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“Can you say that again?” Yeonjun asks, not sure if he heard Beomgyu properly. That doesn’t deter the other at all, repeating himself with the same level of confidence.
“I said, I want you to fuck me, but I want you to still be soft when we start,” Beomgyu states. Yeah, Yeonjun can’t not be shocked by this one.
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Yeonjun will do anything Beomgyu asks of him… and Beomgyu takes full advantage of this.
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02 Mar 2026
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this, the tale of reckless love by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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He wasn’t ready for this.
Maybe he never would have been, not in two, or five, or ten years. Maybe he would have spent the rest of his life holding this secret inside, not telling a single soul about the way his heart beats for his biggest rival. Or maybe, in a year or ten or once he’s retired, he might have come out publicly. Might have shared his truth with the world.
But that was supposed to be his choice. To tell or not to tell, to hide in the shade or step out into the sunshine. It was supposed to be his decision, and now it’s been taken from him.
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11 Feb 2026
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This was lovely. I love how well they were written. 🩵🫶🏻
“Rozanov, don’t touch-” he hears someone, maybe Hayden, begin to say.
Ilya doesn’t listen.
He crashes into Shane, his arms wrapping around him so tightly that it makes Shane’s bones creak.
And Shane…he finally lets go.
His knees buckle as a quiet sob bursts out of his chest, but Ilya doesn’t let him fall. He keeps both of them standing, taking almost all of Shane’s weight as he holds him to his chest. Shane just about manages to lift his arms and curl them around Ilya’s waist, clinging onto him like Ilya is the only thing keeping him tethered to reality.
He buries his face in Ilya’s neck, sucks in a desperate, gasping breath, and murmurs, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m so sorry.”
“No,” Ilya says, immediately silencing Shane’s rambling. “No sorries. Not from you. You did nothing wrong.”
“I shouldn’t have kissed you. I didn’t see anyone, I swear, but I still shouldn’t have-“
“Shane, sweetheart, please. You are my breaking my heart,” Ilya whispers.
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if i could be under your skin (closer than we've ever been) by petitepeach
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Feb 2026
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This is the real, honest truth of it: Shane has spent years navigating his own personal rules about touch, putting up barriers out of necessity, only for Ilya Rozanov to knock them down with ease. No one has ever touched Shane like he has. Shane has never wanted anyone to. But Ilya Rozanov—Shane wants him, in a way that’s new and terrifying. They’ve been as close as two people can possibly be, and still Shane wants more.
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28 Feb 2026
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“And I missed you. So much.”
He takes another step forward. This time, Ilya doesn’t move back. His lips are moving slowly, soundlessly. His face is pale. He looks like he’s just had the check of his life into the boards.
“I’m sorry, too, for running away last time. I was really scared of what was happening between us. I’m still scared, actually, but more than that, I—”
“Shane—” The sound of his own name on Ilya’s tongue is so, so sweet, but Shane barrels on. He has to get all of this out, he has to.
“Ilya. I want us to be something. I want you. Whatever you’re willing to give me. And, I mean, I get if you don’t want that, if you don’t want me, but I just…I needed to tell you. I can’t pretend that I don’t have feelings for you. Not anymore.” Shane tastes saltwater and he frowns. When did he start crying?
Rough fingers come up to his cheek, wiping away his tears with a gentle touch.
Shane gasps.
Ilya is staring at his own hand as if he can’t believe what it’s doing. There’s an anguished pinch between his eyebrows, a tremble to his fingertips.
“Sweetheart,” he whispers, and it sounds like thank god.
Shane leaps at him.
Ilya stumbles back a step, surprised, but he catches Shane around his waist, pressing him close to Ilya’s body. The firm, warm plane of his chest pressed against Shane’s feels so fucking good it might make him cry again.
He is still crying, actually. Sobbing big, hot tears, smearing them all over the collar Ilya’s hoodie.
“Shane,” Ilya says wetly. He pulls away, smoothing a hand over Shane’s hair, wiping away more tears. His eyes are glistening in the low light of Shane’s entryway. “Fuck, I missed you so much.”
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Within Your Reach by Water_Nix
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Feb 2026
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Shane’s hearing is muffled, sound bubbling in and out like he’s swimming through the lake, dipping under the surface and back into the air. He can make out a word here and there, enough to know that Rozanov is trying to get him to breathe with him. He can feel the expansion of Rozanov’s lungs against his hands as he takes deep breaths in and lets them out. Shane tries to copy him, he does, but every inhale carries the scent of him, his cologne, his skin, his hair products. The scents are so familiar to him, and he wants more than anything for them to calm him, make him feel safe, but they are doing the opposite. Why are they still so familiar to him after not being anywhere near Rozanov for half a year? Why does he still want to shove his face against Rozanov’s throat and suck in every last last hint he can get?
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Ilya takes longer to arrive in the bathroom after they present the award together, leaving Shane time to sink into a full-blown panic attack. This leads to a very different night in Vegas and an earlier beginning to Shane and Ilya’s relationship.
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27 Feb 2026
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Shane shrugs again. “Once or twice. Not for a long time.” The last time he can remember having a panic attack that bad he’d been fourteen and playing in Kingston.
Rozanov’s breaths sound ragged. “Is there not medication? If it is so bad?”
“Yeah,” Shane admits quietly. “Team doctor wouldn’t clear it. Said it might slow me down.”
Rozanov’s hand drops, Shane’s hiding place along with it. His eyes are wide, his mouth snarling. Feral. “What the fuck? They do not care about you?”
Shane huffs. “They care about what I can give them—hockey. Wins. That’s how it goes, right? Everybody wants something. Points, trophies, my heritage to tick some inclusivity box, photos of me in my fucking underwear for their ad campaign… sex.”
“Hollan—”
Shane shrugs him off and turns toward the mirror. He looks awful, but not as bad as he thought he would. He pinches the remaining tears off his eyelashes and wipes the back of his hand over his mouth. “You should go out. I’ll follow you in a minute.”
He can see Rozanov’s reflection shake his head. “You will go. I follow. I want to be sure you are—”
Right. Because Shane can’t be trusted not to freak the fuck out in a public washroom and maybe pass out on the floor.
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Your Soul Dances In Mine by ItsMayBiTheWay
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Feb 2026
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At 12, Ilya Rozanov stands by his mother's bed, watching her die with their hands still intertwined. He watches as her soul leaves her body, promising to never leave him alone.
At 17, Ilya Rozanov stands outside the rink in Saskatchewan, watching a cute boy with freckles extend a hand out for his mother, their souls inevitably intertwined. He watches as he heads toward his parents's car, promising to meet with him after the tournament.
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A soulmate AU canon retelling with Irina's soul there, guiding them through life. (Updated weekly on Thursdays)
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26 Feb 2026
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Author will be smooched for their creative brain.🩷