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    Dean keeps going back.

    When he arrives, it's always to blooming flowers and a windmill in the background, not too far from a brook, the sun painting the plains.

    He likes it there. He likes to stand in front of the makeshift urn and check that it's still where he put it, switching out the flowers when they wilt. He likes to listen to the sound of birds chirping, insects singing, the faint sound of water trickling in the distance. He likes to turn his face up and feel the sun on his skin, wondering if Cas would do the same if he were here, somehow knowing that he would.

    He likes to talk.

    There's never a response, but Dean feels the breeze rustle through his hair and watches the flowers bob when bees come to them and stares as the windmill keeps turning, turning, turning. And he imagines that Cas is replying—the windmill is the tilted head, the bobbing flowers are a gentle smile, the breeze is whatever words Dean wants to hear at the time.

    Sometimes, it's almost like he's there.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    “I think I want to build a house.”

    Cas looks up from his book, surprised: probably both that Dean spoke, and by the words that he said. “What about the bunker?”

    “Not enough windows.” Dean shifts, hospital gown crinkling. His jello cup sits half-eaten on the white tray in front of him. “Now that there’s no Devil or God or cosmic threat—I want windows.”

    Shutting his book, laying it on his lap, Cas asks, “Do you have a property in mind?”

    “Yeah.” Dean picks up the jello cup again, spooning the red, wobbly stuff into his mouth. “Yeah, I know a place."

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    Cas is human. Dean doesn't die on the rebar. Together, they rebuild.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Cas is back from the Empty and Dean is committed to righting every wrong between them, including what Dean considers just morally wrong, which means he's going to give Cas the only thing that he said would ever make him happy; Dean himself. Because Cas isn't super interested in a hostage situation, Dean gets unexpected push back and now he's in for an uphill climb in which he's trying to convince Cas he's in love with him all the while trying to convince himself that he's not.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    23 Jan 2026