My Main Tolkien Ficverse

Series Metadata

Listing Series

• A Wanderer's Nature by ceurandil

  Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien  

  • Mature
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • F/M, Other
  • Complete Work

  17 Mar 2025

  Tags

  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Fingon/Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Maglor/Maglor's Wife (Tolkien)
  • Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Maglor (Tolkien)
  • Maglor's Wife (Tolkien)
  • Nonbinary Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Nonbinary Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Post-Rescue from Thangorodrim
  • Mentioned Morgoth Bauglir | Melkor
  • Angst
  • Hurt/Comfort
  • Hopeful Ending
  • Past Targeted Violence
  • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
  • including but not limited to multiple corrective rapes
  • Past Forced Detransition
  • Maedhros has certain brands that are very specifically in the realm of _targeted_ violence
  • because Morgoth used his transness against him
  • there are no graphic details but Maedhros has a nervous breakdown for a reason
  • also he refuses to eat
  • Gender Dysphoria
  • Body Dysphoria
  • Victim Blaming
  • (Internalised)
  • depersonalisation
  • Maedhros is transmasc so it may seem like he's a man but he's actually agender
  • Customs Among the Trans Eldar
  • a brief mention of Maedhros trying to starve himself in Angband and being force-fed

  Summary

  Findécano was just about to finish redoing their braids, today in a more masculine style, when they heard loud knocking and the voice of Itasanë. Their friend – and Macalaurë’s wife – sounded uncharacteristically frantic.

  “Finno, we need you. Maitimo does.”

  They immediately stood up and opened the door.

  “What happened!? Is he hurt!?”

  “No more than before. Yet."

  Series

  • Part 1 of My Main Tolkien Ficverse

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,566

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  89

  Bookmarks:

  2

  Hits:

  493

• Their Love by ceurandil

  Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien  

  • Mature
  • Major Character Death, Rape/Non-Con
  • Other
  • Complete Work

  23 Mar 2025

  Tags

  • Major Character Death
  • Rape/Non-Con
  • Fingon/Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Fëanor & Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Fëanor & Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Fëanor & Fingon & Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Fëanor (Tolkien)
  • Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Vairë the Weaver (Tolkien)
  • Nienna (Tolkien)
  • Curufin (Tolkien)
  • Morgoth Bauglir | Melkor
  • Angst with a Happy Ending
  • Nonbinary Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Nonbinary Fingon (Tolkien)
  • it starts as a tapestry watching fic but the story goes further
  • Halls of Mandos (Tolkien)
  • POV Fëanor (Tolkien)
  • Psychological Torture
  • Maedhros in Angband (Tolkien)
  • Non-Consensual Public Nudity
  • Targeted Violence
  • the rape is technically implied but it's basically obvious what happened
  • Thangorodrim
  • Maedhros's Rescue From Thangorodrim (Tolkien)
  • Implied/Referenced Suicide
  • Quenya Names
  • because they're speaking Quenya
  • Fëanorian Week 2025
  • POV Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • But mostly Fëanor
  • Fëanor is generally a good father but he makes mistakes
  • Vairë is well-intentioned but horrible
  • the "psychological torture" tag refers to her
  • the author doesn't support her actions

  Summary

  Observing Maedhros and Fingon in Beleriand, Fëanor begins to rethink the way he looked at his son's relationship.

  ***

  I wrote this fic for the Fëanorian Week Day One (dedicated to Maedhros). It explores Maedhros' relationship with his father - in the context of Russingon.

  Series

  • Part 2 of My Main Tolkien Ficverse

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  918

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  8

  Kudos:

  104

  Bookmarks:

  4

  Hits:

  662

• Reward by ceurandil

  Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien  

  • Mature
  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
  • Other
  • Complete Work

  08 Aug 2025

  Tags

  • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
  • Major Character Death
  • Fingon/Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Fingon & Laerion | Lairion (Fingon's Squire OC)
  • Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Gothmog | Lord of Balrogs (Tolkien)
  • Fingon's Guards
  • Silfanya (Tolkien OC)
  • Laerion | Lairion (Fingon's Squire OC)
  • Nirnaeth Arnoediad
  • Nonbinary Fingon (Tolkien)
  • POV Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Nonbinary Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Implied/Referenced Torture
  • Fingon almost gets captured
  • Suicidal Thoughts
  • Poor Fingon (Tolkien)
  • Angst
  • Hurt No Comfort
  • Mentioned Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
  • which didn’t and will not happen to Fingon
  • Threats of unspecified targeted violence that happened to Maedhros before
  • Painful Death
  • They/Them Pronouns for Fingon
  • those elves with pronouns and blue banners
  • Misgendering
  • Quenya Names (Tolkien)
  • Adolescent Death
  • deadnaming

  Summary

  People made them into a symbol, but they were just a person, a tired person angry at the world they still refused to give up on. How could they? There was still too much to love, too much to fight for.

  Fingon's last battle.

  Series

  • Part 3 of My Main Tolkien Ficverse

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  2,321

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  4

  Kudos:

  51

  Hits:

  173

• Mother's Blessing (Revised) by ceurandil for ulmondil

  Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien  

  • General Audiences
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Gen
  • Complete Work

  14 Aug 2025

  Tags

  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Maedhros & Nerdanel (Tolkien)
  • Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Nerdanel (Tolkien)
  • Nonbinary Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Good Parent Nerdanel (Tolkien)
  • Fëanor invented squish pouches for his neurodivergent children
  • Customs Among the Trans Eldar
  • Fluff
  • Comfort No Hurt
  • Family Fluff
  • beta read hopefully this time we don’t die
  • Mentioned Fëanor (Tolkien)
  • Young Adult Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • mentioned gender dysphoria if you squint but Maedhros is fine I promise

  Summary

  Young Maedhros talks to his mom about changing the name she gave him.
  ...

  This started as a rather flat Double Drabble I ended up recycling as a draft to properly develop and edit.

  Series

  • Part 4 of My Main Tolkien Ficverse

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  361

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Collections:

  1

  Comments:

  6

  Kudos:

  73

  Bookmarks:

  2

  Hits:

  242

• Pretending by ceurandil

  Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien  

  • Mature
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Other
  • Complete Work

  02 Sep 2025

  Tags

  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Maedhros/Morgoth Bauglir | Melkor
  • Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Morgoth Bauglir | Melkor
  • Sauron (Tolkien)
  • Nonbinary Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Hurt No Comfort
  • Forced Detransition
  • Targeted Violence
  • Public Humiliation
  • deadnaming
  • Misgendering
  • background russingon
  • it's referred to but they're separated
  • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
  • including but not limited to multiple corrective rapes
  • internalised victim blaming
  • Threats of Violence
  • Sexual Harassment
  • Maedhros doesn't get raped here but it happens regularly
  • Flashbacks
  • including one of a rape aftermath
  • Torture
  • Weaponised Transphobia
  • Transphobia
  • Emotional/Psychological Abuse
  • Referenced Branding
  • Possessive Behavior
  • Implied/Referenced Enforced Nudity
  • Maedhros in Angband (Tolkien)
  • Fictional Slurs
  • Quenya Names (Tolkien)
  • Quenya (Tolkien)
  • Gender Dysphoria
  • at one point Morgoth's behaviour may or may not be interpreted as threatening Mae with rape
  • Passive Suicidal Ideations

  Summary

  Maitimo just had to remember he's pretending. It shouldn't hurt that much. It did, but if he remembers he's lying, if he doesn't forget who he is, he will remain himself. And it will still hurt, but less than all of this endless torment… right?

  Series

  • Part 5 of My Main Tolkien Ficverse

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  1,209

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  6

  Kudos:

  79

  Bookmarks:

  2

  Hits:

  334

• And There Was No Escape by ceurandil

  Fandoms: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien  

  • Mature
  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Other
  • Complete Work

  20 Dec 2025

  Tags

  • No Archive Warnings Apply
  • Maedhros/Morgoth Bauglir | Melkor
  • Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • Morgoth Bauglir | Melkor
  • Double Drabble
  • Maedhros in Angband (Tolkien)
  • Suicide Attempt
  • Rape Aftermath
  • Misgendering
  • Angst
  • Hurt No Comfort
  • Nonbinary Maedhros (Tolkien)
  • it's not the focus here but when he's misgendered at one point that's why
  • author does not advocate suicide
  • Maedhros is desperate to kill himself because of his situation
  • also Maedhros' abuse by Morgoth is by no means exclusively sexual but it's heavily implied he's raped frequently

  Summary

  Maedhros tries to escape, the only way he can.

  Or: how he ended up on Thangorodrim.

  Series

  • Part 6 of My Main Tolkien Ficverse

  Language:

  English

  Words:

  200

  Chapters:

  1/1

  Comments:

  2

  Kudos:

  40

  Hits:

  172