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    “Don’t–” Ilya starts, already reaching, already cupping Shane’s face between both hands, thumbs warm and tender against his cheekbones like they’ve always belonged there.

    Shane’s eyes are big and gorgeous and genuinely curious. “Don’t what?”

    Don’t make me look like a lovesick idiot. Don’t make my heart trip over itself for a way out of my chest and into yours. Don’t say it like that—so fucking sincere—like you don’t know how devastating it is for me.

    “Don’t butcher my language,” he says instead and kisses Shane’s smile hard, like reflex, like gravity, like there was never going to be another option.

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    Shane sets out to learn Russian. Ilya discovers he's incapable of keeping his composure.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Harris
    @Cliff @Hayden I know I’m not a hockey player but can I join the ‘Rozanov & Hollander are going to make me quit my job’ group??

    Cliff
    Hahahah

    Hayden
    What did Rozanov do this time?

    Cliff
    Hey!

    Cliff
    How do you know it was Roz’s fault!

    Hayden
    Be serious right now.

     

    (snippets from the centaurs group chat & the extended support group chat which has hayden & cliff leading the cens through how to survive married hollanov)

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Hayden
    I just called Shane. Pretty sure Roz was giving him head on the other side. Just a warning for you.

    Cliff
    Ha!

    Hayden
    My suffering is not funny.

    Cliff
    Thanks for the heads up

    Cliff
    Get it?

    Hayden
    I'm blocking you

    (cliff & hayden's guide to surviving hollanov)

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Roz
    We are good looking and married and in love, is normal to be sexually active

    Hazy
    I’m sorry but no. There’s sexually active and there’s YOU TWO

    Shane
    @Hazy I’m confused. We only have sex everyday?

    Shane
    That’s not that much, is it?

    Dykstra
    I can’t tell if you’re joking or not????

    Shane
    How often is normal?

    Roz
    Shut up

    Roz
    Everyone is banned from speaking

    Roz
    No more talking

    (overly touchy hollanov get an intervention)

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    22 Feb 2026

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    4 times Shane was strict with Ilya and the 1 time he wasn't ft Ilya having an emotional crisis over it.

    OR: inspired by the tweet: ilya actually love having a strict boyfriend. like no his bitch do not let him have friends NO he not allowed to be out past 11 and NO U CANNOT SIT HERE!!!

    Translation in Russian available, here and here.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    Shane meets Connor Storrie, and Ilya spirals hard about it, via the 5 stages of grief.

    OR: inspired by these tweets (1, 2) from @saltedsan: what about a fic where Shane or Ilya spirals so hard that they fear the other one will want divorce because sometimes insecurity lands too much and stress and anxiety and depression-

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Shane’s whining beneath him, head thrown back, exposing the long column of his neck and rutting up against Ilya. Ilya licks up his throat, nibbling at Shane’s jaw, before his lips brush the shell of Shane’s ear.

    “Tell me what you want.”

    The reply is instant.

    “You.”

    ----

    or: after his drunken confession, shane keeps avoiding ilya. at a student party ilya finally gets the chance to speak to him.
    part 2 to Close to Me

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    21 Feb 2026

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    He needs to move, maybe get Rozanov’s attention before he loses his nerves.

    And then the room tilts. His vision narrows, red light smearing into pink and white streaks. Shane staggers. The beer slips from his fingers. It shatters, foam splashing his shoes, glass skittering away. His knees give out like someone kicked him, and his hands shoot forward to hold himself upright.

    His left palm lands in broken glass, though he doesn't feel it. What he notices is the certainty that everyone sees, that they can smell him—something sour and wrong. His scent, despite patches and care, has turned exposed.

    OR: What if we took the club scene from episode 4 and had Shane collapse from experiencing Omega Rejection Syndrome after seeing Ilya dancing with someone else?

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    20 Feb 2026

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    “Don’t go,” Ilya manages to choke out, burying his face under Shane’s chin and squeezing his eyes shut. He inhales sharply, pressing his nose deeper into Shane’s throat to breathe in his scent. Right now, it’s Ilya’s body soap, vanilla and spice, masked under salt and skin. He inhales it like it's his own personal supply of air, what he needs to extinguish the burning in his lungs.

    “Ilya,” Shane says, voice urgent, “you’re shaking, I—your breathing’s too fast—” He tries to pull back, needs to see Ilya’s face, needs to see what’s wrong, but Ilya just shakes his head and clings tighter.

    “Please don’t go, Shane,” Ilya whispers, pleading. I’m sorry, please don’t go, don’t go—  

    OR: ilya and shane accidentally recreate the tuna-melt day, and ilya realizes just how much old wounds hurt.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.

    Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”

    “Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.

    Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.

    He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.

    OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Once outside, he leaned forward and put his hand against the cold stone wall. His phone was still to his ear, the message still recording. 

    “Ilya. Please. Please. I can’t do this. I don’t know what to do. Please. You can’t be dead.” His voice broke on the word. “I love you. I love you so much. More than anything. I need to hear your voice. I need you to…I need you…I need you…fuck. Please Ilya, please.” 

    Shane took the phone away from his ear and held it between both hands as though he were praying. He realized he was on the floor and didn’t know how he got there. He was crying. He was fairly certain he was hyperventilating. 

    His brain was desperately trying to grab at anything. Any thread of logic. Any idea of what to do next. 

    I have to see him. 

    Yes. That made sense. Shane needed to get to Tampa. Now. He would go there. He would find Ilya. Ilya would be fine. They would be together. He would see him. Tell him how much he loved him. He had to go. He had to go now. 

    ***

    OR: What if Ilya lost his phone during the emergency landing, Shane couldn't reach him, he panicked, and chartered a plane to Tampa to find him instead...

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    20 Feb 2026

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    feelingshanetastic
    not hollander yelling at rozanov LMFAO someone get roz out of there
             IlyaRozanov81
             do not get me out of anywhere, i like it here.
             feelingshanetastic
             HELLO??

    thathollanovfan
    Why is no one talking about how comfortable Ilya’s thighs look OMG, @ShaneHollanderHockeyPlayer wanna share?
             ShaneHollanderHockeyPlayer
             No.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    Shane is aware that he is an absolute mess, with hands trembling and shoulders shaking. His breaths are coming in short bursts, quicker than he is able to control them.

    The confession sits like an elephant between them, and yet, Ilya hasn’t moved, tracing soothing circles between Shane’s shoulder blades.

    “Sweetheart.” His husband’s voice is steady, soothing. “You need to breathe for me, okay? This isn’t good for you.”

    OR, after a night out with J.J. and Hayden, Shane wakes up, certain that he has cheated on Ilya. (Spoiler alert: he hasn’t)

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are roommates, best friends and both pining for each other. When Ilya finds out about Shane's oral fixation, he wants to help.

    Or, Shane has a dildo, but doesn’t use it for its intended purposes.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    When he was seven years old, Shane Hollander was briefly lost at an airport. Luckily, the kindness of a stranger ensured he made it back to his parents safely, putting an end to a terrifying three hours for the Hollanders. It takes twenty years (and one heated rivalry) for Shane to learn the name of his rescuer. It takes twenty years for Ilya to learn his wish had already come true.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    "Whatever. Just don't let yourself get distracted just to get your dick wet, Hollander." Cormeau sneered.

    Roz interrupted him. "It has been seven years and it has not distracted us yet. I do not know if you remember this, or maybe your brain is all fucked up from all the hits you take, but me and Hollander are captains and we have both gotten our teams to Cups. So mind your fucking business."

    Cliff sucked in a breath.

    Surely that wasn't true. It couldn't be true.

    7 years.

    That would mean it had been going on this entire time. The entire of Roz's career. The entire of Hollander's career.

    7 years.

    What the fuck.

    (flipping my fic love and other drugs on it's head. ilya gets hurt and is high when shane goes to visit)

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Pike handed over the phone, unlocked. Cliff got his phone out and pulled up Ilya’s contact alongside ‘Lily’s’.

    Holy. Fucking. Shit.

    He was a fucking genius.

    “Holy shit, I was right!” Cliff leapt up from the seat. “Jane is Shane and Lily is Ilya! Holy fuck, I’m a fuckin’ genius. Just call me Poirot, motherfucker!”

    (cliff visits shane in hospital. him and hayden get chatting about lily and jane. cliff puts the pieces together)

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    18 Feb 2026

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    “ Okay!” St-Simon interrupted loudly. “Can we please go five fucking minutes without hearing about your fucking dick?”

    “You have a third message from: Jane. Gonna ride you so hard tonight.”

    “Holy fuck!” Connors laughed. “This fuckin girl! No wonder she locked down Roz!”

    St-Simon groaned. ”I just asked for five fucking minutes, man!” St-Simon whined. “Five!”

    (for years cliff marlow deals with jane. one unfortunate bluetooth connection reveals more)

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    18 Feb 2026

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    A little frantic, she grabbed a knife off the chopping block. Yes, she was aware this was a somewhat dramatic reaction to what she was sure was just her son cancelling his plans, but she wasn't going to find out empty handed like a fool from some budget slasher movie.

    She yanked open the door to find… Ilya Rozanov?

    He was naked.

    She screamed.

    “Ah!” Rozanov screamed back, grabbing a pillow from the bed and holding it to his crotch. “Blyat!”

    Ilya Rozanov was in Shane’s bedroom. In Shane's apartment. Naked. Wearing nothing. Naked.

    “Err-“ Rozanov broke the silence.

    “Erm-” Yuna repeated, suddenly feeling flustered.

    Burglars she could handle. Ilya Rozanov naked? Not so much.

    (yuna goes to shane's apartment and gets the shock of her life)

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    18 Feb 2026

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