afraidtobelieve
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The death of someone you truly love will always devastate you in inescapable ways.
[missing scene from “In the Wind”]
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“This can’t be happening.”
In the immediate aftermath of “Perverted,” Olivia still can’t seem to catch a break.
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She'd been okay, at first. Really.
[This story begins in the aftermath of "Undercover."]
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Every time she thinks she knows what to expect from him, he swerves.
[post-episode for The Five Hundredth]
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I don’t care about the government and I really need a hug by afraidtobelieve
Fandoms: Law & Order: SVU, Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021)
12 Sep 2023
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“When he looks back on his admittedly short life, Eli Stabler can’t help but feel… cheated.”
[The first in a two-part series that focuses on Eli and Noah, respectively, and the process of growing up.]
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- Part 1 of Boyhood/Manhood
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Boyhood/Manhood by afraidtobelieve
Fandom Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021), Law & Order: SVU
12 Sep 2023
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Ilya Rozanov does not come pre-installed with good communication or healthy coping skills. Is he going to seek out help on his own? Hell no! But when a family member kills himself, fellow Boston Raider and friend Cliff Marleau decides that Ilya is going to therapy come hell or high water. And Ilya... well, Ilya is just playing along to keep the peace. Right? He doesn't need therapy. But if it helps his friend be less worried, so be it.
OR: What if Ilya came into the tuna meltdown with slightly upgraded social skills and no one actually ran away before they had a conversation?
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Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
28 Feb 2026
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Team Players by fatowlsdotjpeg
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Feb 2026
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Luca Haas, in his second year with the Ottawa Centaurs, hits his stride. His game is great, his team is even better. Sure, he has one friend outside of hockey, but that's fine. And it's two friends if you count his cat. He has settled into life in a way he would have never thought possible. And then, lightening strikes. Of course, when that happens, his team takes it upon themselves to interfere. And between a roster of hockey players, an evil lesbian, and a badly behaved cat, Luca might find out just how much better things can get, even when they feel like they're already great. That is, if he survives the embarrassment of it all.
Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
26 Feb 2026
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Holding Patterns by boopboop
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
28 Feb 2026
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Shane and Ilya's peace is hard-won and devastatingly fragile. A phone call from Russia threatens to bring the whole house of cards down around them.
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- Part 2 of Duty of Care
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23 Feb 2026
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Lovers, or, English is a damn funny language by Basingstoke
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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Ilya asked Shane’s father while Shane and his mother were talking outside: “Is boyfriends correct? Lovers is incorrect, but I am not sure what is correct.”
“Well,” Mr. Hollander said. “‘Lovers’ is usually used for, hm, a mistress or an affair. Something kind of sordid. Though--you would say Romeo and Juliet is a play about two lovers,” he said. He paused his knife on the chopping board. “Somehow that’s right and using it for real people isn’t right. English is a damn funny language, Ilya."
“Yes,” Ilya said from the bottom of his heart.
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20 Feb 2026
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Say I couldn't want you less, but I just want you more by foulrescent
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Feb 2026
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He really didn’t know where his night was going when it started, but he knows it began with a girlfriend. He didn’t know if it would end with a girlfriend, because all he could think about was –
“Ilya Rozanov,” he says loudly, and proudly, when his call gets picked up but no one answers. He thinks he’s slurring, but he knows what he’s saying. “Are you still in Boston?”
The smoker’s area is full of people watching him. He turns quieter and whispers into the phone, “Ilyaaaa Rozanooooov.”
“What do you want, Hollander?”
(Shane is messy)
Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
18 Feb 2026