swirled inside her.

When Namtan left, the apartment felt emptier than it ever had before.

---

**Chapter Ten: The Moment She Can’t Ignore**

*Film’s Perspective*

The days after Namtan left her apartment hung heavy in the air. Film didn’t know why it felt so different. Her apartment wasn’t any emptier than before, and yet, there was an undeniable shift.

It wasn’t just Namtan’s presence that lingered—it was the subtle trace of everything unsaid between them. The quiet look in her eyes when she promised to see Film again. The softness in her voice when she said she wouldn’t hurt her.

Film had been doing this for so long—keeping people at arm’s length, letting them drift in and out of her life without ever letting them in. But Namtan… Namtan was different. And the more Film tried to ignore it, the more she couldn’t.

It had been a week since Namtan’s visit, and Film found herself thinking about it at the strangest times. When she was walking across campus, or when she was sitting alone in her apartment, reading. And each time, she would remember the quiet moments: Namtan sitting across from her, her leg brushing against hers, the soft gift of the journal, the promise in her eyes when she said she wouldn’t hurt her.

The ache was something Film couldn’t ignore anymore. It was like a pressure building inside her chest, and she didn’t know what to do with it.

---

Namtan’s text came in the late afternoon.

*“I’m thinking of stopping by later. Just for a bit. I found something I think you’d like.”*

Film hesitated before replying, her fingers hovering over the screen. She had gotten used to Namtan’s unpredictable nature by now, but there was something in the way she phrased the message that made Film pause.

It wasn’t a casual visit. There was something else there, something unspoken.

*“Okay.”* She sent the reply before she could second-guess herself.

And then she waited.

---

When Namtan knocked later that evening, Film felt a strange flutter in her stomach. She opened the door to find Namtan standing there with a small bag in her hand, a mischievous smile tugging at the corners of her mouth.

“I brought you a book,” Namtan said, holding it out to her.

Film took it, her fingers brushing against Namtan’s as she accepted the small package. It was a hardcover, something thick and old-looking, the kind of book Film would never have picked up on her own, but it intrigued her immediately.

“What is it?” Film asked, her voice soft.

“A collection of poems,” Namtan replied. “I thought you might like it. I know you like things that make you think.”

Film glanced down at the book. It wasn’t the kind of gift you just gave anyone. It was personal—too personal. It felt like something Namtan had picked out specifically for her, not just some random book she thought Film would like. And the thought of that… unsettled Film.

She didn’t want to feel like she was already letting someone in. Not like this. Not yet.

“Thank you,” Film said, her voice tight as she glanced at Namtan, trying to keep herself composed.

“You’re welcome.” Namtan’s smile was soft, but there was something in her eyes that made Film feel exposed. She didn’t know why it made her feel this way, but it did.

They stood there for a moment, the silence stretching out between them, heavier than it should have been. Film was acutely aware of the space between them—the physical distance and the emotional one. But the longer she stood there, the harder it became to maintain it.

“Do you want to sit down?” Film asked, stepping back into the apartment, holding the door open for Namtan.

“Sure,” Namtan replied, following her inside. She didn’t sit immediately, though. She lingered near the doorway, her eyes scanning the room in that way Film had become used to. She was taking everything in, as always.

Film set the book down on the counter, then turned back to Namtan, unsure of what to say. The tension between them was thicker than usual. There was an undeniable pull—like the air was charged with something that neither of them wanted to acknowledge.

They sat together in the living room, side by side on the couch. Namtan didn’t talk at first. She just sat quietly, glancing at the book in Film’s lap, her fingers tapping lightly on her own knee. It was the kind of silence that felt like it was hanging on the verge of something, but neither of them were brave enough to speak first.

Film wanted to ask her about it. About why Namtan had brought her a book. Why she kept coming back. Why she was here at all.

But she didn’t. Instead, she stared at the book in her lap, her fingers lightly brushing over the cover.

“So,” Namtan finally spoke, breaking the silence, “have you read anything interesting lately?”

It wasn’t a question she expected to be asked—not really. Film looked at her, unsure of how to respond. She couldn’t just say nothing. She couldn’t just lie either. But she didn’t know how much she could say. How much she should say.

“Some stuff,” Film said vaguely, the words coming out in a half-formed murmur. She tried to keep the conversation light, but it felt like an effort. “Just some old novels. Nothing important.”

Namtan nodded, her gaze focused on the book in Film’s hands. Her expression was unreadable, but there was something in the way she watched Film that made her feel exposed. It was like Namtan was seeing her in a way she hadn’t been seen before.

And it was starting to make Film uncomfortable.

---

As the evening wore on, Namtan didn’t leave right away. She stayed, and they talked more—not about anything particularly important, but the conversation flowed easily, and Film found herself laughing more than she expected.

It wasn’t the kind of laughter that felt forced or out of place—it was real. Something relaxed. It felt good.

And then, just as Film began to feel a little less guarded, Namtan’s phone buzzed on the coffee table.

It was a reminder about something—something to do with her friends, Film assumed.

But Namtan didn’t pick it up immediately. She just glanced at it and then turned her attention back to Film.

“It’s okay if you need to go,” Film said, her voice soft. “I don’t want to keep you if you’ve got something to do.”

Namtan shook her head, her eyes locking onto Film’s. “I don’t have anywhere else to be.”

Film wasn’t sure how to respond to that.

But Namtan didn’t let the moment linger. She stood, walking to the window where the rain had started again, tapping lightly on the glass as she stared out into the night.

For a moment, Film stayed where she was, watching her. And when Namtan turned back to face her, the smile on her face was softer than usual.

“I like it here,” Namtan said quietly, her voice almost… vulnerable.

Film didn’t know how to answer that. Didn’t know what she was supposed to feel when Namtan spoke like that. But there was something in her chest that twisted painfully. The walls she’d built so carefully around herself were cracking.

She couldn’t let Namtan inside, no matter how much she might want to.

---

**Chapter Eleven: Unspoken Words**

*Film’s Perspective*

The rain hadn’t stopped. It was a steady drizzle that blurred the world outside, turning the city into a softened, muted version of itself. The streets were slick with water, and the distant sound of car tires rolling through puddles filled the air, but inside, Film felt as if she had entered another world entirely.

Namtan had been gone for nearly an hour now, but the quiet lingered. It felt like she had left something behind—a presence that still hung in the apartment like the humidity in the air.

Film sat on the couch, her legs tucked beneath her, the book Namtan had given her resting on the coffee table. She hadn’t opened it yet. The book felt too heavy somehow, not because of its physical weight but because of what it represented—something more than a simple gesture.

She didn’t want to think too much about it. Not yet. But the truth was, she couldn’t help it. Everything about Namtan’s visit had felt different. The way she looked at Film, the way her words had seemed to linger in the air after she’d left.

The way she had made Film feel like she wasn’t just another person in the crowd, but someone she wanted to be near.

---

*Two days earlier...*

The knock on the door had come late in the afternoon. It was the kind of late afternoon where the shadows stretched long across the room, and the light from the window seemed to make everything feel softer. Film had been caught up in her usual routine, wrapped in a blanket with a cup of tea and a book in her lap when she heard it.

She had been expecting it. In some way, she had known Namtan would come by. It had become a bit of a pattern.

Film didn’t open the door right away. She wanted to. She wanted to be the one to greet her at the door with an easy smile, as if it didn’t matter. But it mattered. The weight of it was too heavy, too significant for something that was supposed to be so casual.

When she finally did open it, Namtan stood there, her hands tucked into her jacket pockets, her expression unreadable. She had that familiar half-smile that made Film’s stomach tighten, a mixture of playfulness and something else—something she hadn’t quite put her finger on yet.

“I brought you something,” Namtan said, her voice light.

Film glanced at the small paper bag she was holding. “You didn’t have to,” Film replied, but she took it from her anyway.

It wasn’t a gift like the last one. No journal, no grand gesture. This time, it was simpler—just a small packet of her favorite tea. The kind Film always drank when she needed to feel grounded.

“I thought you might like it,” Namtan said, her voice softer than usual. “You seem to be running low on it.”

Film smiled at the simplicity of it. It was small, but it was enough. More than enough. It made her chest ache in a way that didn’t make sense, but it was there, quietly tugging at her heart.

“Thank you,” Film said, looking down at the packet in her hand. She didn’t know how else to respond. A simple “thank you” didn’t feel like enough, but she couldn’t bring herself to say more.

“You’re welcome,” Namtan replied, and for a moment, they just stood there. The air between them felt thick with unspoken words.

Film wanted to ask why Namtan kept doing this—why she kept showing up, why she kept making these small gestures when she didn’t have to. But she didn’t ask. Instead, she stepped aside, letting Namtan in.

“Do you want some tea?” Film offered, though she already knew the answer. She knew Namtan well enough by now.

“Yeah,” Namtan replied, slipping off her jacket as she walked past Film, heading for the kitchen without a second thought.

---

The tea was a quiet affair. Film had brewed it, and they sat together at the small table in the corner of the room, the steam rising between them. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable; it was the kind of silence that felt familiar, like something they had come to expect when they were together.

“You know,” Namtan said, breaking the stillness, “I don’t really get it.”

Film raised an eyebrow, unsure of what Namtan was referring to.

“What don’t you get?” she asked, trying to keep her voice steady, even though her heart was beginning to race.

“You,” Namtan replied, her eyes narrowing slightly. “You keep everyone at a distance. But you’re not as hard to figure out as you think.”

Film felt her chest tighten. “I’m not hiding anything.”

“Are you sure about that?” Namtan leaned forward slightly, her gaze softening as she studied Film. “You’re more complicated than you let on.”

Film took a slow sip of her tea, the warmth of it spreading through her chest, but it didn’t quite ease the tightness in her throat. She didn’t know how to answer. The truth was, she *was* hiding something, but she didn’t know how to explain it. How could she explain what it was like to be constantly afraid of getting close to someone?

“You don’t need to know everything about me,” Film said quietly, her fingers tightening around her mug. She didn’t want to sound harsh, but the words came out that way, more defensive than she intended.

“I know,” Namtan replied with a shrug. “But I want to.”

Film blinked, startled by the sincerity in Namtan’s voice. She wasn’t used to being on the receiving end of such honest words, and for a moment, she didn’t know how to respond.

“You don’t have to want to,” Film said softly, her voice almost a whisper. “It’s not… it’s not something I want to share.”

Namtan’s expression softened, but she didn’t press. She simply nodded, as if she understood, even if she didn’t. She took a slow drink of her tea, the silence stretching between them once more. It was the kind of silence that felt heavy but comforting in its own way.

---

The evening passed slowly, the moments slipping by unnoticed as they talked about trivial things—books, music, classes, anything but the things that really mattered.

But somewhere in the back of Film’s mind, she kept thinking about that moment. The way Namtan had said she wanted to know more. The way she didn’t seem to mind when Film held back. It made Film feel… *seen*. And that was something she hadn’t been ready for.

Eventually, Namtan stood up to leave, and Film walked her to the door. There was no tension in the goodbye, no awkwardness—just a quiet understanding that they were both leaving something unsaid.

“Thanks for the tea,” Namtan said, smiling softly as she stepped out into the hallway.

Film nodded, holding her breath for a moment, then said, “I’ll see you soon.”

“Yeah,” Namtan replied, her smile lingering before she turned and disappeared down the hall.

---

*Present day...*

Film sat alone now, the memory of Namtan’s visit replaying in her mind. The simple gestures, the way she looked at her like she cared, and how each time they shared one of those moments, it felt like something was changing between them.

But Film wasn’t sure she was ready to let that change happen.

She didn’t want to want anything from Namtan, and yet, as the days stretched on, it became harder to ignore the pull she felt when Namtan was near.

---

**Chapter Twelve: The Weight of a Dare**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

Namtan sat on the edge of her bed, the night still young but her mind already heavy. The glow of her phone screen illuminated the otherwise dark room, and she scrolled aimlessly through a few social media posts, but nothing could distract her. Her thoughts kept circling back to one thing, and one thing only: **Film**.

It had started out as a simple dare. A challenge she had accepted without thinking too much about it—something her friends had come up with one evening after a few too many drinks. The idea had been funny at the time. The ultimate test of her charm and her ability to get anyone to fall for her. After all, she was Namtan—the campus queen, the girl who everyone admired from a distance. How hard could it be to make someone as quiet and shy as Film Rachanun fall for her?

But now, weeks later, the joke was no longer funny.

The first few attempts had been casual. She’d tried to break through Film’s walls with small gestures—nothing too obvious, just a few thoughtful words here and there, an occasional compliment, a gift or two. Namtan had expected it to be easy. She had always been good at this—making people like her, winning them over with her smile, her humor, her natural confidence.

But Film was different.

At first, Namtan had thought Film was simply being difficult. Cold, distant, and completely uninterested. But the more time she spent with her, the more she realized that the walls Film had built around herself were not there to keep people away—they were there to protect her. And Namtan had begun to see it, more and more with each passing day.

---

*Flashback: The First Day She Really Noticed*

It was one of those rare, quiet afternoons when Namtan found herself sitting with Film in the campus library, working on a group project. The space was dimly lit, the air thick with the scent of old books and faint chatter from other students scattered around. They had been assigned to work together, something Namtan had dreaded at first. But as the hours passed, she found herself stealing glances at Film, watching her quietly type away at her laptop, her focus unwavering.

Namtan tried to make small talk at first, asking Film about her favorite classes, what she liked to do when she wasn’t buried in books. But Film had barely responded. She wasn’t rude—just… distant.

Namtan wasn’t used to that. People usually gravitated toward her. They laughed at her jokes, they gave her attention without her even having to ask for it. So why was Film different?

It frustrated her at first.

“Why don’t you ever talk?” Namtan had asked, the question slipping out before she could stop it.

Film looked up from her laptop, her expression soft but guarded. “I don’t have much to say.”

Namtan had stared at her for a moment, taken aback by the bluntness. “Well, what about when you do have something to say?”

Film shrugged. “Not everyone needs to know everything.”

Namtan had to bite back the urge to laugh, not out of mockery, but because it was such an unexpected answer. She hadn’t anticipated this side of Film. It was clear now that there was something more beneath the surface, something that kept Film from letting others in.

And suddenly, the dare didn’t seem as funny anymore. The challenge wasn’t about winning her over with charm and wit—it was about breaking through barriers. Real ones. And Namtan wasn’t sure she knew how to do that.

---

Since that day in the library, Namtan had tried harder. She’d made more effort, slowly but surely breaking down Film’s walls one conversation at a time. But it wasn’t easy.

At first, Film had remained reserved, hiding behind her quiet demeanor, never letting her guard down. But Namtan kept at it, surprising Film with thoughtful gestures—like the books she’d recommend, the subtle compliments she’d offer, or the unexpected visits to her apartment when she knew Film was studying late. It was all part of the game, Namtan reminded herself. It was about making Film feel special, about showing her that there was more to life than isolation.

But somewhere along the way, something shifted.

Namtan found herself looking forward to those visits. At first, she told herself it was just for the dare—because she needed to win. But then, when Film laughed at one of her jokes or smiled at her for no reason at all, it felt different. It felt like more than just a challenge. It felt like connection. Real connection.

---

*The Present Day...*

Tonight, Namtan lay back on her bed, staring up at the ceiling, her thoughts a chaotic swirl. She had visited Film earlier that evening. She had brought over a simple gift—one of her favorite types of tea, the kind that Film had mentioned liking during one of their many quiet conversations. She hadn’t meant for it to be anything grand. It was just something small, something simple to show she remembered.

But when Film had opened the door, when her warm eyes had met Namtan’s, something in Namtan’s chest had tightened. The flutter that had been growing in her stomach over the past few weeks suddenly felt much more intense.

And then there was that moment, when Film had thanked her. The sincerity in her voice, the way she had smiled—it was almost too much to bear. Namtan had to look away for a moment, because she didn’t know how to handle the way Film was making her feel.

She didn’t know how to handle the fact that she no longer cared about the dare. She didn’t care if Film fell in love with her to win some bet. She just wanted to be around Film. She wanted to hear her laugh, to make her smile, to see her let her guard down.

Namtan had promised herself this would be easy. It would be a game, a playful challenge. But now, every time she saw Film, she was no longer sure what the rules were. She wasn’t even sure if there were any rules anymore.

And worst of all, she didn’t know how to feel about it.

---

*Namtan’s Internal Struggle*

The guilt was overwhelming. She had been playing a game, but the more she tried to win it, the more she realized that she had already lost. Film wasn’t just some conquest. She wasn’t just another person to charm, to make fall in love with her for the sake of a dare.

Film was different. And Namtan had begun to care about her.

But how could she tell her that? How could she admit that everything had changed, that what had started as a dare had now become something she didn’t know how to handle?

Her fingers hovered over her phone, thinking about texting Film. But she couldn’t do it. Not yet. Not when everything felt so… fragile. She had to make a decision. The dare was still there, lingering in the back of her mind. But the more she thought about it, the more it felt like a betrayal—like she was playing with someone’s heart, even if she hadn’t meant to.

Namtan stared at her phone, torn between the girl she had been, who never allowed herself to be vulnerable, and the girl she was becoming, who didn’t want to hurt someone she had come to care about.

She closed her eyes, letting out a deep breath. *What was she supposed to do now?*

---

The sound of her phone buzzing startled her, and Namtan looked down, seeing a text message from Film.

*“Thank you for the tea.”*

Just those four words, but they felt like a weight pressing down on Namtan’s chest. She didn’t know how to reply. She didn’t know how to answer, because she wasn’t sure what was happening anymore.

And the worst part was, she wasn’t sure if Film knew either.

---

**Chapter Thirteen: Between Guilt and Tenderness**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

The weight of the guilt hadn’t lifted, not even a little. It pressed down on Namtan every time she thought about Film, every time she remembered the way Film had smiled at her or the softness in her voice when she’d said thank you for the tea. Every one of those moments, once so harmless, now felt like a delicate thread, ready to snap at any moment.

But it wasn’t the moments themselves that were causing the anxiety. It was the truth that Namtan had hidden from Film. The truth about the dare. The game that had started all of this, the challenge that was supposed to be a joke, but had morphed into something much, much more complicated.

Every time Namtan saw Film, every time their eyes met, she felt the heaviness of the lie hanging between them. And the worst part? It wasn’t even just the guilt of the dare anymore. It was the fact that she couldn’t stop herself from feeling something real, something undeniable, for Film.

Film had become more than a conquest. She was more than the shy, introverted girl Namtan had once viewed as an easy challenge. And now, as Namtan sat alone in her apartment, staring at her phone, waiting for Film to respond to the message she had sent her earlier, she felt herself caught in a whirlwind of emotions. Emotions she hadn’t expected.

She had been expecting the rush of winning. The thrill of getting someone to fall in love with her. But that feeling had long since faded. Now, what Namtan felt was fear. Fear of losing Film. Fear that, once the truth came out, Film would hate her.

With a sigh, Namtan tossed her phone onto the bed beside her and leaned back, staring at the ceiling. Her mind raced with questions that had no answers. *Why did this have to happen? Why did she have to feel this way?*

---

*Film’s Perspective*

Film had been avoiding Namtan’s messages for the past hour, not because she didn’t want to talk, but because the weight of their last few interactions had started to sink in. She had felt something shift between them, something that had slowly crawled into her chest and refused to leave. At first, it had been easy to pretend that it was nothing. To keep telling herself that she didn’t care about Namtan, that this was all just a game.

But the more time she spent with Namtan, the harder it became to believe her own lies. The more Namtan did little things—like bringing her favorite snacks, sitting beside her quietly without saying a word, or just listening to her—that made Film feel cared for in a way she wasn’t used to, the more she found herself drawn to her.

And the more she saw Namtan, the more she found herself doing things she hadn’t expected—things she hadn’t done in a long time.

---

*Flashback: The First Time She Let Her Guard Down*

Film had invited Namtan over one evening to help her with a project. It had started out as just an excuse to get some work done together. Film hadn’t expected much, just the usual quiet, focused environment. But then, something had shifted. It was the way Namtan had laughed at her joke, the way she had looked at Film with those soft, understanding eyes.

There was something comforting in that gaze, something that made Film feel like she could let go of all the walls she had built around herself. For the first time in what felt like forever, she had allowed herself to relax. She had let Namtan sit closer, let her hand brush against hers as they worked side by side.

At first, it was just a brief touch, the kind that might have been nothing to anyone else. But for Film, it was everything. The heat from Namtan’s touch lingered on her skin long after they’d separated, and Film couldn’t shake the warmth that spread through her chest.

That night, as they worked into the late hours, Film found herself inching closer to Namtan. Her body seemed to react before her mind could catch up. Every time Namtan leaned in, their shoulders brushed. Every time she laughed, Film felt her own lips twitch upward, a smile she hadn’t expected to show.

And by the end of the evening, when Namtan stood to leave, she hadn’t been able to help herself. She had touched Namtan’s arm, just briefly, as if to say goodbye, but the gesture felt heavier than it should have. It lingered, just like the warmth of their shared space.

---

*Back to the Present Day*

Film lay on her couch now, the same tension she had felt that night creeping up on her again. She had let Namtan get closer, more than she ever intended. And now, it was impossible to deny that something was changing between them.

She wasn’t sure how it had happened, but little by little, Film had started to open up. More than that, she had started to crave the closeness Namtan brought. She found herself seeking out moments when Namtan was near, when she could sit beside her, when they could just… be together. The touches that had once seemed accidental now felt intentional. And, somehow, Film didn’t mind.

But it was confusing. She still didn’t fully trust Namtan. How could she, when she knew the dare was still hanging in the air, unspoken between them? She wasn’t naive. She knew that, at the end of the day, this was all part of some game to Namtan. A challenge. A bet.

Yet, every time she saw Namtan, every time they shared a moment, Film felt herself slipping further into something she wasn’t prepared for.

---

*Namtan’s Perspective: The Guilt Grows*

It wasn’t long before Namtan’s phone buzzed again. She had been waiting, but she hadn’t expected Film to respond this quickly.

*“Are you free later? I need to talk.”*

The message was simple. Direct. And for some reason, it made Namtan’s heart skip. She stared at the screen for a moment before texting back.

*“Of course. Is everything okay?”*

A moment passed before Film’s reply came.

*“Yeah, just wanted to see you. Can we hang out for a bit?”*

Namtan’s fingers hovered over the screen. She felt a jolt of something—maybe excitement, maybe fear. But all she could do was respond with a simple *“Yeah. I’ll be there soon.”*

She didn’t know why she felt so nervous. She had seen Film countless times before. But this time, it felt different. It felt important.

---

**Chapter Fourteen: When Walls Crumble**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

Namtan had arrived at Film’s apartment that evening, her heart beating in her chest like it was about to break free. Her hands were warm, too warm for the late spring evening, and her mind was a whirlwind. She knew she was here for a reason—Film had asked her to come over, and that was something. But what exactly had prompted this?

Every time Namtan looked at Film, she was reminded of how much things had changed. The playful, effortless charm that Namtan had once worn like a second skin now felt shallow, inconsequential. When she looked at Film, she didn’t see a challenge anymore. She didn’t see the shy girl who had once seemed like an easy target to conquer. No, when she looked at Film now, all Namtan saw was someone she wanted to protect, someone she wanted to cherish.

And yet the guilt still lingered. The dare. The challenge. That stupid, stupid game that had started all of this.

*Namtan, get it together,* she told herself, trying to calm the storm inside. *You care about her. You really care about her. And Film will never know about the dare. It’s just you and her now. That’s all that matters.*

The words rang in her head like a mantra. But even as she repeated them, she knew the truth was harder to swallow. She had started this as a joke, a simple bet with her friends. But now? Now, every time Film looked at her with that soft, trusting gaze, every time their hands brushed, Namtan felt something stir in her chest, something warm and unexplainable.

It wasn’t just about the dare anymore. It was about **Film**.

---

*Film’s Perspective*

Film was nervous, and she hated that feeling. She hadn’t felt nervous around anyone in a long time, but somehow, when Namtan was around, it was as though she lost all control over her emotions.

She had invited Namtan over with a purpose tonight. She had known for a while now that the connection between them was real. She could feel it every time they were together. But there was something else, something deeper that Film had been afraid to admit—even to herself.

She was ready. Ready to let go of her fears, to let herself believe that Namtan wasn’t playing a game with her, that she wasn’t just some pawn in a dare. She wanted to believe that Namtan truly cared about her, and maybe, just maybe, it wasn’t too late to let her in.

But how could she say that out loud?

When Namtan had texted her, Film had hesitated. She was afraid of how vulnerable she was making herself. She had always kept her guard up, but with Namtan, it was different. It was hard to ignore the way Namtan made her feel—safe, wanted, like maybe she could finally let someone love her without fear of being hurt.

---

*The Moment of Truth*

Namtan stepped into Film’s apartment, and Film immediately felt her pulse quicken. She couldn’t help it; there was something magnetic about Namtan, something that drew her in without explanation.

"Hey," Namtan greeted her, her voice warm, almost too warm, and Film smiled, her heart skipping a beat.

"Hey," Film replied, motioning for her to sit. The air between them was charged with something new, something unspoken, but Film couldn’t put it into words. She took a deep breath and tried to calm her nerves.

"How’s your day been?" Namtan asked, sitting down next to Film on the couch.

Film shrugged, feeling the space between them close a little. "Busy, like always," she replied. But the moment Namtan sat so close, Film couldn’t focus on anything else. She could feel the heat from Namtan’s body next to hers, and suddenly, the room seemed smaller, tighter.

It was the simplest of things, really—the way their shoulders brushed lightly, the way Film could feel the electricity of Namtan’s presence—but it was enough to make Film’s heart race.

Namtan turned toward her, her gaze soft. "Film, can I ask you something?"

Film met her eyes and nodded, unsure of where this conversation was heading. "Sure."

"Why… why don’t you let people in?" Namtan’s voice was tentative, a little unsure, like she was treading carefully around something fragile.

Film swallowed. She could feel the question hanging in the air, heavy with meaning. *Could she tell Namtan the truth? Could she let herself be vulnerable like this?*

"I—I’ve been hurt before," Film said softly, her voice barely above a whisper. "Not just once. A lot of times. And every time I let someone get too close, they leave. So I just stopped letting people in. It’s easier that way."

Namtan’s gaze softened further, and she reached out, her hand brushing against Film’s, the contact gentle, like she was asking for permission. Film didn’t pull away. She just looked at Namtan, her heart pounding in her chest.

"I don’t want to hurt you, Film," Namtan said quietly, her words almost too soft, too sincere. "I know I messed up in the beginning, but I swear, I never meant to hurt you. I care about you. A lot."

Film’s breath caught in her throat. *She cares about me?* The words seemed too big to comprehend, too much for her heart to handle. But the sincerity in Namtan’s eyes—the way she was looking at her now, with all that softness—made Film believe it. For the first time in a long time, Film felt like she wasn’t alone.

Slowly, cautiously, Film moved a little closer, her body naturally leaning into Namtan’s. "I’m not good at this… letting people in thing," Film admitted, her voice barely a whisper. "But… I want to try. With you."

And just like that, everything seemed to fall into place. The world outside faded. All Namtan could hear was the steady beating of her own heart, matching the rhythm of Film’s pulse as they sat there, inches apart, both waiting for the other to make the next move.

Namtan’s breath was shallow, and her heart was racing, but for the first time in a long time, she wasn’t scared. "You want to try?" she asked, her voice barely above a whisper, a smile tugging at her lips.

Film nodded, her eyes not leaving Namtan’s. "Yeah. I do."

The space between them was almost nonexistent now. Slowly, carefully, Namtan leaned in, her hand gently cupping Film’s face. The touch was tender, almost reverent, as though Namtan was afraid to break the moment. Film closed her eyes at the contact, her breath hitching, and then, without thinking, she leaned forward, closing the distance between them.

Their lips met in a soft, tentative kiss.

It wasn’t like any kiss Namtan had shared before. It wasn’t rushed or full of passion; it was slow, gentle, as if they were both savoring the moment, testing the waters of something new. Something real.

When they pulled apart, Namtan’s hand lingered on Film’s cheek, her thumb brushing softly over her skin. "Are you sure?" she asked, her voice low, almost uncertain.

Film smiled, her heart full. "I’m sure."

For the first time, Namtan believed it.

---

*The Soft Moments That Follow*

The evening stretched on, and with every passing minute, they became more comfortable with each other. Film found herself resting her head on Namtan’s shoulder, something she had never let herself do before. The warmth of Namtan’s body beside her felt safe, and she allowed herself to relax fully.

Namtan, for her part, was content to just be in the moment. She gently wrapped her arm around Film’s shoulders, pulling her closer. Every once in a while, their fingers would brush, and Namtan would smile at the simple connection. The touch felt so natural now, like it was something they had been doing all along.

Film let out a soft sigh, her voice quiet. "I never thought I could let anyone in like this."

Namtan smiled softly, her lips brushing the top of Film’s head. "You don’t have to rush, Film. We’re in this together."

And as the night wore on, the air between them felt less charged with tension and more filled with a quiet, steady understanding. This wasn’t just a dare anymore. This was something real.

Something neither of them had expected.

---

**Chapter Fifteen: New Beginnings**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

The morning light crept through the blinds of Namtan’s room, casting soft streaks of golden light across the room. She hadn’t slept much. In fact, she’d barely slept at all, her mind racing with thoughts of the previous night. The way Film’s hand had gently brushed against hers. The way Film had leaned in close, letting their foreheads touch for a moment, just before their lips met.

Namtan’s heart still fluttered whenever she thought about it, the memory of the kiss lingering like a sweet warmth against her skin.

But alongside that warmth, the guilt was still there. It hadn’t gone away. And now, the feelings she was starting to develop for Film were impossible to ignore. The dare no longer mattered to her. But the secret of it still weighed heavily on her chest.

*Namtan,* she thought, sighing as she stared at the ceiling, *you need to tell her. You need to be honest with her.*

But every time she imagined the moment when Film would look at her, hurt and confused, she felt like her insides were being ripped apart. How could she explain that everything she had done, every sweet gesture, every soft moment between them, had been built on a lie?

She couldn’t even promise herself that it wouldn’t hurt Film—she couldn’t promise herself that it wouldn’t tear them apart.

Yet, the memory of Film’s shy smile as she had leaned in, the trust in her eyes, told Namtan everything she needed to know. Film was already letting her in. *How could I betray that?*

Namtan sat up slowly, rubbing her face with her hands, willing her thoughts to quiet down. Maybe today would be a good day to talk to Film. To finally confess.

But even as that thought crossed her mind, a wave of uncertainty hit her again. Was she ready? Was Film?

And what if, in the end, she ruined everything?

---

*Film’s Perspective*

The morning after their quiet evening together, Film woke up with a smile that she couldn’t quite shake. It wasn’t the usual polite smile she wore when she tried to hide her emotions. No, this was different. This was an actual, genuine smile, one that had started to stretch across her face the moment she woke up.

She kept replaying the night before in her head—the way Namtan had held her, how easy it felt to lean into her, the way she had smiled at Film like she was the only person in the room. And the kiss.

*God,* Film thought, closing her eyes as she lay back against her pillow, *the kiss was… everything.*

She had always been cautious about her feelings, always afraid to let anyone in. But with Namtan, it was different. The walls she had built up over the years seemed to crumble the more time she spent with her. She could feel it now—how much she wanted to be with Namtan. Not just as someone she could talk to or laugh with, but as someone she could *love*.

Film’s hand instinctively moved to her chest, feeling the rapid beat of her heart. She hadn’t realized just how much she had wanted this until the moment Namtan had leaned in. It had been so soft, so unhurried. Nothing about it had been forced.

And, for once, Film was allowing herself to feel the fluttering in her stomach, the excitement of something new, something good. It wasn’t just the kiss—it was the way Namtan had made her feel *seen* in a way no one else had. For the first time in a long time, Film felt like she wasn’t invisible.

But now, she couldn’t help but wonder what came next.

Would Namtan want to be with her in the same way? Was this the start of something real, or was it just a moment—a passing connection that would eventually fade?

She shook her head. *I shouldn’t overthink it. I’m not ready for that yet. But... maybe I could be. With Namtan.*

---

*Later that Day: Namtan’s Perspective*

Namtan found herself pacing in front of Film’s apartment, a ball of nerves tangling in her stomach. She had texted Film earlier that morning, asking if she wanted to hang out after classes. Film’s response was quick, something simple: *Yeah, sure. Want to come over later?*

Namtan had agreed, and now she was here, standing in front of the door, heart thudding heavily against her ribs. She raised her hand to knock but hesitated, uncertainty flooding her thoughts once more.

What if Film had second thoughts? What if this was all just a fleeting moment for her?

But then, just as she was about to knock, the door swung open, and there stood Film, her hair slightly messy from a lazy morning, her eyes lighting up when she saw Namtan standing there.

"Hey," Film greeted her, and the way she said it—soft, almost relieved—sent a wave of warmth through Namtan.

"Hey," Namtan said back, her voice more uncertain than she intended. "You ready to hang out?"

Film smiled, stepping aside to let Namtan in. "Yeah, come on in. I’m actually glad you came. I’ve been thinking about last night." Her voice was quieter than usual, almost shy, and Namtan’s stomach fluttered at the way Film looked at her.

Film led her to the couch, and they both sat down, the silence between them comfortable but filled with something neither of them had quite put into words yet.

Namtan felt her heart beat a little faster as she took a deep breath. *This is it,* she thought. *I’m going to tell her. I have to.*

But before she could speak, Film turned to her, her eyes looking vulnerable in a way Namtan hadn’t seen before. "Namtan," Film began softly, "I—"

She stopped herself, biting her lip, and for a moment, Namtan just stared at her. There was something in Film’s expression that made her heart ache. She looked... unsure, yet hopeful.

"You don’t have to say anything right now," Namtan said gently, her voice quieter than she meant. "But... if you want to, I’m here."

Film’s gaze softened, and she took a breath. "I do want to say something, actually," Film said, her voice shaky. "I think I’m ready. To let you in, I mean. To be with you. I don’t know what this is yet, but I feel like I want to give it a try. With you."

Namtan froze, her breath catching in her throat. Her eyes met Film’s, and for a moment, everything around them disappeared. It was just the two of them, and the quiet sincerity in Film’s voice made Namtan feel like she could breathe again.

Namtan’s heart swelled, and for the first time in what felt like forever, she let the guilt slip away. It didn’t matter anymore. All that mattered was the way Film was looking at her, the way she was allowing Namtan into her world.

"I want that too," Namtan whispered, reaching out and gently touching Film’s hand. "I’ve never been more sure of anything."

For a long moment, they just sat there, hands intertwined, the world outside fading away. Namtan slowly leaned in, brushing her lips against Film’s forehead in a soft, tender gesture.

Film leaned into the touch, letting her eyes flutter closed, a small sigh escaping her lips. "Thank you," she whispered. "For being patient with me."

Namtan smiled, her heart lighter than it had been in days. "You don’t have to thank me," she said softly. "I care about you. And that’s not going to change."

And just like that, the space between them felt full of warmth, of something new. Something beautiful.

---

*Namtan’s Perspective: Soft Moments*

The evening stretched on quietly, filled with little moments that Namtan hadn’t expected to mean so much. They had watched a movie, their shoulders brushing every so often, but neither of them pulled away. Instead, they leaned in closer, comfortable with the silence that spoke louder than words.

Later, when Film had turned to face her, eyes soft and filled with something Namtan couldn’t quite place, she reached up and gently tucked a strand of hair behind Film’s ear, letting her fingers linger on her skin for just a second longer than necessary.

Film smiled, a quiet, contented smile, and Namtan could feel her heart skip again.

"You’re really good at this," Film said softly, and Namtan raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"Good at what?"

"At making me feel... safe," Film replied, her voice just a touch shy. "Like I don’t have to be so afraid all the time."

Namtan’s heart swelled again, and she pulled Film just a little closer, letting their foreheads rest together. "I promise, I’ll always make you feel safe," she murmured. "That’s the one thing I can guarantee."

---

**Chapter Sixteen: Tender Beginnings**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

The campus was bustling with students rushing to and from classes, groups of friends laughing under the trees, and the usual hum of activity. Yet, as Namtan walked through the familiar paths of the university, everything felt different. It was like the world was softer, quieter, somehow more vibrant—just because Film was walking beside her.

She hadn’t expected this. She hadn’t expected to feel this… right.

The two of them had been taking things slow, which felt like the most natural thing in the world. Every time Namtan looked at Film, something in her chest warmed. It was the way Film’s eyes brightened when they laughed together, the way Film would look away shyly when their fingers brushed.

And yet, no matter how many moments like these they shared, Namtan still couldn’t shake the feeling of guilt, lingering just at the edge of her consciousness. She had started this as a dare. But, slowly, day by day, she could feel the dare fading, becoming less important. Film wasn’t just a target anymore. She wasn’t just a challenge to win. Film had become… everything.

The worst part was that Namtan didn’t even know how to let go of the secret. How could she tell Film that she had started this with a bet? That, in the beginning, all the sweet gestures, the kindness, the moments they’d shared, had been part of a game? She didn’t want to lose what they were building.

And yet, Film seemed to trust her more and more every day. And maybe, just maybe, Namtan could make it right.

---

*Film’s Perspective*

Film walked beside Namtan, feeling the steady warmth of her presence at her side. It was a strange feeling, something she had never experienced before—walking through campus with someone, not worrying about what other people thought, not hiding in the shadows. With Namtan beside her, she felt as if the world had become a little brighter, a little softer.

She couldn’t explain it, but there was something about the way Namtan smiled at her, the way she would glance over when they walked together, as if checking to make sure Film was okay. Film was starting to notice all the little things—the way Namtan would offer her an extra snack when they were studying, how she always made sure Film was comfortable when they were together. It wasn’t just about the big gestures; it was about the quiet, tender care that Namtan seemed to give without even thinking.

And Film—Film was starting to feel like she could finally let go. Let down her walls, one brick at a time. With Namtan, she didn’t feel so invisible, so scared. She felt *safe*.

It was slow, though. Film still had her moments of hesitation, moments when she caught herself pulling away, afraid of what might happen next. But whenever she looked at Namtan, she saw someone who wasn’t going anywhere, someone who would catch her if she fell.

Film smiled, glancing over at Namtan, who was walking with an easy confidence, laughing at something she had said. There was a warmth in her chest. This was real.

---

They had just finished an afternoon study session together in the library, and the sun was beginning to dip lower in the sky, casting long shadows across the campus. Film walked beside Namtan, and for the first time, she wasn’t worried about the noise of the campus, the people watching, or whether anyone would make fun of them.

Her heart fluttered, and without even thinking, she reached for Namtan’s hand, her fingers brushing lightly against Namtan’s.

The touch was simple, unassuming, but as soon as their hands made contact, something shifted. It was as if all the little doubts and fears Film had been holding onto melted away in that moment. She didn’t need to say anything; just holding Namtan’s hand, feeling her warmth, was enough.

Namtan turned to her, her eyes wide for a split second, as if she hadn’t expected Film to make the move. But then Namtan’s fingers curled around hers, and she gave Film a soft smile.

"Is this okay?" Namtan asked, her voice so quiet it was barely audible over the background hum of campus chatter.

Film’s heart skipped a beat. She didn’t need to think about it. She didn’t need to second-guess herself. "Yeah," she whispered, squeezing Namtan’s hand in return. "It’s more than okay."

They walked in comfortable silence, the world around them fading into the background as they walked hand in hand. The simple act of holding hands felt monumental, like they were taking the first real step toward something more than just friendship.

---

Later that afternoon, after grabbing coffee and sitting by the fountain near the main building, Film felt a strange sense of contentment settle over her. She was no longer afraid of the feelings she had for Namtan. She was ready to explore them, to see where this connection would take them.

As they stood up to leave, Film found herself standing just a little closer to Namtan than usual. The space between them was almost nonexistent, and as they began walking back toward the campus entrance, Film’s heart raced in her chest.

For the first time, she let herself act on instinct. Without thinking, she turned her head toward Namtan, her eyes flickering between her lips and her eyes. Namtan’s expression softened, and before Film could second-guess herself, she leaned in, her lips brushing against Namtan’s cheek in a soft, lingering kiss.

The kiss was brief, but it left both of them breathless. Film pulled back slightly, feeling her face flush.

"Sorry," she murmured, unsure of how Namtan would react.

But Namtan’s lips curled into a smile, and she reached out to touch Film’s cheek, her thumb brushing over the spot where Film had kissed her.

"You don’t have to apologize," Namtan whispered. "I like it."

Film smiled shyly, her heart pounding in her chest. "Good," she said softly. "Because I like it too."

They continued walking, but now there was something new between them. A soft, unspoken promise that they were both ready to explore this connection. There was no rush, no pressure. Just the simple joy of being together.

---

The sun was setting, casting a golden glow over the campus. They reached the edge of the main building, and Film stopped, feeling Namtan’s hand still intertwined with hers. She turned to face Namtan, her heart fluttering in her chest.

"Do you ever think about how things have changed?" Film asked, her voice soft and thoughtful. "How... we’re kind of doing this? Being... more than friends?"

Namtan looked down at their joined hands, her thumb brushing over Film’s knuckles. "Yeah," she said quietly. "I think about it all the time. It feels... good. It feels right, Film."

Film’s breath caught in her throat at the sincerity in Namtan’s voice. For once, it wasn’t just about the rush of emotions, the thrill of being close to someone. It was deeper. It was about trust, and care, and something that was blossoming between them slowly but surely.

"Do you think it’s too soon to say I’m glad I kissed you?" Film asked, her voice almost shy now, as if she was worried about saying the wrong thing.

Namtan’s gaze softened, and she pulled Film into a gentle hug, her arms wrapping around her in a way that felt safe and warm. "It’s never too soon to say that," Namtan whispered. "I’m glad you kissed me too."

Film closed her eyes as Namtan held her, letting the moment settle around them. The sounds of the campus faded into the background, and in that moment, all that mattered was the way Namtan’s arms felt around her, how perfectly they fit together.

When Namtan pulled away, her hands lingered on Film’s shoulders for a moment before she gently cupped Film’s face, her eyes locking with hers.

"I think this is the beginning of something really beautiful," Namtan said softly.

Film’s eyes shone with unshed emotion, and she nodded, a small, quiet smile on her lips. "I think so too."

And with that, they shared another kiss—a soft, slow kiss, full of tenderness, full of the promise of what was to come.

---

**Chapter Seventeen: A Promise in the Quiet Moments**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

The weeks that followed the soft, slow kiss beside the main building felt like a dream. Every day with Film felt like a gift. It wasn’t that the days were perfect—there were still moments of tension, small misunderstandings that came with any new relationship—but there was something about being with Film that made everything feel worth it.

Namtan could see the way Film’s guard had slowly started to lower. It was in the way Film would smile at her during lunch, her eyes bright and full of warmth, or how Film would rest her head on Namtan’s shoulder during study sessions, an unspoken trust in the quiet closeness.

Namtan had always been the confident, carefree girl, the one who kept people at arm’s length, always playing the game. She had never let anyone get close enough to make her feel vulnerable. But with Film, it was different.

Namtan hadn’t expected this. She hadn’t expected to fall for someone who made her feel so soft, so… real. And yet, every time she saw Film smile at her, every time she held her hand, every time their lips met in a kiss that was slow and tender, Namtan knew deep down that she had never felt more sure about anything in her life.

The guilt, though, still lingered. Every time they were together, every time Film showed her affection, Namtan could hear a small voice in the back of her mind whispering, *She doesn’t know. She doesn’t know it started as a dare.*

The weight of that truth gnawed at her. Film had opened her heart in a way that Namtan didn’t deserve. She hadn’t been truthful from the very start. But she had made a decision—a promise, to herself—that she would spend every day of her life proving to Film that she wasn’t just another game, that she was real, and this was real.

She would never let Film feel unimportant.

Namtan glanced at Film, who was sitting beside her on the campus bench, her legs pulled up to her chest, a textbook open in front of her, though her attention was clearly focused on Namtan. Film’s gaze was soft and content, her eyes shining with a quiet affection that made Namtan’s heart skip a beat.

Film was so different now, so much more open. It was the small things that Namtan loved: the way Film would tug her sleeve, pulling her a little closer when they sat together, the way Film’s lips would curl into a shy smile when Namtan spoke. Even the way Film would reach for her hand in the middle of class, squeezing it like it was a secret just for them.

There were moments when Film would look at Namtan like she was the most important person in the world, and in those moments, Namtan wanted to believe that she *was* the most important person to Film. That this was real.

But no matter how much Namtan reassured herself, the nagging voice was still there: *She doesn’t know the truth. You’ve been lying to her.*

And yet, each time Namtan kissed Film or held her close, it felt more and more like the dare was fading into the background. What mattered now was that Film was becoming her world. Namtan had spent so much of her life playing games, but with Film, there was nothing to win, nothing to prove. All she wanted now was to show Film that she could be trusted.

Namtan took a deep breath, staring out at the campus horizon, feeling the weight of the promise she had made. *I’m not going to tell her about the dare. I can’t. She trusts me now. I’ll prove every day that I’m worth it, that I’m here for her for real. I’ll be the best girlfriend I can be so that she never doubts how important she is to me.*

---

*Film’s Perspective*

It felt natural now, this closeness with Namtan. Film had never imagined herself being so comfortable with someone, but with Namtan, everything just made sense. She felt like she could breathe a little easier when Namtan was around.

Film had never been the type of person to express her emotions openly, but with Namtan, it felt like she didn’t need to hold back. Every time Namtan held her hand, kissed her cheek, or pulled her into a tight embrace, Film couldn’t help but smile. It was as if Namtan was teaching her how to love and how to be loved in the simplest ways.

But there was something else, something deeper that Film had started to feel in these quiet moments they shared. She could tell Namtan cared for her, and yet, sometimes there was something in Namtan’s eyes, something that seemed distant. It was fleeting, like a shadow passing across her face, but Film noticed.

It made her wonder. Had Namtan always been this way? Or was it something she was hiding?

Film didn’t question Namtan outright. She didn’t want to push her, not when everything felt so right. There was a trust between them now—fragile, but there. And she wanted to believe, wholeheartedly, that Namtan was being honest with her.

But there were moments when Film could sense that Namtan was still holding something back, and it made her feel both anxious and unsure. *What could it be?*

For now, she pushed those thoughts aside, determined to savor these small, tender moments with Namtan. The feeling of Namtan’s hand gently caressing hers, or the way their fingers intertwined so naturally, made Film feel like she was the luckiest person in the world.

---

The sun was low in the sky as they walked through the campus together. Namtan had her arm around Film’s shoulders, and Film was leaning into her, feeling the familiar warmth of Namtan’s embrace. The air was crisp, the beginnings of autumn settling in, and there was a quiet peace between them.

As they strolled across the lawn, Namtan leaned down, brushing a strand of Film’s hair behind her ear. The simple act made Film’s heart flutter. She tilted her head up slightly, and before she could stop herself, she pressed a soft kiss to Namtan’s cheek.

Namtan froze for a moment, her heart racing at the unexpected tenderness. She looked down at Film, eyes wide. "You’re full of surprises, huh?" she teased, her voice light.

Film blushed, looking down at the ground in embarrassment. "Sorry, I just… I don’t know. I wanted to kiss you." She smiled shyly, her cheeks pink.

"Don’t apologize," Namtan whispered softly, brushing her thumb across Film’s cheek. "I like it. I like *you*."

For a moment, the world seemed to slow down. The only thing that mattered was the way they stood there, close and warm, with nothing but the soft whispers of the evening breeze around them.

Then Namtan leaned down and kissed Film’s forehead gently, lingering there for a second longer than necessary. The kiss was tender, soft—simple, yet more meaningful than any words could express.

Film closed her eyes, the warmth of Namtan’s touch sending a wave of comfort through her. "I’ve never felt like this before," Film whispered. "It’s… different with you."

"I know," Namtan said, pulling Film a little closer, her hands resting gently on Film’s waist. "It’s different for me too. But in the best way."

They stood there, savoring the moment, the closeness between them as natural as breathing.

---

*Later that Evening*

As the evening wore on, they found themselves on a quiet bench under the dim lights of the campus garden. They didn’t need to talk constantly—sometimes, it was enough just to be there, side by side.

Film leaned against Namtan, resting her head on Namtan’s shoulder. Namtan’s arm was around her waist, keeping her close, and Film sighed softly in contentment.

"You feel so warm," Film murmured, her eyes closing, a small smile on her lips.

Namtan chuckled softly, brushing her hand through Film’s hair. "I’m glad. I like keeping you warm."

Film opened her eyes and looked up at Namtan, her heart full. "You’re... good to me, Namtan," Film whispered, her voice barely above a breath. "Better than I ever expected."

Namtan’s heart clenched at the sincerity in Film’s voice. "You deserve it," she said quietly. "You deserve someone who sees you—who loves you for everything you are. And I’ll make sure you always know how important you are to me."

---

**Chapter Eighteen: Unspoken Truths**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

The soft glow of the setting sun painted the campus in shades of gold, and the world felt like it had slowed down for just a moment. Namtan walked with Film through the familiar paths of the university, their hands brushing every now and then, each touch feeling like a quiet promise.

It had been a few weeks since they’d officially started exploring what their relationship could be. There had been moments of laughter, of shared silences, of lingering looks that spoke volumes. Namtan could feel herself falling deeper for Film with every passing day. And what surprised her most was how easy it felt to fall. She never thought that she’d find someone who made her want to be better, someone who made her feel seen and important.

The breeze ruffled Film’s hair, and Namtan couldn’t help but smile as Film tucked a stray strand behind her ear. “You’re always so thoughtful,” Film said softly, glancing at Namtan with a small, tender smile.

Namtan grinned. “You deserve it,” she replied, her voice low but sincere. She had learned, over the last few weeks, how much she enjoyed moments like these—quiet moments where she didn’t have to prove anything, where she could just be herself with Film, and the world could just exist around them.

As they approached a secluded bench near the campus garden, Namtan pulled Film down to sit beside her. The warmth of the afternoon sun lingered on their skin, and they sat in companionable silence, enjoying the peacefulness of the moment.

Film leaned her head onto Namtan’s shoulder, her eyes closing as she let out a contented sigh. The feeling of Film so close to her, trusting her enough to rest on her like this, made Namtan’s heart skip a beat. She knew she was falling for Film, but in moments like these, it became painfully clear just how deeply she had already fallen.

“Hey, Film,” Namtan whispered, her voice gentle. “I’m really glad you’re here with me.”

Film opened her eyes slowly, meeting Namtan’s gaze. There was something vulnerable in her expression, something that made Namtan’s heart ache in the most beautiful way. “I’m glad I’m here too,” Film murmured, her voice soft. “It feels... right. With you.”

Namtan’s heart tightened, and she reached out, tucking Film’s hair behind her ear again, this time letting her fingers linger there a moment longer. “I’ll make sure you always feel this way,” she promised, her voice steady, despite the small flicker of guilt that still gnawed at her inside.

Film smiled up at her, her eyes shining with quiet affection. It was a look that made Namtan’s chest tighten with a mix of warmth and anxiety. She wasn’t sure how she could keep this going without revealing the truth. How could she tell Film that this had started as a dare? How could she ever let her know that everything she’d said, everything she’d done, had been part of a game, even if she had fallen so deeply for her?

The silence between them stretched on, comfortable and easy. It felt like the kind of moment where time could just stop, and Namtan wouldn’t mind. But it didn’t. Eventually, the peaceful quiet was broken by the sound of students heading to their next classes, the day continuing on as it always did.

“Should we head to class?” Namtan asked, her voice laced with reluctance, not wanting the moment to end.

Film nodded, pushing herself up from the bench and offering Namtan a shy smile. “Yeah, we should.”

As they walked side by side toward the building, Namtan couldn’t help but feel like she was walking on air. Maybe this was the start of something real. Something lasting. Maybe, just maybe, it could work.

---

*Film’s Perspective*

After their quiet moment on the bench, Film felt like she could almost float. Every day with **Namtan** felt like a dream come true. The way Namtan treated her—so kindly, so gently—made her believe that maybe she deserved to be loved. Maybe she deserved to be cared for.

The thought of being with Namtan forever, of walking through life hand in hand, had become something she dreamed of. But there was a lingering shadow at the back of her mind, a feeling she couldn’t shake. There were times, brief moments when Namtan would look away, a flicker of something that Film couldn’t quite place. It was as if Namtan was holding back.

But Film didn’t want to question it. She didn’t want to let her old fears ruin what they had.

She was walking toward the lecture hall when her phone buzzed in her pocket, distracting her from her thoughts. She pulled it out and glanced at the message: it was from a friend asking about weekend plans. She smiled, quickly typing a response.

When she looked up, she realized she had passed the lecture hall. Her gaze wandered, and she spotted Namtan talking to her friend, Pear, by the entrance of a nearby building. Film paused, her feet stopping of their own accord as she watched the two of them.

Pear was laughing at something Namtan had said, her hand playfully swatting at Namtan’s arm. Namtan’s face was open and relaxed, her usual confident smile in place. It looked like the kind of conversation she would have with any friend.

But as Film stood there, her eyes narrowing slightly, something felt… off. She wasn’t sure why, but her gut twisted uncomfortably. Pear was talking with a little too much intensity. Namtan was laughing, yes, but there was something in her voice, something in the way her eyes flickered when Pear mentioned something that Film couldn’t hear. It felt too familiar. Too private.

Film’s heart beat faster, a cold, prickling sensation spreading through her chest.

She took a few slow steps closer, moving quietly to avoid being noticed. Her ears strained to catch the conversation, and she froze when she heard Pear’s voice.

“Well, she’s definitely falling for you. I mean, you’ve done a good job,” Pear said with a smirk, her tone casual. “I didn’t think it would work at first, but... looks like the dare’s really taken off, huh?”

Film’s heart stopped.

The words hit her like a punch to the gut. *The dare*.

Her eyes widened, and the world around her seemed to blur. She didn’t know how much longer she stood there, listening to the conversation unfold. The next words came through like a sharp blade to her chest.

“You’ve got to admit, it’s kind of funny, right? I never thought she’d actually fall for you,” Pear continued, laughing softly. “... looks like she’s in deeper than we thought.”

Namtan’s voice was quieter now, but still, the words cut through Film like daggers. “I didn’t think it would happen like this either, but... now that it has... I can’t stop it. I don’t want to stop it.”

Film stumbled back, her hands shaking. Her stomach churned with a mixture of disbelief and a hollow emptiness she hadn’t felt in years. She couldn’t breathe. The weight of everything crashing down on her felt like too much to bear.

She turned and walked away, her legs feeling unsteady, her heart pounding in her chest.

*It was all a lie. It was all just a game. She never cared about me...*

Her thoughts spiraled out of control as the familiar pain from her past resurfaced. The old wounds opened up again, raw and bleeding. The voice in her head screamed at her, telling her that no one would love her for real. That it was all too good to be true.

She reached the nearest hallway, leaning against the cold wall, her hands trembling. The tears threatened to spill, but she bit her lip, refusing to let them fall. Not here. Not now.

*Namtan doesn’t really love me. I was just part of a dare. I’m nothing more than a challenge.*

---

***Chapter Nineteen: The Wall Cracks**

*Film’s Perspective*

The halls seemed like a blur as Film stumbled through them, her heart pounding in her chest. The world felt disjointed, as if it was spinning around her, and she couldn’t keep up. Every step felt heavier than the last, every breath more shallow. Her mind raced with a single, devastating thought:

*It was all a lie.*

She had thought they were real. She had thought that all the soft touches, the lingering glances, the gentle kisses, were real. But now, hearing Namtan’s voice, hearing the confirmation that the affection she had felt for her, the trust she had placed in her, had been a game... it shattered her in ways she hadn’t expected.

She had given so much of herself to Namtan. She had let her guard down. She had allowed herself to trust—no, to *believe*—that someone could love her for who she was. But now, the person she thought she had been falling for was just another person who had used her for amusement. **A dare. A bet.**

Film’s vision blurred as the cold walls of the corridor pressed in on her. She stumbled, her hand gripping the side of the wall for support, but her legs were shaky, and the ache in her chest felt like it was going to swallow her whole.

*How could I be so stupid?*

Her breathing became shallow, uneven. She pressed her palms against her temples, as if trying to stop the thoughts from spiraling further. The echo of Pear’s voice—*It’s all part of a dare*—repeated in her mind over and over, until it felt like it was suffocating her.

*Why did I think this was real?*

Her stomach twisted with nausea, and for a moment, she thought she might throw up. But the sick feeling in her gut wasn’t just from the conversation she had overheard; it was the realization that she had allowed herself to believe in something that had always been a lie.

Film closed her eyes, trying to steady herself. The tears threatened to spill, but she clenched her fists to her sides, desperate to hold them back. She couldn’t let anyone see her like this—not here, not now. The last time she had been vulnerable, the last time she had let herself fall for someone, it had ended in a mess. And this? This felt like the worst kind of betrayal.

*I should have known better.*

She could feel the familiar wall inside her rising, the one she had spent years building, brick by brick, to protect herself from the hurt of rejection. The wall that had kept her safe from the sharp sting of love—the kind of love that never really existed. And now, with every passing second, she could feel it slamming back into place. Her chest tightened as she instinctively started to withdraw into herself, her emotions retreating like a wounded animal curling up in the dark.

*She doesn’t love me. She never did. I’m just another one of her games. Just another thing she got bored of.*

Film clenched her fists, her nails digging into her palms, but the pain didn’t help. The ache in her chest was deeper than anything physical. The worst part was how easily she had fallen for Namtan’s charm. How effortlessly Namtan had wormed her way into Film’s heart.

*How could I be so blind?*

The thought echoed louder, until it drowned out everything else. Every smile from Namtan, every touch, every kiss—they were all lies. And Film had been a fool to believe in them.

She should have known that no one would want her. Not for real. Not the way she wanted to be wanted.

Film bit her lip so hard she almost drew blood, trying to stop the sobs from escaping. She couldn’t let them show. She couldn’t let anyone see how badly she was hurting. The old wounds that had never fully healed—wounds from years of feeling invisible, of being told she wasn’t enough—were wide open now, bleeding all over again. And this time, it wasn’t just the betrayal of a lover—it was the betrayal of someone she had trusted to *see* her.

*I was never enough. I’ll never be enough.*

The thought settled like a weight in her stomach. She had never been enough for anyone. Not for the friends who came and went. Not for her parents, who had always been too busy with their own lives. Not for the girl who had broken her heart years ago and told her that no one would ever love her willingly. And now, not for Namtan.

*Namtan just used me. She played me.*

Film could feel the tears welling up, and she tried to hold them back, but it was no use. They spilled over, hot and uncontrollable. She wiped at her face, furious at herself for letting her emotions get the better of her.

*I won’t be weak. I can’t be weak. Not again.*

But the words rang hollow in her mind. She was weak. She had let herself believe, let herself hope that maybe, just maybe, she had found someone who cared for her. Someone who would love her without the need for tricks, without a dare.

But it was all a lie.

---

*Namtan’s Perspective*

Namtan was walking out of the building, her hands stuffed into the pockets of her jacket. She hadn’t expected her conversation with Pear to go as it had. It had been easy—too easy, really. Pear had always been the instigator in their group, the one who pushed everyone to do things they weren’t sure they wanted to. But now, standing in the cold hall, the weight of the conversation sat heavily on her shoulders.

*You know, she’s in way too deep,* Pear had said.

Namtan had laughed, brushing it off, but deep down, she had known that things weren’t as simple as they had started out. Film had come to mean so much more than just a challenge, than just a game. And yet, the guilt still lingered, gnawing at her, making every second feel like a lie she was perpetuating.

*How can I keep doing this? How can I lie to her every day and still expect her to trust me?*

Namtan’s heart clenched as she thought about how Film had opened up to her—how Film had let her in. The thought of losing that, of losing Film, was unbearable.

But Namtan couldn’t shake the feeling that it was all falling apart. She had never meant to fall for Film this hard. She had never meant for any of this to go beyond the dare. But now, as the weight of the truth began to press on her, Namtan felt the walls closing in.

She pulled out her phone, intending to text Film, but when she checked her messages, her heart skipped a beat. Film hadn’t responded to her last message.

*Where is she?*

Namtan’s pulse quickened as a sudden sense of panic gripped her. She looked around, hoping to catch a glimpse of Film’s familiar figure somewhere in the crowd of students heading to their next classes. But Film was nowhere to be found.

Namtan, feeling the knot in her stomach tighten, immediately decided to find her. Something wasn’t right. She needed to make sure Film was okay.

---

*Film’s Perspective*

Film had found a quiet corner in the library, sitting on the floor in the back, her back against the cold wall, as she tried to hold herself together. But every time she closed her eyes, she could hear the words, the laughter, the sting of betrayal.

She wanted to scream. She wanted to run. But most of all, she just wanted it all to stop.

But she couldn’t escape the truth. She had been a fool. And now, the pain was too much to bear.

---

**Chapter Twenty: Shattered Walls**

Namtan hadn’t realized how much time had passed until she checked her watch, glancing at the clock on the wall of the hallway. Her stomach twisted with unease. Film hadn’t answered her texts, and she still hadn’t seen her. It was unlike her to be this distant.

*Did I do something wrong?* The thought gnawed at her insides.

She had tried to reach out a few times, but there was no response. No sign of Film anywhere in the lecture hall. The guilt gnawed at her, that familiar feeling of *doing something wrong* creeping into her thoughts again. She had been so caught up in her own spiraling emotions about the dare, so caught up in the idea of *keeping this secret* that she hadn’t thought about how her actions were affecting Film.

Now, with every minute that passed, she could feel the knot in her stomach tightening. Film had always been so quiet, so introspective, and Namtan knew that when something bothered her, Film would retreat into herself, like she was doing now.

Namtan’s footsteps quickened as she made her way through the building, her mind racing. She needed to find her. She needed to make sure Film was okay.

But as she turned the corner and approached the library, she paused. She saw someone entering the library through the glass doors, their back turned. It was Film—but she didn’t stop. She just kept walking, the sound of her footsteps growing faint as she disappeared into the stacks.

Namtan stood still for a moment, her breath caught in her throat. Something was wrong. She could feel it in her gut. Something was very, very wrong.

---

The soft hum of the library’s air conditioning was the only sound that filled the silence around Film as she sat alone in the dimly lit corner, her knees pulled up to her chest, her arms wrapped tightly around them. She felt small, like a child who had been abandoned in a vast, indifferent world. The weight of everything—of the lies, of the pain, of the shame—was almost too much to bear.

She had been here, in this quiet corner, for over an hour. She wasn’t sure what she was waiting for—perhaps some sort of reassurance that the world hadn’t crumbled beneath her feet. But nothing came. The world outside continued as it always did, people moving from one place to the next, the sun shining bright, life going on. But for Film, everything felt hollow. The air was thick, suffocating.

*How could I have been so blind?*

The question repeated in her mind like a cruel mantra. She had let herself believe that someone—Namtan, of all people—had cared for her. She had given her trust so easily, handed her heart over, piece by fragile piece, only to have it torn away in the cruelest way possible.

She thought back to their quiet moments together—the times when Namtan had held her hand, when Namtan had whispered sweet words in her ear, when they had kissed, slow and soft, as if they had all the time in the world. Those moments, those precious, beautiful moments, had felt real. So real. But now, with the truth sinking in, those moments seemed like nothing more than a performance—a carefully orchestrated act.

*It was a game. Just a game to her. I was never meant to be more than that.*

Her stomach twisted painfully, and she found herself fighting against the overwhelming urge to break down completely. She couldn’t let herself cry. Not here. Not now.

But her heart felt as though it had been torn in two, ripped apart by the realization that the one person who had made her feel seen, the one person who had shown her affection without asking for anything in return, had never truly cared. **Namtan’s** love, or what she had thought was love, had been nothing more than a dare. A challenge. A bet.

The familiar ache in her chest became almost unbearable, and she gasped for air, feeling like she couldn’t breathe. She could hear Pear’s voice again, echoing in her mind, *“I didn’t think it would work at first, but... looks like the dare’s really taken off, huh?”*

*How could I have been so stupid?* Film’s self-deprecating thoughts tore at her like a thousand tiny blades. *She never loved me. I was just part of the game. I’ll never be enough.*

Her fingers dug into her arms as she curled in on herself even tighter, trying to make herself smaller. The world around her felt too large, too overwhelming. She wished she could just disappear. She wished she could rewind the clock, back to before she had allowed herself to believe in any of it, back to when she had been cold and closed off, when she hadn’t allowed herself to be vulnerable.

*If I hadn’t let her in…*

But it was too late for that. The walls she had so carefully built around herself, the walls that had kept her safe from this kind of pain, were crumbling, piece by piece. She had trusted **Namtan**. She had trusted that the tenderness in her touch, the quiet moments of affection, were genuine. But now, she was left with nothing but the painful truth: **Namtan** had never cared about her in the way she had thought.

*She never really wanted me. She just… played me.*

Film buried her face in her knees, her shoulders shaking with quiet sobs that she couldn’t stop. The tears came in waves, hot and relentless, and she couldn’t fight them anymore. She wasn’t sure how long she had been sitting there, lost in her grief, her heart broken and bruised by the weight of betrayal.

The door to the library creaked open, and the sound of footsteps echoed through the hallway, but Film didn’t move. She barely noticed the noise anymore. She didn’t want to see anyone, didn’t want to talk to anyone. She just wanted to stay in this cold, lonely corner and pretend the world didn’t exist.

She thought of Namtan again, and the quiet moments they’d shared. She remembered the way Namtan had looked at her, the way her hands had always felt so warm when they touched hers. She remembered how it felt to be kissed by Namtan, how tender and slow it had been.

*It felt so real. So right.*

But now, the memory of it all stung like a thousand tiny cuts. Her heart ached for the way things could have been—if only she hadn’t been part of a dare. If only Namtan hadn’t been playing a game with her heart.

She wiped her eyes, trying to stop the tears from flowing. But they wouldn’t stop. They wouldn’t stop because the truth was too painful to ignore. She had fallen for Namtan. She had loved her.

And now, she felt like a fool.

*She was never real. She doesn’t really love me.*

The thoughts spiraled out of control, each one feeding into the next, making her chest tighten further. The sharp sting of rejection and betrayal made her feel like she was drowning. She didn’t know how to escape it, how to stop the pain from swallowing her whole.

Her head was spinning with confusion and hurt, her thoughts a tangled mess. How could Namtan have done this? How could she have let Film believe that she meant something more than a bet, more than a dare? The walls around her heart, the ones she had worked so hard to build, were coming down. Slowly, quietly, but steadily.

She had never let herself care for anyone this deeply, and now it felt like she was paying the price for it. Namtan had never been real. She had never been the one to make Film feel safe.

*How could I have let myself fall for her?*

Her breath hitched as the thought pierced her chest again. Her body felt numb, cold, as if she was being disconnected from the world around her. The emotions that swirled inside her were too much to process. The betrayal, the hurt, the shame—it was all mixing together, and she couldn’t make sense of any of it.

She felt utterly alone.

The tears she had tried so hard to hold back continued to fall, the warmth of them a stark contrast to the cold emptiness inside her.

And then, as if it couldn’t get worse, she heard the unmistakable sound of footsteps coming closer.

---

**Chapter Twenty-One: Breaking Point**

*Namtan’s Perspective*

The library was eerily quiet, save for the occasional rustling of pages or the soft clicking of keyboards. Namtan had been pacing back and forth outside, her thoughts a tangled mess. She had tried texting, tried calling, tried everything she could think of to reach Film, but no response. She hadn’t seen her all day, and she hadn’t felt this lost in a long time. Film was always there, her calm presence like a steady anchor, but now, it was like she was a million miles away, and Namtan had no idea why.

She pushed the door open and stepped inside, her eyes scanning the rows of bookshelves, her heart hammering in her chest. There was no sign of Film anywhere. The library felt empty, hollow, and the air pressed down on her, thick with the weight of the unspoken words between them.

*Where is she?*

Her heart skipped a beat when her gaze landed on a figure sitting in the back corner, hunched over. Film. Namtan’s breath caught in her throat as she took a tentative step forward. She could barely see her face from this distance, but the way Film was curled in on herself made Namtan’s stomach twist. Something was wrong. The distance between them had never felt so vast, so unbridgeable.

*What have I done?*

Namtan’s legs moved before she even realized it, the need to reach Film driving her forward. She approached quietly, not wanting to startle her, but every step felt like it weighed a ton. She didn’t know how to make it right, how to fix this. She only knew that she needed to try.

When she was just a few feet away, she stopped, hesitant, unsure of what to say. She wanted to reach out, to comfort Film, to tell her that she was sorry, but she didn’t know where to begin. The truth was, she was terrified. Terrified that it was too late. Terrified that Film would never forgive her.

She took a deep breath, her voice barely above a whisper. “Film…”

Film’s head snapped up at the sound of her name, but her eyes remained hollow, distant. There was no warmth in her gaze, just an ocean of hurt that Namtan hadn’t seen before, and it shattered her.

“Film, please…” Her voice trembled as she knelt down beside her, close but not touching, as if the very act of getting too close would make everything worse.

Film didn’t answer right away. Instead, she turned her gaze away, her jaw clenched, as if bracing herself for something. For the truth. For the hurt she knew was coming. The silence between them stretched out like an eternity.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” Film’s voice was quiet, but there was a sharp edge to it. A bitterness that Namtan had never heard before. “Why didn’t you tell me that it was all just a game?”

The words hit Namtan like a punch to the gut. She had prepared herself for this moment, but nothing had prepared her for the raw pain in Film’s voice.

“I didn’t want you to know,” Namtan said, her words choking in her throat. “I didn’t want to hurt you.”

The truth hung in the air between them, heavy and suffocating.

Film let out a bitter laugh, the sound cutting through Namtan like a blade. “You already did.” Her voice cracked, and for a moment, Namtan saw the tear welling up in Film’s eyes. But it was quickly wiped away, and Film straightened her posture, trying to appear strong, trying to hide the cracks that were starting to show.

The sight of it twisted Namtan’s heart. This wasn’t the Film she knew—the quiet, kind girl who had slowly let her guard down. This Film was broken, and Namtan had been the one to break her.

“I wasn’t supposed to fall for you,” Namtan whispered, barely able to meet Film’s eyes. She wanted to explain, wanted to tell her everything, but the words were stuck in her throat. “I never meant for any of this to happen. I never meant to fall for you.”

The silence was deafening. Film didn’t speak, didn’t move. She just stared at Namtan, her expression unreadable. It was like a wall had come up between them, and no matter how hard Namtan tried, she couldn’t break through it.

“I’m sorry,” Namtan said, the words slipping out before she could stop them. “I didn’t mean to hurt you. I never wanted to be the one who made you feel like you weren’t enough.”

Film shook her head, her lips trembling. “I already know I’m not enough.” She spoke so softly, the words barely above a whisper, but they cut Namtan deeper than anything else she had ever said.

“No, that’s not true,” Namtan said desperately. She reached out, her hand hovering above Film’s, unsure whether to touch her, to pull her close. “You’re everything. You’re more than enough.”

But Film didn’t look at her. She kept her gaze on the floor, her fingers gripping the edges of her sleeves as if she were trying to hold herself together. “You said you were just doing a dare, Namtan. And I believed you. I believed in us.”

The words felt like daggers, and Namtan flinched. She had known this moment was coming, but she hadn’t known how to face it. Film wasn’t angry—not in the way Namtan had expected. It was worse. Film was just... done. Done trusting, done hoping, done giving pieces of herself to someone who had never meant to give anything in return.

“I’m sorry,” Namtan repeated, her voice breaking. “I never wanted to make you feel like that. I never wanted to hurt you.”

For a long moment, Film didn’t respond. She simply sat there, her body tense, her face unreadable. Then, she finally looked up at Namtan, her eyes filled with a kind of sadness that made Namtan’s chest ache.

“I trusted you,” Film said softly, her voice barely audible. “And you... you just used me.”

Namtan’s heart cracked wide open. The truth in those words was like a weight that she couldn’t carry anymore. She had failed Film, and there was no going back.

“I didn’t mean to,” Namtan whispered, her voice faltering. “I swear to you, I didn’t. I never meant for you to get hurt. Please, Film. Please believe me.”

But Film didn’t respond. She didn’t say anything else. Instead, she stood up, her movements stiff and deliberate, as if every inch of her body was protesting the action. She turned away from Namtan, walking toward the door without another word.

Namtan didn’t know what to do. She didn’t know how to make it right, how to fix this mess that she had made. She had started out playing a game—a stupid dare from her friends—but somewhere along the way, she had fallen for Film. And now, it was too late.

She stood there, frozen, watching Film leave the library, her heart shattering with every step Film took further away from her.

She had broken her. And now, there was nothing left to do but watch her walk away.

---

Chapter Twenty-Two: Shattered and Rebuilt
Film's Perspective
The world felt muffled as Film walked out of the library, the door closing with a soft, almost final thud behind her. She had been so careful, so guarded for so long, but in the span of just a few moments, everything she had allowed herself to feel for Namtan had unraveled. Her heart, which had been slowly stitching itself back together after years of pain, had just been torn open again, wider than before.
She didn’t know where she was going. All she knew was that she needed to get away. She needed to escape the suffocating reality that she had let herself believe—let herself believe that Namtan could possibly want her, that Namtan could love her.
Why did I think it would be different this time?
The thought repeated in her mind like a mantra, each repetition pushing her deeper into the spiral of self-loathing. Her feet carried her down the empty campus pathways, but she wasn’t really paying attention to where she was going. She couldn’t focus on anything except the gnawing emptiness in her chest, the feeling that she had been nothing but a game to someone she had trusted.
Namtan said she was just doing a dare. The words echoed in her mind, each one like a strike to her already battered heart. She never cared. I was just a challenge. Someone to conquer. Someone to make fall in love with her.
A bitter laugh escaped her lips. She had fallen for it—hook, line, and sinker. She had allowed herself to believe in something that was never real, and now she was paying the price for it.
As she walked, she couldn’t stop the tears that blurred her vision. She wiped them away angrily, frustrated with herself for being so weak. She had told herself that she wouldn’t fall for someone again, that she wouldn’t be the fool. But here she was—lost, broken, betrayed. And the worst part? She didn’t know how to stop herself from falling even deeper.
Why can’t I just be enough?
Her thoughts were tangled, spinning in circles of self-doubt and insecurity. She had been told by someone she loved before that she wasn’t worthy of love, that she didn’t deserve anyone’s affection. And now it felt like that had been true all along. Film wasn’t worth the effort. She wasn’t worth the time, the attention, the love.
I’m just too broken for anyone to love me for real.

Namtan's Perspective
Namtan stood frozen in the library for a long time after Film had walked away. Her heart felt like it had been ripped out of her chest. She couldn’t believe she had allowed herself to be so careless, to let the dare become something more than just a silly challenge. She had fallen for Film, and now, the girl she loved more than anything was walking away, shattered by her own mistakes.
She could feel her stomach twist, her mind racing. She wanted to chase after her, to hold her, to tell her how sorry she was, but what would she say? What could she say? She had lied. She had used Film as part of a dare, and now, it was too late to take that back.
But Namtan refused to give up. She had messed up. She knew that. But the last thing she wanted was to let Film slip away because of something she had done. She had to make this right. She had to prove to Film that she wasn’t playing anymore—that her feelings were real.
Namtan quickly grabbed her bag and rushed out of the library, her steps urgent, her thoughts scattered. She didn’t know where Film had gone, but she couldn’t let her walk away without fighting for her.
I’m not going to lose her.
She searched the campus, calling Film’s name under her breath. The thought of Film being alone, lost in the pain Namtan had caused, made her heart ache. She could only imagine what Film was feeling right now, how broken she must be, how she had to be questioning everything between them.
Namtan found herself near the campus fountain, her eyes scanning the area. That’s when she saw her—Film, sitting by the edge of the fountain, her back hunched, her knees drawn to her chest. She was so small, so vulnerable in that moment, and it made Namtan’s chest tighten.
She approached slowly, not wanting to scare Film off but desperate to reach her.
Film didn’t look up. She kept her gaze focused on the rippling water, her face expressionless, though the red around her eyes told Namtan everything she needed to know. Film had been crying.
“Film…” Namtan’s voice was soft, almost trembling as she knelt down beside her, careful not to crowd her too much. “Please, look at me.”
There was a long pause, and Namtan could feel the weight of the silence pressing down on them. Film didn’t respond. She didn’t look at Namtan, didn’t even acknowledge her presence. It was like Namtan didn’t exist.
“I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness,” Namtan said, her voice barely a whisper. She could feel her heart beating erratically in her chest. “But I need you to know that I’m sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to play with your feelings. I—”
“Don’t.” Film’s voice was quiet but firm. “Don’t apologize. I’m tired of hearing it.”
Namtan recoiled at the words. She wasn’t sure what to say. How could she possibly make Film understand the depth of her regret? How could she make her see that the dare didn’t matter anymore? How could she explain that Film was everything to her now?
“Film, please…” Namtan’s voice broke, and she reached out, her hand hovering near Film’s but unsure whether to touch her. “You mean more to me than anything in this world. I don’t care about the dare anymore. I care about you. Only you.”
Film’s eyes flicked to Namtan, but there was no warmth in her gaze—just a cool, guarded distance. It made Namtan feel smaller than she had ever felt before.
“You don’t get it, Namtan,” Film said, her voice laced with pain. “You used me. You only cared about winning a game, and I let myself believe you cared about me. But I was wrong.”
“No,” Namtan said quickly, shaking her head, her voice desperate. “You weren’t wrong. I do care about you. I care about you more than anything. I was stupid, I was selfish, and I don’t know how to make it right. But I swear to you, Film, I love you. I really, truly love you.”
The words hung in the air between them, heavy and uncertain, but for a moment, Film didn’t pull away. She just stared at Namtan, searching her face, trying to decide whether or not she believed her. Namtan’s chest tightened as she waited, praying for some sign that Film could feel the sincerity in her words.
Finally, Film sighed, the sound quiet but full of so much emotion. She shook her head, still not meeting Namtan’s eyes. “You don’t know what that even means.”
“I do,” Namtan said, her voice stronger now, filled with a resolve she didn’t know she had. “I know what love means. I know it means being there for you. I know it means fighting for you, even when I’ve messed up. I know it means showing up, every single day, and proving to you that you matter.”
Film didn’t respond. The silence was deafening, and Namtan was unsure if it was a silence of rejection or something else, something that Film was too scared to say.
But Namtan wouldn’t give up. She couldn’t. Film deserved more than the hurt she had been dealt, and Namtan would be the one to show her that. She would spend every day proving that Film was more than enough—that Film was the one Namtan had chosen, and that no dare, no game, could ever change that.

—-

Chapter Twenty-Three: Fractures in the Silence
Film’s Perspective
The days blurred together into a numb, gray haze.
Film moved through campus like a ghost — attending classes, completing assignments, sitting through lectures — but she wasn’t really there. Her mind was miles away, locked behind the high, impenetrable walls she had spent so long constructing. Walls she had foolishly lowered for Namtan.
And now she was paying the price.
Film stopped answering texts. She avoided the cafeteria when she knew Namtan might be there. She took the long way to her classes, choosing empty side paths and back hallways rather than risk running into her. If Namtan sat somewhere, Film would find an excuse to sit elsewhere.
She couldn’t trust herself to even look at her.
Because deep down, there was still a stupid, fragile part of her that wanted to run into Namtan’s arms. That wanted to believe her desperate apologies, her wide, pleading eyes.
Maybe she meant it. Maybe she regrets it. Maybe she cares.
But that was the part of her that had always gotten hurt. The part she had promised herself she would bury deep down where no one could reach it.
You can’t trust her. You can’t trust anyone.
The voice in her mind was cruel and sharp, slicing through every tiny flicker of hope before it could even form.
She was fine. She was fine. She would survive this just like she survived everything else — alone.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan hadn’t given up.
She couldn’t give up.
Not when Film was slipping further and further away with every passing hour.
It started small at first — lingering by Film’s favorite coffee stand in the morning, hoping she could casually “bump into her.” Dropping off her favorite snack at Film’s dorm door with a sticky note:
“Hope you’re having a good day. Thinking of you.”
No response.
No calls.
No returned glances.
Each silence cut deeper into Namtan’s chest, but she refused to stop trying.
Film had to know. Film had to understand that this wasn’t a game anymore. That Namtan would spend the rest of her life proving it if she had to.

One rainy afternoon, Namtan took it further.
She waited under Film’s favorite study tree — the one with the thick branches that barely let any rain through — holding a battered umbrella in one hand and a thermos of hot tea in the other.
When Film finally approached from the lecture hall, her hood pulled low, her bag slung heavily over her shoulder, Namtan’s heart leapt.
She stepped forward, holding out the tea like an offering. “I thought you might want something warm…”
Film didn’t even slow her stride.
She walked right past Namtan without a word, without even a glance.
The rain hit harder against the umbrella, a sharp, cold sound. The thermos felt heavy in Namtan’s hands.
Her heart crumbled a little more.

The next day, she left a bouquet of Film’s favorite flowers — bright, yellow sunflowers — outside her dorm door with a simple card:
“For the most beautiful person I know. I’m not giving up on you.”
The flowers stayed there for three days.
Untouched.
Wilting.
Like Namtan’s heart.

A week later, Namtan found herself standing outside Film’s literature class, clutching a hand-written letter that she had rewritten at least a dozen times. Her stomach twisted into painful knots as students filed out. She caught sight of Film’s familiar frame, small and delicate, hidden under an oversized jacket.
This was it.
She had to try again.
“Film!” Namtan called, her voice cutting through the hallway noise. Heads turned. Film froze for a fraction of a second — the tiniest, smallest crack in her otherwise careful armor — but then she ducked her head and kept walking.
Namtan ran after her, breathless.
“Please, wait — just take it.” She shoved the letter into Film’s hand, desperate, pleading. “Please read it. Just… please.”
Film’s fingers closed around the paper automatically, but she didn’t meet Namtan’s eyes. She gave the letter one small, defeated glance — and then, with trembling fingers, she crumpled it into a ball and dropped it into the nearest trash can.
Namtan’s chest squeezed so painfully it almost knocked her breathless.
She had expected rejection. She hadn’t expected to feel like she was breaking apart piece by piece.

Film’s Perspective
Film kept walking after dropping the letter in the trash, her hands clenched into fists at her sides.
She didn’t let herself look back.
Because if she did, she knew she would see Namtan’s face — raw, devastated, begging — and that would hurt worse than anything else.
But she felt it anyway.
She felt the way Namtan’s gaze clung to her retreating form like something desperate and broken. She felt the aching sincerity in every note, every flower, every small attempt to fix what had shattered.
And God, it hurt.
It hurt because she wanted to believe it.
Because even after everything, part of her still loved Namtan.
Loved her laugh, her stupid flirting, her fierce way of protecting her when no one else ever had.
But how could she ever trust her again?
How can I believe I matter when I was just a dare?
Film bit down hard on the inside of her cheek until she tasted blood. She kept walking. Kept pushing the world away. Kept telling herself that if she just kept moving, if she just stayed cold, the hurt would stop eventually.
Maybe if she stayed numb long enough, she wouldn’t miss Namtan anymore.
Maybe.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan stood frozen in the hallway long after Film had disappeared. Her hands hung uselessly at her sides, and her chest ached so badly she thought she might physically collapse.
She hates me.
The realization sliced through her, terrifying and suffocating.
She couldn’t lose Film.
She wouldn’t.
She would try again tomorrow.
And the next day.
And the day after that.
Until Film believed her.
Until Film understood that there wasn’t a single dare in the world that could come close to the way Namtan loved her now.
Even if it killed her, she would prove it.

—-

Chapter Twenty-Four: Breaking the Walls
Namtan’s Perspective
It was Friday.
The air was thick with the scent of wet pavement and blooming jasmine after a long afternoon rain, and Namtan stood under the giant old oak tree in the courtyard, her heart pounding painfully against her ribs.
She gripped the microphone in her hand so tightly that her knuckles turned white.
This was it.
Her grand gesture. Her desperate, last-ditch attempt to reach Film — to show her that this wasn’t about a dare anymore, hadn’t been for a long time. It was about love. About the raw, aching need to be forgiven. To be chosen back.
And if she didn’t try now — if she didn’t put everything on the line — she knew she would lose Film forever.
She had arranged it all with the university's weekend festival organizers: an open mic event, just a small one, just casual enough that most people wouldn’t even be paying attention.
But Film would be here.
Namtan knew her habits by heart.
Film always passed through the courtyard at this hour after her study group at the library.
Namtan’s palms were sweating as she stepped up to the small platform, barely knee-high off the ground. The speakers crackled a little. Some people in the courtyard glanced up, distracted from their conversations.
Namtan cleared her throat, willing her voice to steady even as her hands trembled.
“This is for someone I love,” she said simply into the mic.
Her voice echoed over the square, soft but clear.
There were a few whistles, a few curious glances. But Namtan’s eyes weren’t searching the crowd.
They were locked onto one person — the small figure just stepping into the courtyard’s far end.
Film.
She saw Namtan immediately.
Paused mid-step.
Their eyes met across the square.
And for a second, just a second, Namtan thought she saw something break in Film’s guarded expression — something wounded and furious and lost.
But then Film turned sharply, as if to leave.
“Wait,” Namtan said into the mic, the word tumbling out before she could stop herself. “Please. Just listen.”
Film stopped.
Didn’t turn around.
But she didn’t walk away either.
It was all Namtan needed.
She took a shaky breath and began speaking, her voice low and trembling, but honest in a way she never had been before.
“I was stupid,” she said, heart hammering. “I was stupid and shallow and selfish. I thought love was just... a game. A dare. Something you win.”
She paused, swallowing hard against the lump in her throat.
“But then I met you.”
She saw the barest flicker — the slight tilt of Film’s head, as if she couldn’t help but listen.
“You weren’t easy,” Namtan said, a soft, almost broken laugh slipping out. “You were... careful. Strong. You didn’t trust easily. And I didn’t understand at first. I thought if I just tried hard enough, you’d fall for me like it was nothing.”
Her voice cracked.
“But you aren’t ‘nothing,’ Film. You’re... everything.”
Someone in the crowd let out a soft, audible “aww,” but Namtan barely heard it. Her entire world had narrowed down to Film’s small, unmoving silhouette across the courtyard.
“I fell for you without even noticing. I fell for the way you look at the world, the way you laugh when you think no one’s watching, the way you believe in kindness even when life has given you every reason not to.”
She took a shaky breath.
“The dare doesn’t matter anymore. It hasn’t for a long time. Only you do.”
Her voice lowered, fierce and trembling with emotion.
“And if it takes a thousand days to prove that to you, I’ll spend every single one trying.”
The mic crackled softly as Namtan stepped back, lowering it from her mouth.
The courtyard had fallen into a hush.
All eyes were on her.
On Film.
Film still hadn’t turned around.
But Namtan could see the tension in her shoulders, the way her hands were clenched into tight, trembling fists at her sides.
Please, Namtan begged silently. Please believe me. Please.
But after a long, painful moment, Film finally moved.
Not toward her.
Away.
She walked off the courtyard path without a word, disappearing around the corner of the library building.
Gone.

…

Namtan stayed there on the tiny platform, the mic still buzzing quietly behind her, her heart aching so badly she thought it might actually tear apart.
She had bared herself completely.
She had laid everything at Film’s feet.
And it still wasn’t enough.
But she couldn’t blame Film.
Not after everything.
Film had trusted before and been broken.
Namtan had been just another knife twisting in the old wounds.
It was going to take more than a public confession to heal that kind of hurt.
But Namtan wasn’t giving up.
Not now.
Not ever.

Film’s Perspective
Film sat hidden behind the library wall, her back pressed against the cold stone, her hands gripping the straps of her backpack so tightly they ached.
She had listened to every word.
Every broken, desperate, heartfelt word.
And it hurt.
God, it hurt.
Because some cruel, fragile part of her wanted to believe it. Wanted to run to Namtan and bury her face against her chest and pretend none of it had ever happened. Pretend that Namtan had never lied, never played her like a game.
But she couldn’t.
Because believing hurt worse than doubting.
Because believing meant trusting.
And trusting meant handing someone the knife and hoping they wouldn’t use it.
I can’t do it again.
I won’t survive it this time.
Film buried her face in her arms, letting the silent sobs rack her body, unseen and unheard by the world around her.
She didn’t know if she could ever find a way back to Namtan.
And worse —
She didn’t know if she even deserved to.

Chapter Twenty-Five: Cracks in the Armor
Namtan’s Perspective
Every day was the same now.
Every morning, Namtan would wake up with a sliver of hope blooming painfully in her chest.
Maybe today she’ll look at me.
Maybe today she’ll listen.
Maybe today she’ll remember that I love her.
And every day, Film would pass by without a word.
Without a glance.
Without even a hint of the softness Namtan missed so desperately.
It was like trying to hold onto smoke — reaching for something beautiful and vital that slipped right through her fingers.
But Namtan kept trying.
She left little gifts — nothing too overwhelming, just tiny reminders that she cared.
A carefully folded paper crane on Film’s locker.
A cup of hot chocolate left on her usual library table.
A playlist of songs they had once listened to together, slipped into her bag with a quiet note:
“No expectations. Just missing you.”
Nothing worked.
Film accepted nothing.
Gave nothing back.
It was like Namtan didn’t exist.
But she couldn’t stop.
Because giving up meant losing her forever.
And Namtan would rather make a fool of herself a thousand times over than let that happen.

Film’s Perspective
Film thought she could handle it.
She thought if she kept ignoring Namtan — kept building her walls higher and stronger — eventually the ache inside her would disappear.
But it didn’t.
It gnawed at her constantly, hollowing her out from the inside.
She felt like she was unraveling a little more every day — her chest tight, her breaths shallow, her heart pounding painfully whenever she accidentally caught a glimpse of Namtan out of the corner of her eye.
It was exhausting, holding herself so rigid.
Pretending she didn’t care.
Pretending she wasn’t desperate for just one more touch, one more kiss, one more whispered I’m sorry against her skin.
By the end of the week, Film was frayed to the point of snapping.

It happened on a Wednesday.
Classes were done for the day, and the campus was quiet — just the occasional shuffle of footsteps or the far-off murmur of conversation.
Film had been trying to make it back to her dorm, her books clutched tightly to her chest, her head down —
—but halfway across the courtyard, something inside her just... cracked.
Maybe it was the way her chest felt like it was caving in.
Maybe it was the dizzying spin of her thoughts —
You’re not enough. You’ll never be enough. Everyone leaves. Everyone lies.
Maybe it was the sudden, unbearable loneliness.
Whatever it was, her legs gave out without warning, and she stumbled blindly into one of the small, empty alcoves near the abandoned music building — a little hidden nook no one ever used.
She collapsed onto the ground, her books falling from her arms, her knees pulled up tightly against her chest.
And then the panic took her.
Her breathing turned shallow and sharp, gasps clawing at her throat.
Her vision blurred.
Her heart hammered so violently against her ribs it felt like it might burst.
I can’t breathe. I can’t— I can’t—
Film pressed the heels of her hands against her eyes, trying desperately to will the world away.
But the world wasn’t listening.
And neither was the part of her heart that still wanted Namtan more than anything.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan hadn’t been looking for Film — not this time.
She had been wandering, defeated and lost in her own thoughts, wondering if maybe she should finally listen to her friends when they said it was time to let go.
Maybe Film didn’t want her anymore.
Maybe she couldn’t be forgiven.
But then she heard it.
A soft, broken sound, carried on the breeze — a choked, gasping sob.
Namtan’s heart clenched violently.
Without thinking, she followed the sound, rounding the side of the old music building — and there, crumpled on the ground in the hidden alcove, was Film.
Tiny.
Broken.
Sobbing like her heart had been ripped straight from her chest.
Namtan dropped everything she was carrying.
“Film,” she breathed, rushing forward.
She dropped to her knees beside her, hands hovering uncertainly before finally, carefully, reaching out.
Film flinched instinctively at the first touch — but when Namtan’s arms wrapped around her, when she whispered, “It’s okay, it’s okay, I’m here,” something inside Film shattered completely.
She clutched at Namtan’s jacket with trembling fingers, pressing her face against Namtan’s shoulder, gasping for air like she was drowning.
Namtan rocked her gently, murmuring soft, senseless words of comfort, threading her fingers through Film’s hair.
“I’ve got you. I’ve got you, baby. Breathe. Just breathe with me.”
Slowly, slowly, Film’s breathing began to steady — not completely, but enough that she wasn’t gasping anymore, enough that the worst of the panic began to ebb.
She stayed pressed against Namtan’s chest, listening to the steady thud of her heart, feeling the warmth of her arms.
And for a moment —
Just a moment —
It felt safe.
It felt like home.

But reality came crashing back like a tidal wave.
As Film’s breathing calmed, she suddenly became aware of exactly what she was doing — how tightly she was clinging to the very person who had broken her.
She jerked back with a soft, strangled noise, pushing away from Namtan’s embrace like she had been burned.
Namtan immediately loosened her arms, not forcing her to stay, though the loss of contact left her feeling hollow and cold.
Film scrambled to her feet, wiping at her tear-streaked face with shaking hands.
She wouldn’t meet Namtan’s eyes.
Namtan rose slowly, cautiously, every instinct screaming at her to reach for Film, to pull her back into her arms and never let her go again.
But she didn’t.
Because she could see the walls slamming back into place around Film, higher and thicker than ever before.
Film took a shaky step back.
And then another.
And then she turned and fled without a word, disappearing into the growing twilight.
Leaving Namtan standing there, heartbroken and helpless, in the gathering dusk.

Chapter Twenty-Six: A Heart Still Beating for You
Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan stood there for a long time after Film disappeared, her arms still half-raised like she might catch her even though she was already gone.
The cool evening air wrapped around her like a shroud, and she shivered — but it wasn’t from the cold.
It was the way Film had looked at her.
Or hadn’t.
It was the way she had fled, like touching Namtan had burned her.
Like needing Namtan had hurt more than the panic itself.
Namtan sank down onto the stone bench near the alcove, her hands trembling in her lap.
She had thought the confession in the courtyard had been the hardest thing she would ever do.
But it wasn’t.
It wasn’t even close.
The hardest thing was this — watching the girl she loved crumble into pieces and knowing she was part of the reason.
I did this, Namtan thought miserably.
I hurt her. I made her afraid.
A heavy weight settled in her chest, squeezing the air from her lungs.
But beneath the guilt — the overwhelming shame — there was something stronger: resolve.
She wasn’t going to give up.
She hadn’t fought this hard just to let Film disappear into her own fear.
She hadn’t fallen this deeply, this irreversibly, just to let Film believe she was unlovable again.
No.
Namtan wasn’t fighting for her own redemption anymore.
She was fighting for Film’s heart.
For every fragile, battered piece of it.
For every soft, stubborn part that still believed, deep down, that she didn’t deserve to be loved.
She was fighting for a future where Film could finally feel safe.

The days after that were excruciating.
Film wasn’t just ignoring Namtan anymore — she was actively avoiding her.
If Namtan turned down a hallway, Film would turn the other way.
If she tried to approach after class, Film would gather her things so fast it was like she was running from a fire.
It shattered Namtan in ways she hadn’t known she could still break.
But she kept trying.
Every single day.
Soft messages left in Film’s locker — simple, quiet things:
"Hope today is gentle for you."
"You don’t have to answer. Just know I’m here."
Little gifts: a pen with her favorite constellation carved into it, a book of poetry she had once mentioned loving, a hand-drawn sketch of a small fox curled up under a blanket.
No expectations.
No pressure.
Just reminders.
I’m still here.

Film’s Perspective
Film couldn’t breathe around Namtan anymore.
Every glimpse of her — every kind gesture, every soft word — made the ache inside worse.
She was furious.
She was terrified.
She was so, so tired.
Because part of her wanted to give in.
Part of her wanted to run into Namtan’s arms and sob until her chest was empty of hurt, until she could believe, just for a moment, that someone could love her without agenda or cruelty.
But another part of her — the louder part, the part that had learned the hard way not to trust — whispered warnings constantly in her ear.
It’s safer to be alone.
If you let her back in, she’ll destroy you.
You’re better off being invisible.
Film hated that voice.
She hated how much sense it made.
She hated how even now, even after everything, Namtan still made her heart yearn.
And more than anything — she hated how weak that made her feel.

It came to a head one late afternoon.
Film had spent the day curled up in the library, pretending to study but barely able to focus on the pages in front of her.
Her chest felt too tight.
Her skin prickled with anxiety.
The smallest things — the shuffle of papers, the laughter from a nearby table, the occasional familiar footsteps she thought might be Namtan — made her flinch.
She couldn’t take it anymore.
She packed up her things mechanically and fled the library.
The campus was buzzing with students leaving class, clusters of laughter and conversation filling the spaces between buildings.
Film pushed through them like a ghost, heading nowhere in particular — just away.
Away from the memories.
Away from the longing.
Away from herself.
She ended up at the old fountain near the center of campus — a place usually deserted during the late afternoon lull.
She sank onto the cracked stone edge, hugging her knees to her chest, staring blankly at the water.
She felt hollow.
Like there was nothing left inside her except the steady, aching throb of grief.
It wasn’t supposed to hurt like this, she thought numbly.
And that was when she heard it — the sound of cautious footsteps behind her.
Film stiffened instinctively, but before she could flee, a soft, familiar voice spoke.
“I didn’t mean to find you,” Namtan said quietly. “But I’m glad I did.”
Film closed her eyes tightly, willing herself not to cry again.
She couldn’t do this.
She couldn’t.
She couldn’t.
“I’m not here to force anything,” Namtan said, her voice so gentle it hurt. “I just... I just want to sit with you. If that’s okay.”
Film didn’t answer.
Didn’t even look at her.
But she didn’t run either.
And after a long, heavy silence, she heard the faint rustle of fabric as Namtan sat down on the opposite side of the fountain, a careful distance away.
Not touching.
Not crowding.
Just being there.
Just breathing quietly in the same broken space.
And somehow, that small, wordless offering — that patience, that tenderness — cracked something deep inside Film all over again.
A tear slipped down her cheek before she could stop it.
She wiped it away roughly, furious with herself.
Furious with Namtan for still making her feel.
But underneath all the anger, all the hurt —
There was a tiny, stubborn ember of hope.
Still flickering.
Still alive.
Still beating, somehow, for her.

Chapter Twenty-Seven: A Fragile Step Forward
Film’s Perspective
The minutes dragged on.
Film stayed curled on her side of the fountain, her face turned stubbornly away, pretending she didn’t feel the weight of Namtan’s gaze on her — even though Namtan wasn’t looking at her directly.
She could feel it anyway.
Like the sun, warm even when hidden behind clouds.
Namtan didn’t move.
She didn’t speak.
She simply stayed.
It shouldn't have meant anything.
Film told herself it shouldn’t.
Anyone can sit beside someone for a few minutes. It doesn't prove anything.
But the silence between them wasn’t heavy with expectation.
It wasn’t suffocating.
It was patient.
Soft.
Open.
It was the kind of silence Film hadn’t realized she craved until now — the kind that didn’t demand anything of her.
Her hands, still tightly knotted in her lap, began to loosen — just slightly.
Her heartbeat, which had been thrumming painfully in her throat ever since she heard Namtan’s voice, started to slow.
And for the first time in what felt like weeks, Film let herself breathe.
Maybe she’s not here to hurt me, a small, treacherous voice whispered in the back of her mind.
Maybe she’s here because she actually cares.
But that thought was dangerous.
Film couldn’t afford to believe it.
Not yet.
Maybe not ever.
Still, she didn’t tell Namtan to leave.
And maybe that, in itself, was a beginning.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan sat as still as she could, every muscle tense with the effort of not moving, not reaching out.
God, she wanted to.
She wanted to wipe that tear from Film’s cheek.
She wanted to tuck a strand of hair behind her ear.
She wanted to pull her close and hold her until the hurt went away.
But she couldn’t rush this.
She had already rushed once — barged her way into Film’s heart without warning, without care, without honesty.
She wouldn’t make that mistake again.
So she stayed silent.
Stayed still.
Let Film control the space between them.
Minutes stretched and folded into each other.
Namtan stared at the cracked stone beneath her feet, counting her breaths.
One.
Two.
Three.
Don’t move.
Don’t push.
Don’t ruin this.
A breeze stirred, ruffling Film’s hair. She watched it dance at the edge of her vision, resisting every urge in her body.
Let her come to you, Namtan thought. Let her know you’re not going anywhere.
And then, like a miracle, Film shifted.
Just a little.
Just enough that her shoulder was tilted slightly toward Namtan instead of away.
It wasn’t much.
But it was everything.

Film’s Perspective
She didn’t know why she moved.
Maybe it was exhaustion.
Maybe it was hope.
Maybe it was just the unbearable loneliness pressing against her ribs until she couldn’t hold it in anymore.
But without fully realizing it, Film found herself leaning — just barely — into the space where Namtan sat.
Not touching.
Not speaking.
Just leaning close enough that if she breathed deeply enough, she could catch the faintest hint of Namtan’s scent — something clean and familiar and achingly missed.
It wasn’t an invitation.
It wasn’t forgiveness.
It was simply… proximity.
But even that small movement felt monumental.
Like stepping onto thin ice, knowing it could crack at any moment.
She felt Namtan’s body go stiller, if possible, as if she noticed, but mercifully, Namtan didn’t say anything.
Didn’t comment.
Didn’t ruin it.
They sat like that, suspended between heartbreak and hope.
And for just a few precious moments, the pain didn’t feel quite so suffocating.

Later — when the sun had almost fully dipped below the horizon and the first stars blinked into existence overhead — Film shifted again.
This time she pulled her knees down and set her feet flat on the stone, her arms wrapping loosely around her shins.
Still not looking at Namtan.
Still not speaking.
But staying.
Choosing to stay.
That, too, was a beginning.

Namtan’s Perspective
When Film finally moved to stand, Namtan almost panicked — thinking it meant she was leaving for good.
But then Film hesitated.
She stood there, her hands fidgeting with the hem of her sweater, biting her bottom lip the way she always did when she was nervous.
And then, without lifting her gaze from the ground, she spoke.
A whisper.
A confession.
"I don’t know if I can trust you again."
Namtan’s heart cracked open all over again.
But she kept her voice steady when she answered, low and soft.
"You don’t have to," she said. "Not today. Not tomorrow. Not until you’re ready."
Film's fingers tightened in the fabric of her sweater.
"But I’m not going anywhere," Namtan said, her voice trembling slightly. "I’m staying. For as long as it takes."
Film didn’t reply.
Didn’t promise anything.
But after a long moment, she nodded — once, small and almost imperceptible — and then turned and walked away.
And this time, Namtan didn’t feel like she was losing her.
She felt like maybe — just maybe — she was being given another chance.

Chapter Twenty-Eight: A Shaky Bridge Between Us
Film’s Perspective
The next morning, Film felt like she was made of glass.
Every step she took across campus felt too loud, too heavy, like she was about to shatter with the wrong movement.
Students laughed and called to each other around her, their voices blurring into a low hum she couldn’t quite process.
She was exhausted.
Emotionally wrung out.
Last night had taken more from her than she had to give.
Letting herself sit with Namtan — leaning into her presence, even just a little — had cracked open something Film had fought so hard to seal shut.
And now… she didn’t know how to put it back together.
She kept her head low, her arms clutched around her books like a shield, weaving through the courtyard as quickly and quietly as possible.
If she could just make it through the day without seeing Namtan—
Without feeling that awful, aching pull—
Maybe she could survive this without falling apart again.
But of course, fate didn’t listen.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan had barely slept.
She had replayed every second by the fountain over and over in her mind, desperate to cling to it — that moment when Film didn’t run.
That tiny, silent nod.
It wasn’t forgiveness.
It wasn’t a promise.
But it was a beginning.
And Namtan would treat it like something sacred.
She had promised herself she wouldn’t push.
Wouldn’t crowd.
But when she spotted Film moving quickly across the courtyard, small and closed-off and so heartbreakingly alone, Namtan couldn’t help herself.
She didn’t run after her.
She didn’t call out.
She simply adjusted her pace, falling into step a few meters behind, just close enough that if Film looked up, she would see her.
I’m here, Namtan thought fiercely.
I’m not leaving.
Even if Film never looked back.

Film’s Perspective
At first, Film didn’t notice.
But after a few minutes — after weaving through a different path to avoid a crowded staircase, after ducking into a side corridor to avoid the campus cafe — she realized that soft, steady presence was still behind her.
Following.
Not chasing.
Not calling.
Just… being there.
Her heart clenched.
Part of her wanted to scream at Namtan to go away — to leave her alone, to let her drown in peace.
But another part — the softer, smaller part she hated herself for still having — felt something else.
Relief.
Safety.
Loneliness wrapped itself tighter around her chest, and she slowed without meaning to.
Just a little.
Just enough that Namtan’s footsteps grew a little closer.
Film didn’t stop walking.
Didn’t turn around.
But she didn’t speed up either.
And somehow, in that silent, fragile space between them, a thread of connection stretched — thin as spider silk, but there.

By the time Film reached the library steps, her hands were shaking so badly she almost dropped her books.
She stumbled into a quiet alcove near the side entrance, clutching her things to her chest, breathing hard.
It was too much.
Too much noise.
Too much feeling.
Too much Namtan.
Before she could stop herself, tears welled up again — hot and furious.
She wiped them away angrily with the sleeve of her sweater, biting the inside of her cheek until she tasted blood.
You’re so stupid, she thought viciously.
So weak.
She hated herself for how much she still wanted Namtan close.
How much she missed her.
How much she ached for what they almost had.
And yet —
When she heard those familiar footsteps slow behind her, when she felt that warm, careful presence settle nearby, not touching, not crowding —
Some small, broken part of her breathed easier.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan spotted her immediately — tucked into the shadow of the stone archway, her shoulders trembling, her head bowed low.
Her heart broke all over again.
But she didn’t rush forward.
Didn’t reach out.
Instead, she sat down slowly on the opposite side of the arch, her back against the cold stone, setting her bag down beside her with a deliberate thud.
Silent.
Present.
Waiting.
After a long, brittle moment, she heard a faint sniff from the other side.
Then — so quietly she almost missed it — Film spoke.
"Why are you still here?"
Namtan closed her eyes for a moment, breathing through the wave of emotion that threatened to choke her.
She kept her voice steady when she answered.
"Because you matter," she said simply.
A pause.
Then a shaky breath from Film.
"You hurt me," Film whispered, her voice cracking.
"I know," Namtan said, her own voice raw. "And I’m sorry. I’m so sorry."
Film didn’t respond.
But she didn’t run either.
And right now — right now, that was everything.

The minutes slipped by, the sun rising higher over the courtyard.
Students passed by in the distance, but the little alcove remained untouched, a quiet island in the rushing current of the day.
Slowly, carefully, Film slid down the wall until she was sitting, too — not close, not facing Namtan, but there.
Breathing the same air.
Sharing the same silence.
Not forgiveness.
Not yet.
But the first shaky, tentative steps toward something that might someday be healing.
And for now, Namtan would take it.
She would fight for it.
For Film.
For the love she had almost destroyed but would spend every day — every breath — trying to rebuild.
Because some things, once broken, could still be mended.
If you were willing to bleed for them.
And Namtan was willing to bleed.

Chapter Twenty-Nine: Learning How to Stay
Film’s Perspective
It was easier to pretend nothing had changed.
After that day tucked away by the library, Film slipped back into her usual routines: class, studying, finding quiet corners where she could disappear into the background.
She stopped answering messages.
Stopped making eye contact with anyone for longer than a few seconds.
And Namtan — true to her word — didn’t force anything.
She didn’t bombard Film with apologies.
Didn’t crowd her.
She was just… there.
A silent presence lingering at the edges of Film’s world.
Sometimes, Film would spot her sitting two tables away at the café, head bent over a notebook, pretending not to glance up every few minutes.
Other times, Namtan would be in the library at a nearby table, pretending to read but sneaking looks over the top of her book.
She never pushed closer.
Never demanded anything.
But she didn’t leave, either.
And every time Film caught a glimpse of her — the stubborn set of her shoulders, the quiet desperation in her eyes — something ached deep inside her chest.
It would have been easier if Namtan had given up.
Easier to shove the memories into a box and lock it tight.
But she didn’t.
And because she didn’t, Film couldn’t quite close the door, either.

Namtan’s Perspective
Every day was a battle.
The part of her that wanted to rush over, to grab Film’s hands and beg for forgiveness — it screamed inside her chest every time she saw Film's small, closed-off figure flitting through campus.
But she held herself back.
She waited.
Because this wasn’t about her feelings anymore.
This wasn’t about easing her own guilt.
It was about giving Film the choice.
The control.
The safety she deserved.
So Namtan stayed in the background — hovering just close enough to be seen, just far enough not to corner her.
It was agony.
But it was better than the alternative: losing Film forever.

Film’s Perspective
A week passed.
Then another.
And slowly — so slowly it was almost imperceptible — Film realized she had stopped flinching when she caught Namtan looking at her.
She stopped instinctively tightening her grip on her books when she heard footsteps behind her.
She stopped holding her breath.
It terrified her, how easily old habits tried to creep back in.
How her heart betrayed her, softening toward the very person who had shattered it.
But there was something different about Namtan now.
Something quieter.
More patient.
More real.
Film caught glimpses of it in the way Namtan hesitated before approaching a doorway if Film was nearby, always giving her a chance to slip away first.
She saw it in the way Namtan never let her gaze linger too long, never trapped her in a stare she couldn’t escape.
She felt it in the heavy, aching silence Namtan wrapped around them — not oppressive, not demanding.
Just there.
Constant.
Waiting.

One Thursday afternoon, Film found herself alone under one of the big trees near the back of campus, her notes spread out around her, the late sun dappling the pages with golden light.
It was one of her favorite places — quiet, hidden.
A tiny pocket of peace in a world that felt too loud.
She hadn't expected anyone to find her here.
Which was why her stomach twisted painfully when she heard footsteps approaching.
But when she looked up and saw Namtan — carrying a coffee cup, her steps hesitant — Film didn’t run.
She didn’t bolt.
She just sat frozen, every muscle tense.
Namtan stopped a few meters away, holding out the coffee awkwardly like a peace offering.
"I… I didn’t know if you wanted this," Namtan said, voice low. "I remembered you always used to order vanilla lattes."
Film stared at the cup.
At the trembling fingers holding it.
At the hope written all over Namtan’s face — brittle and desperate and terrified.
Something cracked deep inside her chest.
Without speaking, without meeting Namtan’s eyes, Film reached out and took the cup from her.
Her fingers brushed Namtan’s for just a second — a feather-light touch — but it sent a jolt all the way to her ribs.
Namtan’s breath hitched, but she didn’t say anything.
She just smiled — a small, broken thing — and stepped back.
Giving Film space.
Giving her time.
Film curled her fingers tighter around the warm cup, the familiar scent of vanilla filling her lungs.
And for the first time in weeks, she let herself believe — just for a moment — that maybe not everything was lost.

Namtan’s Perspective
She had expected Film to reject the coffee.
To turn away.
To leave.
She had steeled herself for it.
But when Film’s small, careful hand took the cup from her — when their fingers brushed and Film didn’t pull away — Namtan felt like she could finally breathe again.
It wasn’t forgiveness.
It wasn’t even a conversation.
But it was a beginning.
A fragile, trembling beginning.
And Namtan would cherish it like something precious.

Later, as the sun dipped low and shadows stretched across the grass, Film packed her things without a word.
Namtan didn’t move.
She sat cross-legged under the tree, pretending to scroll through her phone, heart hammering in her chest.
And just before Film walked away, she hesitated.
A tiny pause.
Barely noticeable.
Then — so softly Namtan almost thought she imagined it — Film whispered:
"Thank you."
And Namtan smiled.
Not a big, dazzling smile like the ones she used to throw around so easily.
A small, honest one.
Because she knew.
Slowly — painfully, beautifully — the bridge between them was being rebuilt.
One trembling step at a time.

Chapter Thirty: The Weight of Hope
Film’s Perspective
The next few days passed in a blur of uncertainty.
Film didn’t know how to feel anymore.
Some mornings, she woke up bracing herself to see Namtan on campus — the panic clenching tight in her chest.
Other mornings, she found herself searching for her.
Looking around a lecture hall.
Lingering near the café just a little too long.
The vanilla latte had been a stupidly small thing — a cup of coffee, nothing more — and yet it weighed heavier than any grand gesture could have.
Because Namtan had remembered.
And she hadn’t demanded anything in return.
No expectations.
No strings.
Just a cup of coffee and a silent, aching hope.
And somehow, that made it even harder to push her away.

Film sat alone in the library on Friday afternoon, her notes untouched in front of her, her mind too tangled to focus.
The sounds around her faded into a dull roar: the scratch of pens, the low murmur of conversations, the steady ticking of the old clock above the doorway.
She rubbed at her chest absently, trying to soothe the tightness that had lived there for weeks now.
She hated this.
Hated the way her heart twisted at the memory of Namtan’s soft smile under the tree.
Hated the flicker of warmth she felt whenever she caught Namtan’s eyes from across the room.
Hated that despite everything — despite the betrayal, despite the hurt — she still wanted to believe.
Still wanted to hope.
And that was the most terrifying thing of all.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan lingered by the shelves, pretending to browse, her fingers tracing the worn spines of books she wasn’t really reading.
Her gaze flicked over to Film — hunched over her table, small and solitary in the afternoon light.
God, she missed her.
Missed the way Film’s eyes used to light up when she was excited about something.
Missed the quiet, steady presence that had anchored Namtan in ways she hadn’t even realized she needed.
She knew she didn’t deserve another chance.
Knew she had no right to ask for anything.
But still — she stayed close.
Not too close.
Just there.
Like a lighthouse waiting in the dark, hoping that someday, maybe, Film would find her way back.

Film’s Perspective
She couldn’t take it anymore.
The heavy silence.
The way her heart twisted every time she felt Namtan nearby.
She needed air.
Needed space.
Without really thinking about it, she gathered her things and stood up, clutching her books tight to her chest.
But when she turned to leave, she found herself face-to-face with Namtan.
Not too close.
Not blocking her path.
Just standing there — awkward, uncertain — with a book clutched in her hands like a shield.
Their eyes met.
And something in Film’s chest cracked wide open.
She didn’t know why.
Didn’t know what possessed her.
But instead of brushing past, instead of running, she heard herself whisper:
"Come with me."
Namtan blinked, stunned.
Then nodded, silent.
And together — without speaking — they slipped out into the cool twilight air.

The campus was quiet now, the sky washed in soft shades of blue and pink.
Film led Namtan to the old bench tucked behind the science building — the one barely anyone knew about.
It felt safer there.
More private.
She sat down stiffly, setting her books aside, her hands trembling slightly in her lap.
Namtan didn’t sit until Film gestured weakly to the spot beside her.
And even then, she left enough space between them that Film didn’t feel trapped.
Didn’t feel cornered.
For a long time, neither of them spoke.
Film stared at her hands, picking at the edge of her sleeve until the fabric frayed.
She didn’t know how to do this.
Didn’t know how to explain the raw, broken thing twisting inside her.
But when she finally spoke, her voice was so soft it barely rose above a whisper.
"I…" She swallowed. "I know the dare… it was a long time ago."
Namtan’s hands clenched in her lap, but she stayed silent, letting Film speak.
Film took a shaky breath.
"I just… it wasn’t just about the dare. It’s what it reminded me of."
Her throat closed up, and she had to blink rapidly to keep the tears at bay.
"My ex…" she whispered, voice cracking. "She used to tell me that no one would ever love me for real. That I was just… a prize to be won. Something people wanted for the challenge, but never enough to stay."
The words spilled out in a broken rush, years of wounds reopening under the soft, forgiving twilight.
"I believed her," Film said, her hands curling into fists. "I still do, sometimes. And when I found out about the dare… it felt like she was right. Like I was just some… stupid game. Like I was only good enough to chase, but not to love."
A single tear slipped free, and she brushed it away angrily.
"I know it’s not fair to put all of that on you," she whispered. "But it broke something in me."
The silence that followed was heavy and raw.
Namtan looked like she might shatter.
Slowly — so slowly Film could have pulled away at any moment — Namtan reached out and gently laid her hand, palm up, on the bench between them.
Not touching.
Not forcing.
Just offering.
Film stared at it for a long, agonizing moment.
Then — heart pounding — she slid her smaller hand into Namtan’s.
Namtan’s fingers closed around hers, warm and careful.
No demands.
No expectations.
Just a promise.
"I'm so sorry, Film," Namtan whispered, voice thick with emotion. "Not just for the dare. For everything. You’re not a prize. You’re not a game. You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me."
Film closed her eyes, letting the words wash over her.
Part of her wanted to believe them.
Part of her was still too scared.
But for the first time, the fear wasn’t stronger than the hope.
And maybe — just maybe — that was enough for now.

Chapter Thirty-One: Learning How to Heal
Film’s Perspective
The weight of speaking the words aloud lingered with Film long after the sun had set.
Even after they had left the little bench behind — after their hands had slowly, reluctantly parted — the memory of Namtan’s quiet "You’re not a prize" clung to her like a lifeline.
Film didn’t know what it meant yet.
Didn’t know if she could fully believe it.
But something inside her had shifted.
Just a little.
Just enough.

The next morning, Film woke up feeling raw.
Exposed.
Her heart was sore in a way that reminded her of old bruises.
Faintly aching, but not unbearable.
She sat in bed staring at her phone, Namtan’s contact name glowing softly at the top of the screen.
Namtan hadn’t texted.
Hadn’t pushed.
Hadn’t demanded to know where they stood now.
And somehow, that quiet patience made Film’s chest feel tighter than any grand gesture ever could.
It would be so easy to slip back into silence.
So easy to let the fear win.
But she thought about Namtan’s hand on the bench, waiting, offering — not demanding.
And slowly, cautiously, she typed out two words.
"Good morning."
She hit send before she could talk herself out of it.
Her heart immediately lurched into her throat.
But she didn’t take it back.
She didn’t delete the message.
She waited.
And a minute later, her phone buzzed.
"Good morning, Film."
"I hope today is gentle with you."
Film stared at the words, something unspooling quietly in her chest.
She hadn’t even realized how much she needed someone to wish her that.
To hope for gentleness in her day.
Not success.
Not strength.
Just… gentleness.
It felt like a prayer.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan read Film’s "Good morning" over and over, hardly daring to believe it was real.
She clutched her phone to her chest, sitting cross-legged on her bed, heart pounding.
It was just two words.
But it was everything.
She wanted to scream.
Cry.
Laugh.
Instead, she stayed quiet.
Steady.
She would move at Film’s pace.
No faster.
No pressure.
No demands.
She’d broken Film’s trust once.
Now, if she was lucky, she would spend the rest of her life rebuilding it — one careful, patient step at a time.

Later that Day - Campus Courtyard
Film sat under the same tree they had once shared coffee beneath, her notebook open but her pen unmoving.
She wasn’t sure why she was here.
Maybe part of her had hoped to see Namtan.
Maybe part of her had just needed to be somewhere that didn’t feel heavy with bad memories.
The sun warmed the grass around her.
The air smelled faintly of jasmine from the bushes lining the path.
It should have felt peaceful.
But the nerves were back — jittery, anxious, making her stomach twist.
When she finally spotted Namtan across the courtyard, her breath caught.
Namtan wasn’t looking for her.
She was just sitting on the low stone wall by the fountain, headphones in, a worn book open on her lap.
For a long moment, Film just watched her.
The late afternoon light caught in Namtan’s hair, turning the dark strands almost bronze.
Her mouth was set in a small, absent-minded pout of concentration.
She looked… peaceful.
Uncomplicated.
Real.
Something inside Film shifted again — that soft, painful yearning she was beginning to recognize.
Slowly, before she could lose her nerve, she packed up her things and crossed the courtyard.
She wasn’t sure what she was going to say.
Maybe nothing.
Maybe just being near Namtan would be enough.
When she reached the fountain, Namtan looked up.
Their eyes met.
Film hesitated — just a second — and then sat down carefully on the wall, leaving a careful few inches between them.
Namtan didn’t say anything.
She just tugged one earbud out and offered it to Film without a word.
Film stared at it for a second.
Then — heart hammering — she took it.
The music was soft, almost whispering: a slow, sweet acoustic song she didn’t recognize.
She sat there, half in Namtan’s world, half in her own, and for the first time in a long, long while, the silence between them didn’t feel heavy.
It felt easy.
Comfortable.
Healing.

Later — as the sun dipped lower —
Film found herself leaning slightly toward Namtan, her shoulder brushing lightly against Namtan’s.
It was a tiny touch.
Barely anything.
But Namtan immediately froze — not pulling away, not pressing closer — just waiting, letting Film set the pace.
And Film, for once, didn’t flinch.
Didn’t retreat.
She let herself stay.
Let herself breathe.
Because maybe healing wasn’t about fixing everything all at once.
Maybe it was about small, quiet moments like this — choosing, over and over, to stay even when it would be easier to run.
Choosing hope, even when it terrified her.

Namtan’s Perspective
When she felt Film’s shoulder brush against hers, Namtan’s breath caught painfully in her throat.
She didn’t move.
Didn’t speak.
Just sat there, feeling the fragile, precious weight of Film’s trust resting between them.
She would guard it with her life.
Whatever it took.
For as long as it took.
Because for the first time in her life, Namtan understood:
Love wasn’t a chase.
It wasn’t a dare.
It wasn’t something to win.
It was something you chose.
Every day.
Every moment.
And she would spend the rest of her life choosing Film.

Chapter Thirty-Two: Fragile, but Real
Film’s Perspective
The days after the fountain moment were… strange.
Not bad.
Not painful, exactly.
Just… fragile.
Like something delicate was growing between them, too new and soft to survive anything sharp or fast.
Film found herself moving through campus differently now — more aware, more cautious.
Sometimes, she caught glimpses of Namtan across the quad or near the library steps.
Sometimes, Namtan would catch her eye, offer the smallest smile, and then look away just as quickly — not crowding her, not pushing.
Waiting.
Always waiting.
And Film hated how much that made her chest ache.
Hated — and secretly cherished — the quiet patience in Namtan’s gaze.
It would have been easier if Namtan got frustrated.
If she walked away.
But she didn’t.
She stayed.
Carefully, gently — giving Film the space she needed while still making it clear she wasn’t giving up.
And maybe that, more than anything, was what slowly began stitching something broken inside Film back together.

One Quiet Afternoon — The Campus Café
Film was standing in line, nervously bouncing her knee, when she felt a presence at her side.
She didn’t even have to look.
She just… knew.
Namtan stood there, a careful step away, pretending to study the menu like she wasn’t hyper-aware of Film’s every breath.
Film’s fingers twitched at her side, and she forced herself to stay where she was — not to flee.
The line moved forward.
Film moved with it.
Namtan stayed close.
Not crowding.
Not pressing.
Just there.
When it was Film’s turn to order, her throat dried up.
She hesitated, staring at the chalkboard menu like it was written in another language.
Namtan leaned a little closer, her voice barely a whisper:
"They have the lavender lattes again. You liked those, remember?"
Film blinked.
Something warm and treacherous curled in her stomach.
She did remember.
She had loved those.
And Namtan had remembered too.
Her voice shook slightly as she placed her order, feeling Namtan’s steady presence like a safety net she hadn’t realized she needed.
When the barista handed her the cup, Film stepped aside quickly, clutching the warm cardboard like a shield.
She didn’t know why her hands trembled so much.
She didn’t know why this tiny, stupid interaction felt like standing on the edge of a cliff.
She just knew her heart was pounding painfully loud in her ears.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan waited until Film had her drink, then ordered her own coffee with a calm she didn’t feel.
She could see it — the way Film’s hands trembled slightly around the cup, the way her shoulders were tensed like she might bolt at any second.
And still, Film hadn’t run.
Still, she was here.
When Namtan got her coffee, she lingered for a second, uncertain.
Pushing too hard would ruin everything.
But maybe — just maybe — offering was still allowed.
"There's a spot outside," she said softly. "Under the tree."
She didn’t ask Film to come with her.
Didn’t beg.
Didn’t pressure.
Just offered.
Film’s gaze flickered up to meet hers — wide, wary.
A long moment passed.
And then, slowly, Film nodded.
Namtan kept her breath steady as she led the way outside.
Her heart raced, but her steps were careful.
Measured.
Every tiny gesture — every glance, every word — felt like walking a tightrope suspended over a thousand jagged memories.
But she would walk it.
Gladly.
If it meant she could be with Film again.

Outside — The Shade of the Big Tree
They sat down, a cautious space between them, both nursing their coffees like they were lifelines.
The breeze was soft, ruffling Film’s hair, and Namtan had to clench her fists to resist the instinct to reach out and tuck a stray strand behind her ear.
Not yet.
Not unless Film wanted it.
Instead, she sipped her coffee quietly, letting the silence settle between them — warm, tentative, but not heavy.
It wasn’t like before.
It was quieter now.
More careful.
But it was real.
And Namtan would take real over perfect any day.

Film’s Perspective
Film sat stiffly at first, unsure what to say, unsure if she should say anything at all.
But as the minutes ticked by, the tension started to bleed out of her shoulders.
Namtan wasn’t trying to fill the silence.
She wasn’t fidgeting or checking her phone or looking around for someone more interesting.
She was just… here.
With Film.
As if this — this tiny moment — was enough.
Film found herself sneaking glances at Namtan out of the corner of her eye.
The curve of her mouth, soft and relaxed.
The way the sunlight made the brown of her eyes look impossibly warm.
She didn’t look impatient.
She didn’t look like she was waiting for Film to fix herself faster.
She just looked… there.
And maybe, for the first time in a long time, Film didn’t feel like she was disappointing someone just by existing.
Her hand twitched on the bench between them — a small, instinctive movement she wasn’t even aware of at first.
Namtan noticed immediately, but didn’t move.
Didn’t reach.
Just waited.
Slowly, almost without thinking, Film let her pinky brush lightly against Namtan’s.
It wasn’t much.
Barely a touch.
But it was everything.
Namtan didn’t grab her hand.
Didn’t even curl her fingers around Film’s.
She just stayed there, still and steady, letting Film be the one to choose how close was close enough.
And somehow, in that tiny, fragile touch, Film felt safer than she had in months.
Maybe years.
She closed her eyes for a second, breathing in the warm afternoon air, and let herself believe — just for a moment — that maybe, maybe, she could be loved without conditions.
Without games.
Without tricks.
Maybe, she thought, letting her pinky press a little more firmly into Namtan’s,
maybe she wasn’t impossible to love after all.

Chapter Thirty-Three: Trust is a Verb
Film’s Perspective
In the days that followed, Film found herself living in a state of constant contradiction.
Part of her wanted to lean into the tentative comfort that Namtan offered, to trust in the quiet steadiness she was showing.
The other part — the bigger, louder part — whispered reminders of the past.
Of betrayal.
Of promises made and broken.
She hated how easily she remembered every cruel word from her ex.
How easily she remembered that suffocating feeling of being used, of being just another name on someone else's list.
She hated that she sometimes looked at Namtan and wondered if she was foolish for hoping.
But then—
There would be small moments.
Tiny things.
Like Namtan sending a message between classes:
"Don’t forget to drink water today."
Or quietly sliding a pack of Film’s favorite pens across the library table without a word.
Or showing up at Film’s soccer game — standing quietly at the back of the crowd, not drawing attention, just there.
Film didn’t know how to process it.
It was almost easier when people made big, flashy gestures.
Easier to be skeptical of those.
But this?
This slow, steady presence?
It terrified her.
Because it felt real.
It felt like something that might actually be safe.

One Afternoon — Film’s Walk Across Campus
Film walked across campus with her arms wrapped tightly around her books, head bowed against the light breeze.
She wasn’t expecting to see Namtan leaning casually against the wall by the bookstore, a small paper bag in hand.
Film’s heart stuttered at the sight of her.
Namtan caught her eye immediately, but didn’t rush over.
She just smiled — small, soft, and heartbreakingly patient — and held out the paper bag.
Film slowed.
Paused.
Torn between instinct and want.
After a long, tense moment, she stepped closer.
"What’s that?" she asked, voice low.
Namtan shrugged, almost shy.
"Your favorite banana bread. Fresh today."
Film stared at her.
At the simple gift.
At the way Namtan wasn’t forcing it into her hands — just offering.
And for a moment, she hated herself for doubting.
Hated the way her mind still whispered: Maybe it’s still part of the game.
But the way Namtan was looking at her — cautious, hopeful, so painfully sincere — made that voice falter.
Film took the bag slowly, cradling it to her chest like it might vanish.
"Thank you," she whispered.
And the way Namtan’s whole face lit up at those two simple words made Film’s chest ache.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan watched Film clutch the small bag like it was something precious and fragile.
Her heart twisted painfully.
She wanted so badly to fix everything.
To undo all the hurt.
But she knew it didn’t work like that.
You didn’t heal someone’s scars by pretending they weren’t there.
You didn’t demand trust — you earned it.
Slowly.
Patiently.
Every day.
And she would keep earning it.
No matter how long it took.
No matter how much it hurt sometimes to see Film still flinch from her touch.
Film was worth it.
Always had been.

Later — Secluded Corner of the Library
Film sat curled up in her usual spot, textbooks spread around her, the half-eaten banana bread tucked carefully beside her notebook.
She hadn’t seen Namtan come in, but she felt her presence — that careful, quiet gravity that Namtan carried with her now.
She looked up, heart stuttering again when she saw Namtan a few tables over, nose buried in her own laptop.
Not looking at Film.
Not pushing.
Just… there.
The smallest, tentative smile tugged at Film’s mouth.
Maybe trust wasn’t about grand promises after all.
Maybe it was about this — showing up.
Even when it was hard.
Even when it would be easier to walk away.

Film’s Internal Monologue
Maybe it’s okay to let her stay.
Maybe it’s okay to be scared and still hope anyway.
Maybe I can let myself believe… just a little.
She picked up the banana bread, broke off a piece, and — heart pounding — scribbled a tiny note on the corner of her notebook:
"Thank you for not giving up on me."
She didn’t give it to Namtan.
Not yet.
But she folded it carefully and tucked it into her pocket — a promise to herself that maybe, someday, she would.

Chapter Thirty-Four: Small Steps Forward
Film’s Perspective
It started so gradually, Film almost didn’t notice it.
Little shifts in the way she moved around Namtan.
How she didn’t stiffen immediately when she caught sight of her.
How her heart, while still nervous, didn’t hammer painfully with fear anymore.
How seeing Namtan — quiet, patient, steady — started to feel more like comfort than threat.
It terrified her.
And it warmed her.
Both at once.
Because for the first time in a very, very long time, Film realized something monumental:
Namtan wasn’t going anywhere.
Not when Film flinched.
Not when she withdrew.
Not when she needed time.
Namtan stayed.
And the more Film realized it, the more she found herself craving that warmth.
Wanting to believe it was real.

Late Afternoon — Under the Big Tree
The sky was a soft watercolor blue, brushed with hints of orange and pink as the sun started to set.
Film clutched her book tighter to her chest as she made her way toward the big tree near the edge of campus — their spot now, she supposed.
And there was Namtan.
Already there.
Sitting cross-legged in the grass, backpack tossed carelessly beside her, head tilted back to soak in the last rays of sunlight.
Film’s heart twisted painfully at the sight.
So beautiful.
So heartbreakingly easy to love.
She approached slowly, her steps uncertain but sure enough to carry her forward.
Namtan opened her eyes at the sound of Film’s approach, a small, soft smile tugging at her mouth.
She didn’t get up.
She didn’t reach out.
She just… waited.
Film stood there for a long moment, the book trembling slightly in her hands, before she sank down beside Namtan.
Close enough that their shoulders almost brushed.
Not touching.
Not yet.
Film stared at the grass between her knees, feeling the weight of her own heartbeat.
The silence stretched — not uncomfortable, but heavy with possibility.
And then—
Without thinking too much, without letting herself be talked out of it, Film shifted closer.
Her shoulder brushed Namtan’s arm.
She froze — breath caught tight in her lungs.
But Namtan didn’t flinch.
Didn’t tense.
She simply turned her hand palm-up on the grass between them, open.
Waiting.
An invitation, not a demand.
Film stared at it.
Her fingers twitched.
And then — heart racing so wildly she felt dizzy — she leaned sideways, letting her weight fall gently against Namtan’s side.
It was tentative at first.
A soft, barely-there touch.
Testing.
Waiting.
But Namtan didn’t move away.
Didn’t stiffen.
She shifted just enough to make herself a steadier anchor, her body solid and warm where Film pressed against her.
And then, so carefully it broke something open in Film’s chest, Namtan tilted her head down and rested her cheek lightly against the top of Film’s hair.
Not claiming her.
Not trapping her.
Just being there.
A steady, silent vow: You are safe. I’m not leaving.

Film’s Internal Monologue
Film closed her eyes, squeezing the book tighter against her chest as the sensation of being held — of being wanted — flooded her.
She had forgotten what this felt like.
Forgotten what it meant to lean on someone without fear of the ground crumbling underneath her.
Her chest ached, sharp and raw, and she fought back the stinging in her eyes.
She didn't deserve this.
Not really.
But maybe…
Maybe that was the old voice talking.
Maybe the truth was something different.
Maybe she didn’t have to be perfect to be loved.
Maybe she didn’t have to be anything except herself.
Maybe Namtan had already chosen her — messy, wounded pieces and all.
The thought was so huge, so terrifying, that Film shook slightly where she leaned against Namtan’s side.
But Namtan didn’t move.
She just stayed there.
Solid.
Steady.
Safe.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan kept her breathing slow and steady, terrified that any sudden movement would spook Film.
But inside?
Inside she was a riot of emotions.
Pride.
Gratitude.
A fierce, aching tenderness she didn’t know how to contain.
She felt every small tremor in Film’s body.
She knew how much it cost her to lean into someone again.
And she would honor that trust with everything she had.
She let her hand inch slowly closer, resting her pinky lightly against Film’s where they lay in the grass — a whisper of contact, nothing more.
An I’m here without words.
And when Film’s pinky curled slightly around hers in answer — a small, instinctive movement — Namtan had to blink hard against the sudden burn of tears.
Not because she was sad.
Because she was so damn grateful to be trusted again.

The Sunset Fading Around Them
They stayed like that for a long time, saying nothing.
Just breathing together.
Watching the sky bleed from gold to pink to deep, velvet blue.
When Film finally pulled away — slow, reluctant — she didn’t look at Namtan.
But she didn’t run, either.
Instead, she stood up, smoothing her jeans with trembling hands, and whispered without meeting her eyes:
"See you tomorrow?"
Namtan’s heart soared and cracked at the same time.
She smiled — soft, real, utterly in love — and nodded.
"Yeah," she said. "Tomorrow."

—-
Chapter Thirty-Five: A Promise in the Quiet
Film’s Perspective
There was something different now when she was with Namtan.
Not perfect — not easy — but different.
Safer.
Film still carried her bruised heart carefully, guarded like a fragile thing, but whenever she was near Namtan, that weight felt… lighter somehow.
She didn’t mean to seek her out.
It just happened.
Like her body knew what her heart was still too scared to admit.
Today was no different.
Classes had ended, and Film found herself lingering at the edge of campus where the old bench sat under the big oak tree — their unofficial place now.
Namtan was already there, sitting cross-legged, her notebook open but forgotten on her lap, sunlight catching in the loose strands of her hair.
When Film approached, Namtan looked up — and smiled.
Soft.
Patient.
Endless.
Film’s chest squeezed tight with emotion.
She didn’t hesitate this time.
She walked straight to Namtan, dropping her bag beside the bench and settling down without a word.
The moment she was close enough, her body moved almost on instinct — leaning sideways until her shoulder pressed lightly against Namtan’s.
Not because she was afraid.
Because she wanted to be close.
Namtan froze for half a second, caught off guard — then shifted, careful and slow, to support Film’s weight more fully.
No rush.
No pressure.
Just steady warmth.
Home.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan felt Film’s body relax against her, and she had to close her eyes briefly against the sudden rush of overwhelming tenderness.
Every small moment Film gave her now was a gift.
Every lean, every touch, every breath shared between them — a trust rebuilt, piece by fragile piece.
She didn’t speak.
Didn’t move too much.
Just sat there, letting Film lean into her as much or as little as she needed.
I’ll be here, Namtan promised silently. Always.
Minutes passed like that — quiet and golden under the late afternoon sun.
The world outside the little bench faded away.
It was just the two of them.
Two hearts learning how to beat beside each other again.

Film’s Perspective
She didn’t mean to speak.
Not really.
The words tumbled out in a whisper before she could stop herself — soft, trembling, but honest.
"I… I don’t trust you completely yet."
Namtan stiffened for a breath — just one — before nodding slowly, her hand inching closer to Film’s on the bench but not touching unless Film allowed it.
"And that’s okay," Namtan said, voice rough with emotion. "You don’t have to."
Film stared at her hands, twisting them together tightly in her lap.
"But…"
She swallowed hard, forcing the next words out.
"I want to."
Namtan’s breath hitched.
Film closed her eyes, gathering what little courage she had left.
"I want to try. I want to try again with you. I want us… I want what we had before. I just…" She shook her head helplessly. "I’m scared. But I don’t want to lose you."
The silence that followed was so thick it felt like it wrapped around them.
And then—
Namtan moved.
Slowly, carefully, like she was approaching something sacred.
She brushed the back of her fingers along Film’s hand, so lightly it was almost nothing.
Film didn’t pull away.
She turned her hand over, lacing their fingers together, trembling but sure.

Namtan’s Perspective
Namtan fought to keep herself steady, to stay calm when inside she was shattering apart in gratitude.
She wanted to throw her arms around Film and promise her the world.
But she knew Film needed more than words.
She needed action.
Consistency.
Patience.
Namtan squeezed Film’s hand gently and whispered, "I’m not going anywhere."
She shifted closer, pressing a light, lingering kiss to Film’s temple.
"I’m going to spend every day proving it to you," Namtan murmured. "Not because I have to. But because you deserve it. You deserve everything, Film."
Film let out a shaky breath — half-sob, half-laugh — and leaned her forehead against Namtan’s shoulder.
She was still scared.
Still wounded.
But for the first time in a long time, there was something else inside her too.
Hope.
Maybe battered.
Maybe tentative.
But real.

The Evening Fading Around Them
They stayed like that as the sun dipped lower, wrapped in the quiet and each other.
No more rushing.
No more games.
Just the slow, careful building of something real.
A relationship not born from dares or illusions.
But from choice.
From wanting.
From love.

Chapter Thirty-Six: Little By Little
Film’s Perspective
It wasn’t all at once.
There were still moments Film caught herself pulling back — walls rising instinctively, old scars whispering caution into her ear.
But it was getting easier.
Bit by bit.
Every time she leaned toward Namtan instead of away.
Every time she reached out instead of shrinking back.
Every time Namtan stayed, steady and patient.
It got a little easier to believe.

That Morning — The Campus Café
They sat tucked into their usual corner at the campus café — two mugs of coffee cooling between them, books and laptops scattered across the table.
Film had been trying to focus on her reading, but her eyes kept drifting.
To Namtan.
To the way she scribbled in her notebook with her eyebrows furrowed, her tongue peeking slightly between her lips in concentration.
To the way her leg bounced absentmindedly under the table.
To the soft little smile she wore whenever she caught Film looking at her.
Film tried to go back to her textbook.
Tried, really.
But eventually, without even thinking about it, she slid her chair a little closer, until their knees brushed under the table.
Namtan stilled.
Looked up.
Their eyes met.
Film blushed, looking down quickly, but she didn’t move away.
Instead, she nudged her foot lightly against Namtan’s — once, twice — a silent request.
Namtan grinned so wide Film thought her heart might burst.
Without saying anything, Namtan shifted too — their legs resting comfortably together now.
Warm.
Connected.
And when Film finally returned to her reading, Namtan’s foot stayed pressed gently against hers like a promise.

Later — On Campus Walks
Namtan started showing up outside Film’s classrooms, waiting against the wall with a casual lean and a soft smile.
She didn’t crowd her.
Didn’t demand attention.
She was just… there.
An open hand waiting for Film to take.
Sometimes Film would dart over shyly, tucking herself against Namtan’s side for a moment before pulling back, cheeks pink but smiling.
Other times, when no one was really around, she would grab Namtan’s hand boldly, intertwining their fingers like it was the most natural thing in the world.
Each time, Namtan squeezed her hand lightly — three little squeezes.
I’m here.
I’m staying.
I’m yours.
Film started squeezing back.
Sometimes once.
Sometimes twice.
Namtan never asked for more.
She just matched whatever Film gave.

One Afternoon — Sitting Beneath the Big Tree Again
They had claimed that spot now, unofficially.
It was theirs.
Film sat between Namtan’s legs this time, her back against Namtan’s chest, as they both pretended to study.
Namtan’s arms were draped casually over Film’s shoulders, her chin sometimes resting lightly on top of Film’s head.
Film had her book open on her lap, but she wasn’t really reading.
She was too busy feeling the steady beat of Namtan’s heart against her back.
Too busy memorizing the way Namtan hummed softly under her breath without even realizing.
At one point, Namtan reached down and brushed Film’s hair off her shoulder, fingers lingering at the nape of her neck.
A simple touch.
But it sent shivers down Film’s spine — not from fear this time, but from how safe and warm it made her feel.
Without thinking, Film tilted her head back slightly, nestling more firmly against Namtan’s chest.
Clingy, maybe.
But Namtan didn’t tease her for it.
Didn’t make her feel silly.
She just hugged her a little tighter, tucking her chin protectively over Film’s shoulder and sighing contentedly.

Namtan’s Internal Monologue
Every time Film leaned into her, Namtan’s heart cracked open a little more.
She understood the weight of those small moments.
Understood how much trust it took for Film to reach for her — even just a little.
And Namtan was determined, more than anything, to be worthy of that trust.
She didn’t say grand things.
Didn’t make impossible promises.
Instead, she showed it in the small, everyday ways:
Carrying Film’s bag when it looked too heavy.
Waiting outside her classes.
Bringing Film her favorite drink without being asked.
Learning her quiet moods and her soft smiles.
Namtan would spend every day proving it.
Film wasn’t a dare anymore.
Film was everything.

Later That Night — Outside Film’s Dorm
They walked back slowly, hand in hand.
Film fidgeted when they reached the steps, reluctant to let go.
Namtan smiled and squeezed her hand gently.
"I’ll see you tomorrow," she said softly.
Film hesitated.
Then, with a burst of bravery, she rose on her toes and pressed a shy kiss to Namtan’s cheek — quick, feather-light, but so full of emotion Namtan had to bite back a gasp.
Film dropped back down immediately, cheeks burning, eyes wide.
"Goodnight," she mumbled.
Before Namtan could even respond, Film darted inside, the door swinging shut behind her.
Namtan stood there for a moment, heart pounding, hand touching her cheek where Film had kissed her.
And she smiled so wide it hurt.

Chapter Thirty-Seven: Learning to Breathe Together
Film’s Perspective
It was happening without her even noticing now —
this leaning toward Namtan instead of away.
Maybe it was because every time she reached for Namtan, Namtan was there.
Steady. Warm. Patient.
Never pulling. Never pushing.
Just open arms waiting for Film to be ready.

That Afternoon — Sitting Outside Again
They found themselves back at their usual spot, the old oak tree casting long shadows across the grass.
Film had barely sat down before she shuffled closer to Namtan, hooking her arm through Namtan’s and resting her head lightly on Namtan’s shoulder.
No hesitation this time.
No second-guessing.
It was like breathing — natural and necessary.
Namtan chuckled softly, the sound rumbling low in her chest.
She shifted just enough to let Film tuck herself closer, adjusting the blanket they’d spread across the grass to cover them both.
"You’re clingy today," Namtan teased, but there was no bite to it.
Only pure affection — something so tender that it made Film’s heart flutter.
Film didn’t even deny it.
She just let out a small hum and pressed her face further into Namtan’s hoodie.

Namtan’s Perspective
If she could freeze time, Namtan would’ve stopped the world right there —
Film tangled up against her side, soft and trusting, the late afternoon sun painting her hair gold.
God, I love you, Namtan thought.
The words burned on the tip of her tongue.
Too soon.
Maybe too much.
But it was real.
More real than anything she’d ever felt before.
She shifted her hand, sliding it carefully along Film’s back in slow, soothing strokes.
Film let out the smallest, sweetest sigh and melted even more into her.
Namtan’s chest ached with how much she adored her.
She didn’t care how long it took.
She’d earn every single piece of Film’s trust, over and over again, for the rest of their lives if that’s what it took.

Soft Moments Leading to More
They sat like that for a while — no words, just the quiet rhythm of breathing together.
Occasionally, Film would shift and glance up shyly, eyes tracing the side of Namtan’s face like she was memorizing her.
Each time, Namtan would meet her gaze and smile —
soft, patient, full of so much tenderness it made Film’s stomach flip.
And then —
one of those glances lingered a little longer.
Film’s fingers tightened around Namtan’s hoodie, and she blinked up at her — hesitant, but not afraid.
Namtan swallowed thickly, heart pounding in her ears.
"Film…" she breathed, voice trembling slightly.
Film’s lips parted, the faintest, sweetest tilt of her mouth inviting — open and trusting.
And Namtan, unable to resist any longer, leaned in.
Slow.
So slow.
Giving Film every chance to pull away if she needed to.
She didn’t.
Their lips brushed — feather-light at first, barely a whisper of contact.
Namtan paused there, letting Film set the pace.
And then —
Film leaned up into her.
The kiss deepened, still soft, still slow — a careful intertwining of hearts more than mouths.
It wasn’t urgent.
It wasn’t desperate.
It was safe.
It was home.
When they finally pulled back, Film kept her forehead pressed to Namtan’s, her fingers still fisted tightly in her hoodie.
Both of them breathing a little harder, a little shakier — but smiling.
Real smiles.

Namtan’s Perspective — The Courage to Ask
Namtan brushed her thumb lightly along Film’s jaw, staring into her eyes.
There was so much she wanted to say.
So much she wanted to promise.
She took a shaky breath, gathering every ounce of courage she had.
"I…"
She paused, heart hammering.
Film tilted her head, curious but patient, waiting.
"I know we’re… still healing. Still figuring this out," Namtan whispered. "And if you need more time, I’ll wait. As long as you need."
She cupped Film’s cheek gently, her thumb sweeping back and forth in slow, grounding motions.
"But I need you to know — I’m serious about you. About us. I’m not going anywhere."
Film’s eyes shimmered in the golden light, wide and shining.
"I want to be with you," Namtan continued, voice rough with emotion. "Really be with you. No games. No dares. Just you and me."
She hesitated, nerves twisting in her stomach.
And then, in a voice barely louder than a whisper:
"Will you… be my girlfriend, Film?"

Film’s Perspective — The Answer
Film’s heart stuttered painfully in her chest.
The old fear was still there —
the fear of being hurt, of being unwanted, of being not enough.
But when she looked at Namtan —
really looked —
all she saw was sincerity.
All she felt was warmth.
She didn’t answer right away.
Instead, she shifted, closing the tiny distance between them, pressing herself fully into Namtan’s arms.
Namtan caught her immediately, wrapping her up like something precious.
Film rested her head against Namtan’s heart, feeling the rapid thud of it beneath her ear.
And then, finally —
soft and sure:
"Okay," she whispered.
"I’ll be yours."

Namtan’s Perspective — The Aftermath
For a second, Namtan thought she might cry —
the overwhelming relief, the gratitude, the sheer love crashing over her like a tidal wave.
She pulled Film even closer, pressing kiss after kiss into her hair, her forehead, her temple.
"Mine," she murmured between each kiss.
"Mine. Mine. Mine."
Film giggled quietly against her chest, the sound pure and bright.
And for the first time in what felt like forever, the weight on both of their chests finally lifted.
They weren’t perfect.
They weren’t fully healed.
But they were together.
And that was enough.

Chapter Thirty-Eight: Building a New Beginning
The Day After They Became Official
Namtan had never felt this way before.
Not even during her wildest, most carefree days of flirting and teasing and basking in attention.
Nothing compared to this.
Nothing compared to waking up and remembering —
Film is mine again.
She chose me.
Namtan practically floated across campus that morning, a ridiculous, giddy smile stretched across her face.
She waved at strangers.
She held doors open.
She almost bought coffee for the entire café because she was so full of happiness she didn’t know where to put it.

…

When Film arrived outside her class, quietly tucking her hair behind her ear and adjusting the strap of her bag, she didn’t expect much.
Maybe a wave.
Maybe a shy little smile.
What she didn’t expect was for Namtan to be waiting there, holding a giant bouquet of wildflowers so big it practically swallowed her arms.
Film stopped dead in her tracks.
Students passing by stared and whispered.
Namtan didn’t care.
She was grinning so widely it looked like her face might break in half.
"For you," Namtan said brightly, stepping forward and offering the flowers like she was offering her whole heart.
Film went pink immediately — ears, cheeks, even down her neck.
"I—"
She stammered, looking wildly around. "Namtan, there’s — people — watching—"
"I know," Namtan said cheerfully, utterly unfazed.
Film took the bouquet with trembling hands, her heart hammering against her ribs.
The flowers smelled sweet and fresh, like sunshine and spring.
Film peeked up at Namtan through her lashes, so bashful she thought she might combust on the spot.
And then —
without meaning to —
she took a tiny step forward and buried her face against Namtan’s shoulder, hiding her blush in the fabric of Namtan’s hoodie.
Namtan laughed quietly, wrapping her arms around Film’s small frame, rocking her gently side to side.

…

It didn’t stop there.
That afternoon, when Film walked into the library for their study session, she found Namtan already waiting —
with two cups of Film’s favorite milk tea, her laptop open, and a little handwritten sticky note stuck to Film’s chair.
"Reserved for the prettiest girl on campus <3"
Film clutched the note against her chest like it was the most precious thing in the world.
She glared at Namtan half-heartedly, lips twitching.
"You’re embarrassing," she muttered, cheeks bright pink.
Namtan beamed, utterly unrepentant.
"And yet," she teased, leaning closer, "you’re still here."
Film made a soft noise under her breath and slid into the chair, sitting close enough that their shoulders bumped.
Close enough that, under the table, she could tentatively hook her pinky finger with Namtan’s.
Namtan squeezed her pinky back immediately —
a tiny, silent I’m here. I’m yours.
Film smiled into her cup, heart so full she thought it might spill out of her chest.

It wasn’t like Namtan was overly public about it.
She wasn’t shouting their relationship from the rooftops (even if she secretly wanted to).
She was just…
Namtan.
Unapologetically affectionate.
Touchy in all the ways that told Film — without words —
you’re loved.
A hand on the small of Film’s back guiding her through crowds.
Brushing hair out of Film’s face when the wind got too wild.
Kissing the top of Film’s head in greeting, without even thinking about it.
Each time, Film would go adorably still, blinking up at Namtan like she couldn’t quite believe she was allowed to have this —
this softness, this certainty, this love.
Each time, Film would duck her head, hiding her bashful smile in Namtan’s jacket or hoodie or shoulder.
And Namtan would just chuckle lowly, arms wrapping around her, pulling her closer.
If Film was clingy before, now she was practically glued to Namtan whenever they were together.
And Namtan loved it.
Loved how Film would absentmindedly twirl the drawstring of her hoodie between her fingers while they studied.
Loved how Film would crawl into her lap during movie nights without saying a word, just settling in like she belonged there.
Loved how, when they walked anywhere, Film’s hand would find hers automatically — shy at first, then sure.

Later That Night — A Moment in the Quiet
They sat outside on a bench near the dorms, the sky stretched wide and deep above them, stars blinking sleepily.
Film rested her head against Namtan’s shoulder, her body tucked neatly against her side.
Namtan threaded their fingers together, rubbing her thumb back and forth across Film’s knuckles.
For a while, they just sat in silence, breathing each other in.
Then, softly, Namtan spoke.
"You know," she murmured, voice low and earnest, "I’m going to spend the rest of my life showing you how much I love you."
Film made a small, overwhelmed sound in her throat.
And before she could spiral into overthinking, Namtan kissed her —
a slow, grounding kiss —
soft and sweet and full of promises she hadn’t even needed to say out loud.
Film leaned up into it, clinging tightly to Namtan’s hoodie, her heart thundering beautifully in her chest.
When they finally broke apart, Film kept her forehead pressed to Namtan’s, her voice barely a whisper.
"I’m glad you’re mine too."

Chapter Thirty-Nine: Safe in Your Arms
Being with Film again didn’t feel like picking up where they left off.
It felt… new.
More fragile. More precious.
And Namtan treated it like that — like she was holding something priceless in her hands, something she would spend the rest of her life protecting.
They were dating again.
Officially.
And Namtan could hardly believe it most days.
Every time Film reached for her hand first —
Every time Film smiled shyly into her chest —
Every time Film leaned into her side without fear —
It felt like breathing for the first time after being underwater for too long.
Namtan wasn’t going to waste a single second.

…

Namtan made it her mission to show Film how loved she was — not with grand, flashy gestures, but with a thousand tiny acts that whispered:
"I'm here."
"I see you."
"You're mine, if you’ll still have me."
She carried Film’s favorite snacks in her bag, always ready for when Film needed a little boost.
She kept a soft hoodie — the one Film loved to steal — folded neatly in her backpack just in case Film got cold.
She memorized the times of Film’s lectures, waiting outside like clockwork just to walk her to the next class, even when it meant getting rained on.
Film never asked for any of it.
But the way her eyes would shine whenever she spotted Namtan waiting —
The way her fingers would curl shyly into Namtan’s sleeve —
The way her body would instinctively lean closer —
It was everything.

…

One afternoon, as they sat together on a bench outside the library, Film curled herself so tightly against Namtan’s side that it was almost like she was trying to crawl into her skin.
Namtan couldn't stop smiling.
She wrapped an arm around Film's shoulders, pulling her even closer.
Film buried her face against Namtan's neck, letting out a soft, contented hum.
"You're clingy today," Namtan teased, voice low and warm.
Film peeked up at her, cheeks flushed, but didn’t pull away.
Instead, she whispered against Namtan’s skin, "Just… feel safe here."
Namtan felt her throat tighten with emotion.
Without thinking, she pressed a kiss to the top of Film’s head, lingering there, breathing her in.
"Stay as long as you want," she murmured. "Forever, if you want."
Film squeezed her side a little tighter, not answering — but she didn’t need to.
The way she nestled even closer said everything.

…

Later, as they walked toward Film’s dorm, hand-in-hand, Namtan slowed their steps.
Film glanced at her, curious.
Namtan was nervous. She could feel it — the jittery excitement bubbling under her skin.
She stopped walking, tugging Film gently to a halt under the soft glow of the streetlamps.
Film tilted her head up, looking impossibly small and beautiful in the golden light.
Namtan cupped Film’s cheek with both hands, heart thudding hard against her ribs.
"Can I kiss you?" she whispered, needing the permission, needing Film to know she’d never take her for granted again.
Film nodded, slow and bashful.
And so Namtan leaned in and kissed her —
soft, lingering, tender.
A kiss that wasn’t about passion or fire —
but about promise.
About a quiet kind of love that said "I’m staying. I’m choosing you. Every day."
When they broke apart, Film’s cheeks were flaming, but she didn’t pull away.
Instead, she tucked her face against Namtan’s chest again, shy and clingy and heartbreakingly sweet.
Namtan hugged her close, rocking them gently side to side, unable to hide her grin.
She's mine again.
And I’m never letting her feel unloved for even a second.

That Night — A Message
Later, after they parted for the night, Namtan’s phone buzzed.
Film:
"Thank you for always waiting for me."
Namtan’s chest squeezed painfully tight.
She typed back quickly:
Namtan:
"I’ll wait for you in every lifetime."
There was no immediate reply.
But when she woke up the next morning, there was a picture waiting in her inbox:
Film, curled up under her blanket, holding Namtan’s hoodie tightly against her chest, a tiny sleepy smile on her face.
No words.
Just pure, open trust.
And Namtan knew, without a doubt, she’d spend her whole life earning that trust — over and over — and cherishing it like the treasure it was.

Chapter Forty: A Future Built by Hand
It was a quiet Sunday afternoon when Namtan decided to surprise Film.
The week had been full of soft, gentle moments — hand-holding under the tables in the library, forehead kisses after classes, Film curling up next to her while they studied. It was a new kind of rhythm for both of them, one Namtan wasn’t used to but found she craved more and more with each passing day.
But today… today was going to be special.
Namtan had meticulously planned a little surprise for Film — something simple but meaningful. A rooftop picnic, where the two of them could watch the sunset and just be. No expectations. Just them, alone with their thoughts, with their feelings.
She had spent the morning getting everything ready. A soft blanket, Film’s favorite snacks, a thermos of hot chocolate, and a playlist that Namtan had carefully curated, knowing exactly what songs would make Film’s eyes light up.

…

When Namtan led Film to the rooftop of the library, Film’s eyes widened in surprise.
"Is this…" Film paused, her voice faltering. "Is this for me?"
Namtan beamed at her, a little nervous but mostly excited.
"I just wanted to do something nice," Namtan said, a shy laugh escaping her lips. "Something just for us."
Film’s heart melted at the sight of the small picnic, the soft blankets spread out, and the gentle colors of the sunset creeping in. But it was Namtan’s look — the way her eyes shone with that tender affection — that made everything feel perfect. Like this moment, this tiny bubble of their own world, was exactly where they were supposed to be.
"Thank you," Film whispered, stepping closer. Her voice was quieter than usual, shy in a way that was completely Film. "I love this."
Namtan’s heart fluttered. "I’m so glad you do," she whispered back.
They settled on the blanket together, side by side, as the sun began to dip lower in the sky, casting long shadows across the city.
Namtan poured them both hot chocolate and handed Film a chocolate croissant — Film’s favorite. The conversation flowed easily between them, casual and warm. Film's laughter felt like music to Namtan’s ears, and the way she leaned into Namtan’s side made her feel like the luckiest person alive.
But even in the midst of the sweetness, Namtan’s heart began to thrum with something deeper — an overwhelming gratitude that she couldn’t ignore.

…

They sat in comfortable silence for a few minutes, just watching the sky turn from gold to pink to deep purple.
Then, out of nowhere, Namtan’s heart started to race. The words just bubbled up from inside her, and she couldn't stop them, even though she knew how vulnerable she was about to make herself.
She shifted slightly, her voice unsteady.
"Film… can I tell you something?"
Film turned to look at her, their shoulders still pressed together. "Of course."
Namtan took a deep breath, her chest tight. She swallowed hard, her voice cracking slightly as she spoke.
"I was so scared that I might’ve lost you… for good," she confessed. Her hand found Film’s, squeezing it gently. "When I… when I messed up, I thought maybe there wasn’t a way back. I thought maybe you’d never want to talk to me again, or that you’d never trust me again." She blinked rapidly, feeling the weight of her words hit her like a wave.
Tears welled up in her eyes, but Namtan quickly blinked them away, not wanting Film to see her break down.
"I didn’t know how I’d survive that," Namtan whispered, voice trembling. "I love you so much. I didn’t know what to do with myself when I thought I might have lost you."
Film’s gaze softened immediately, and she gently cupped Namtan’s face with her hand, tenderly brushing away the tear that had escaped Namtan’s eye.
"You didn’t lose me," Film said quietly, her voice full of understanding. "I’m here. I’m not going anywhere."
But Namtan shook her head, her eyes closing for a moment as the tears threatened to fall more freely.
"I don’t deserve you, Film," she said, her voice cracking with emotion. "You’ve forgiven me, even after everything. You’ve let me back into your life, and I… I don’t know how to thank you for that. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to repay you for giving me another chance."
Film’s heart broke at the vulnerability in Namtan’s voice. She pulled Namtan into her arms, holding her tightly as if she could protect her from the weight of all the guilt Namtan was carrying.
"You don’t have to repay me," Film whispered into Namtan’s hair, her own voice a little shaky. "I wanted to forgive you. I wanted to be with you again, Namtan. Because I love you. And you’ve already done more than enough by showing me how much you care."
Namtan’s breath hitched in her throat as she felt the steady beat of Film’s heart beneath her ear. She had been so afraid that Film’s forgiveness would come with a catch, or that she would have to fight endlessly to prove her worth. But now, with Film holding her like this, she could feel the weight lifting off her shoulders.
"Thank you," Namtan whispered, pulling back slightly so she could look into Film’s eyes. "Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for giving me a chance to show you that I’m not going anywhere. Thank you for loving me."
Film smiled softly, her own eyes glistening with unshed tears. "I’m not going anywhere either," she whispered, her lips trembling with the unspoken promise.
And then, before Namtan could say anything more, Film leaned forward, her lips pressing gently against Namtan’s. The kiss was soft, tender, full of everything unspoken between them — the trust, the love, the forgiveness.
When they pulled apart, Namtan rested her forehead against Film’s, both of them breathing softly in the quiet of the evening.
"I’m so lucky," Namtan whispered, her voice full of wonder. "I don’t know how I got so lucky to have you."
Film smiled softly, squeezing Namtan’s hand.
"You’re not lucky, Namtan. You’re just loved."
And that, right there, was everything.
It wasn’t about grand gestures or sweeping declarations. It was about the soft, quiet moments — the way they had learned to love and forgive each other. The way they both now knew that no matter what happened, they would always find their way back to each other.
Forever.

Chapter Forty-One: Building a Future Together
The weeks following that quiet, emotional evening on the rooftop felt like a soft exhale. Both Namtan and Film, after everything they had been through, could finally breathe in a way they hadn’t been able to before. It was as if the weight that had been pressing down on them had slowly, tenderly begun to lift, and in its place was something lighter, something that felt like peace.
Things weren’t perfect — nothing ever is — but it was enough. Enough to start building. Enough to dream of a future, even if it was one step at a time.

…

It was a Saturday morning, the soft light of early spring streaming through the windows of Namtan’s apartment. She and Film had started to make it a ritual — Saturday mornings spent together, just the two of them.
Namtan sat on the couch, a cup of hot coffee in her hands, watching Film as she fumbled with the ingredients for breakfast in the kitchen. Namtan loved the quiet moments like this, where they didn’t have to say anything to feel connected. The simple act of sharing space was enough.
Film turned around to look at her, her face breaking into a smile when she saw Namtan watching her with that fond, adoring look. It still made Film’s heart flutter every time, even now.
"Do you want anything else with your coffee?" Film asked, her voice soft, her movements easy and unhurried.
Namtan shook her head, smiling back at her. "Nope. Just you."
Film’s cheeks flushed, the color creeping up to her ears. She smiled, a small, bashful thing, before turning back to the stove. Namtan watched her, feeling the warmth that had settled into her chest. She was used to being the one who kept things lighthearted and playful, but there was something so grounding about Film’s quiet presence. It was the way Film made everything feel a little more real, a little more important.

…

After breakfast, they went out for a walk around campus, hand in hand. The breeze was gentle, and the trees were starting to bloom, the flowers brightening the world with their colors. They talked about nothing and everything — their classes, the little things that made them laugh, their hopes for the summer. But even in the mundane, there was a feeling of something deeper settling between them.
"I’ve been thinking," Film said softly as they walked, her fingers brushing against Namtan’s.
Namtan turned to look at her, raising an eyebrow. "Uh-oh, that usually means something serious is coming."
Film’s lips quirked into a small smile. "It’s not serious… it’s just… I was thinking about how we’re doing. About how we’re… you know, building something here."
Namtan squeezed her hand, her heart skipping a beat. "I like that idea," she said. "Building something. It feels good."
Film nodded, her eyes softening as she looked at Namtan. "I feel like we’ve come so far. It’s not perfect, but we’re getting there, right? Slowly, but we’re getting there."
"We are," Namtan agreed, her voice low and full of affection. "And you’re not going anywhere, right? Because I’m not going anywhere. I’m here for the long haul, Film."
Film smiled, the words settling into her chest like a promise. "I’m not going anywhere either."
They stopped walking for a moment, and Namtan pulled Film into a gentle hug, holding her close. There was nothing rushed about this moment, nothing to prove. It was just them, wrapped in each other’s arms, feeling secure in the love they were building, one slow, steady day at a time.

…

As the days passed, their life together became a comfortable routine, each day a little more natural than the last. They shared meals, studied together, laughed over silly jokes, and watched movies late into the night. Their connection grew stronger with every passing day, built on trust and understanding.
One evening, as the sky turned dark and the stars began to appear, Namtan and Film sat on the balcony of Namtan’s apartment. The city stretched out before them, quiet and calm.
Film leaned against Namtan’s shoulder, her eyes fixed on the stars above. Namtan reached out to tuck a loose strand of Film’s hair behind her ear, the action so natural now. It felt like they had been doing this for years, even though it had only been a few months since they started rebuilding their love.
"You know," Namtan said softly, her voice filled with a quiet wonder, "I never thought I’d be here. With you. Doing this. And yet… I can’t imagine my life without you now."
Film’s heart fluttered, and she turned her face slightly to look at Namtan, her eyes soft. "I’m glad you’re here," Film said, her voice a whisper in the night. "I’m glad I’m here with you."
Namtan smiled, pressing a soft kiss to the top of Film’s head, then resting her cheek against Film’s hair. "I’m not going anywhere, Film. I swear. We’ll build this, piece by piece, no matter how long it takes."

…

Months passed, and the seasons changed, but the one constant was that Namtan and Film were always there for each other. They continued to build, slowly but steadily, their love growing deeper with every shared laugh, every tender touch, every quiet moment they spent together.
One evening, as they sat together on the couch, Namtan wrapped her arms around Film, holding her close as they watched the city lights flicker outside the window. Film rested her head against Namtan’s chest, her heart beating in time with Namtan’s.
"This is it, huh?" Film said, her voice soft, like she was testing the words out.
"This is it," Namtan agreed, her arms tightening around Film. "Just you and me. Forever. As long as we’re together, that’s all that matters."
Film smiled against Namtan’s chest, feeling the peace that had eluded her for so long settle in her heart. She didn’t need anything else. She had Namtan. She had this love, this future they were building together.
And that was enough.

Epilogue: A New Beginning
Years passed, and their love continued to grow. They graduated together, started careers side by side, and eventually moved into a little apartment, one with a balcony that overlooked the same city they had spent so many days dreaming about.
Every day, Namtan would hold Film’s hand and remind her of what they had built together — a life full of love, trust, and unwavering commitment.
And every day, Film would smile, knowing that she had found a love that wasn’t just about the thrill of the chase, but about something much deeper — a love that was patient, kind, and willing to fight for them, no matter what.
Together, they had built something beautiful.
A future.
And it was just the beginning.

The End