12 Works by Klaerenn
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Color the world with the scent of hope and growth by Klaerenn for Kympossible
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
31 Jul 2024
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Buck coming from a line of hunters has never mattered. Sure, Eddie recognized the tattoo as soon as he met the man who all but puffed at him for a shift or two. However, with a team including a witch and a dokkaebi who seemed to consider his attitude more like a little brother acting out than any kind of threat, Eddie was never overly concerned.
The same way Eddie doesn’t bring up Buck’s family’s affiliation, Buck doesn’t ask why Eddie doesn’t change to help them find a victim buried under a mudslide, or severed fingers scattered around.
Well, he doesn't until Eddie fucks up his own life and Gerrard comes back to the 118. And, granted, confronting Gerrard on scene might not have been the wisest decision. Hen looked like she wanted to smack him on the head for his stunt while Chimney sighed, an expression usually reserved for when Buck is acting out animating his face.
But it’s not like it warrants Buck following him home after their shift. One that ended up with four hours of Eddie scrubbing the sanitary facilities of the station. All he wants is a shower, a way to scrub his nostrils clean and sleep. Not to be reminded of yet another blunder to add to the ever-growing list of things he did wrong.
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“You can come pick him up with me, you know?” Eddie murmurs, tracing the veins on Buck’s forearm with his finger.
“He doesn’t want me there.” And damned if even putting those words out in the air isn’t drilling a festering hole into Buck’s heart.
Eddie sighs, reluctantly moving away from Buck’s arms, to sit on the edge of the bed, his absence leaving Buck cold. “You can’t avoid each other forever.”
Buck rolls on his belly, drinking the sight of Eddie picking his boxers and shirt from the floor of Buck’s mezzanine like the man wasn’t coiled against him moments ago. “I’m not the one doing the avoiding,” he protests in something that sounds more like a whine than a solid argument.
Or Christopher's reaction to Eddie and Buck dating is not what Buck expected or hoped for and Eddie is definitely under-reacting.
(Can be read independently from the first installment)
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- Part 2 of Fifteen hundred reasons
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Eddie tries dating. It doesn’t go well.
Or, upon hearing that Buck got a girlfriend, Eddie’s poker playmates develop an unhealthy interest in his love life and take turns providing their help with mixed results.
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- Part 1 of Fifteen hundred reasons
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“I didn’t have my money on Eddie kissing you after you lovingly rearranged his shirt,” Chim remarks.
Neither did Buck. Then again, he didn't have his money on Eddie kissing him in the middle of the station at all. No matter how sleep-deprived the man was or how brutal the last few days have been on their nerves.
Or after Abuela gets injured, Buck is determined to help Eddie get through the week preceding his flight to El Paso and, in particular, through an intense shift that ends up hacking the last bits of distance separating them.
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Things are going great with Natalia. Have been for a few weeks. She’s only run away once, despite spending a decent number of evenings at his place. Hasn’t uttered any wish to travel around the globe, not even to visit an estranged father in a faraway prison. And she doesn’t appear too scared about Buck doing his job. No other past girlfriends encountered. All is well and nice…
No, ‘nice’ is not the word. Can’t be the word. Buck is living his life to the fullest. No middle ground. ‘Nice’ doesn’t cut it. Especially when Eddie seems to disappear each time Natalia’s name is mentioned.
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Or Buck still struggles to find the right couch despite no longer being single and Eddie doesn’t have the patience to pretend to be happy about Buck’s newest relationship.
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Eddie freaks out when Christopher wants him to meet his date and goes to Buck for advice, desperate not to replicate the mistakes his parents made with him when he was younger.
Christopher’s burgeoning relationship forces them both to adjust and sheds some light on the role Buck plays in both Eddie and his son’s lives.
But even with the Diazes acting as a buoy, Buck struggles to keep his head above water and to navigate the situation with Connor and Kameron as well as what he wants in life.
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At first, when Buck talks about his coma dream, Eddie takes part in the conversations, still euphoric about Buck coming back to them to consider what is said too closely. Buck is eager to talk about his dream, about the alternative versions of, well, everyone but Eddie.
By the end of the first week, Eddie can quote almost by heart Hen and Chim’s reactions to Buck, Bobby coming back to life to guide him, hearing Athena talking to him through the dream. Even Buck’s confrontation with himself. But of Eddie, nothing.
It’s a matter of reading Buck’s pauses and silences, his laughs and deflections, what is left unsaid rather than Buck’s words, rather than the anecdotes he has told to all other members of the 118.
Anecdotes Eddie is not a part of, because there was no Eddie in Buck’s world.
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“Please don’t go out with him.” It squeaks out, unassured, and Buck wishes he could seize the words out of the crisp night air and stash them away as soon as they leave his mouth.
Eddie stills for a second, then slowly blinks, stretching his jaw in a gesture too familiar not to make Buck’s stomach churn.
“With James? Is that why you played Ten-Pin with Ms. Penry’s plants?”
Buck gulps, doing his best to maintain eye contact as they stand on the porch, and lets Eddie study him for the second time of the evening. This round is more deliberate. Less an instinctual worry, and more calculated intent.
“Okay.”
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Instead of quietly accepting Eddie's decision to leave the 118, Buck decides to do everything he can to make him change his mind and come back, even if it means waiting at his door every other day of the week until he accepts.
Meanwhile, Eddie is frantically trying to hold on to the last bits of control he has over his life as his old coping mechanisms fail him. He's left to manage his son's needs and Buck's reaction and eventually has to wrestle with the fact that he can't keep it up forever.
As they both realize that healing takes time, Buck and Eddie have to learn to navigate their new normal and to deal with their lives apart and together.
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Margaret stares at her plate and stirs a few uneven carrots like she wants to put them aside for breaking the mold, making yet another plunge in whatever’s left of Eddie’s esteem. At this point, they’re aiming for the deep sea.
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Hearing the doorbell and finding Taylor Kelly at his doorstep is like a giant middle finger sent by the universe, if it's as sentient as Buck believes it to be, and an all-around unwelcome way to begin the week.
Eddie darts a glance at the doorknob, sorely tempted to just shut the door and hide his head in the sand for a little while longer. Unfortunately, he has to get to work in less than an hour. Her voice lashes out before he has time to make up his mind.
"I need to ask you something personal about Buck. Inside, if it's not too much to ask."
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Or, when Taylor Kelly comes knocking at Eddie's door to ask him for pointers on where to take Buck on dates, he decides to give in, in an effort to cheer Buck up. However, it soon becomes clear that Eddie is no Cyrano and that advising Taylor on her relationship with Buck is definitely not his forte.
Buck, on his end, is making liberal use of dubious analogies to get Eddie to talk about his feelings. -
Of Bobby's untimely advice, untold feelings and lagomorphs by Klaerenn
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
19 Sep 2021
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Buck suspects Eddie accepted Bobby's lunch invitation on both the Diaz' and Buck’s behalf to make sure he wouldn’t tag along to the hospital this time.
The man probably didn’t suspect the conversation of the day would turn out to be about his love life. A conversation spurred up by an innocent question on crushes voiced by Christopher. Of course, because Hen and Chim are there as well, it escalates quickly.
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"I might have given him a push when he hesitated to go after Ana, a few months back."
"A push?" Hen asks with a flat voice.
"I told Eddie that he shouldn't let his current reservations hold him back from forming a real relationship."
Hen scrunches her nose while Chimney grimaces.
"Come on, Bobby, that's a pretty harsh way to tell Eddie to stop pining and get over his crush on Buck."