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    “What are you doing here?"

    He’s thankful his voice doesn’t shake, but he’s trembling. And he knows Ilya notices. Even all these years later, he’s sure he can still read Shane like a fucking book.

    Ilya’s smile softens and he points to the ice, where the player whose eyes had brought Shane back to Before lines up with the other boys.

    “My son."

    Ilya never goes to the cottage. Nearly two decades later, they meet again.

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    30 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    WOAHHHHHH WHAT THE FUCK kiss the brick before you chuck it yadda yadda

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    “I don’t want to smell that place again,” he says. “I don’t want to hear that language around me like that. I don’t want to be small again.”

    His chest tightens. His breathing gets shallow. He hates this part. The moment when the past stops being something he remembers and starts being something he feels.

    “I can’t,” he repeats. “I really can’t.”

    There’s a long pause. Then Ilya exhales shakily and adds, quieter now, almost breaking,

    “But I can’t leave her alone.”

    or;

    when ilya's niece loses her mother and reaches out to him in secret, he returns to russia with shane to get her out of an unsafe home.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    YES LADDDDDD GET INNNNNNN i would like a baby but also i love the concept of hollanov as parents. you rock twin

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    “No,” he says, smiling gently, like he doesn't know how irritating he's being. “Is my room first, da? You should speak with front desk.”

    Hollander stares at him.

    And then he starts to laugh.

    You ask the front desk,” he shoots back, in between his odd wheezes. Ilya's heart starts to pound in double time, because this is not—this cannot be Shane Hollander playing bed chicken with him. Their competitiveness is fierce, to be certain, but surely, Hollander would be the bigger person, no? “This is my fucking room, Rozanov. Wild horses couldn't drag me away.”

    OR: Ilya's apartment is under construction. Shane's in town for a game. It'd be a shame if they somehow had the same hotel room.

    [or, or: we need some more goddamn 'there was only one bed' out here.]

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    18 Jan 2026

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    love it when the author gets lost in the sauce. it’s a trait i also exude.

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    "Listen, Mr. Rozanov." The general manager is talking out of the side of his mouth, his cigarette dropping ashes all over the hotel table. "We like you. We want you. We understand you are putting yourself under a fair amount of risk here, meeting with us like this. I hope it's obvious that if you play for us, we will set you up for a good life in Canada."

    He pauses, looks Ilya in the eye. "But you have to understand, if you agree to this, you have to be prepared to leave with us right now."

    Red Army superstar Ilya Rozanov defects from the Soviet Union. A Cold War-era hockey AU

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    17 Jan 2026

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    rAHHHHHH so GOOD

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    It’s winter in Ottawa and Ilya has hunkered down in his big, empty mansion to weather a nasty flu. Then his phone buzzes.

    — Guardian™ Security Alert: Movement detected at front door
    — (1) Missed Call: Yuna Hollander

    Or: The Hollanders have a new son to take care of. Ilya has no idea what’s going on.

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    16 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    bar is set shockingly high (where the huzz at)