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    “I’m sorry I’m not him,” Shane says, looking away.

    “Who?”

    “Future me. Whoever you fell in love with.” What’s unsaid hangs in the air: whoever fell in love with you. Because this Shane – 2010 Shane – doesn’t love him. Is amused by their daily lessons, comforted by his presence, even grateful. But love?

    “That’s the thing, Shane,” Ilya says. His eyes are shining. “You are, right now, exactly who I fell in love with.”

    In 2031, Shane wakes up in the hospital certain that it's 2010. Ilya is there to remind him of the two decades he's missed and the life they've built along the way.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    “You should’ve walked the fuck away.”

    Shane is embarrassed to admit that in this very moment, he is thinking of the same thing. As selfish as it may seem in this circumstance, he really did not want to die today. He can’t afford to get taken away when he was just getting started with his actual relationship with Ilya. He doesn’t want to imagine Ilya being with someone who is not him.

    He also really had to call Ilya back, because he fucking promised.

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    Shane is called a hero by almost everyone after getting hurt while intervening in an armed assault.

    There are only two things that keep Shane from sinking below the surface. One is the pain from his stab wounds, which he never lets fully heal.

    The other is Ilya.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    Modern Day AU: no cannon from the show will make an appearance in this story.

    Mike spends his free time working at Dustin's coffee shop, Level Up Latte. A visit to the tattoo parlor across the street, Stranger Inks, sets his life in an unexpected trajectory.

    This story will deal with mature themes including self mutilation, sexual identities, assault, and other mature situations. The tags and rating will change as content is uploaded. Please read tags and proceed at your own discretion.

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    Will bent over, adjusting his lamp so it illuminated the tattooed portion of skin. He looked at it for a moment before taking Mike gently by the wrist, startling him, and drew Mike’s arm closer to his face. Mike sat still, watching the other man examine the tattoo. He resisted the urge to jerk away when Will ran a finger lightly over the ink and clicked his tongue. Will moved his fingers from the tattoo to bare skin, pressing down on it, almost testing it. What was he looking for? Mike’s fingers twitched at the contact and he focused on watching the other man’s face.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    El and Dustin go on a date and El gets very protective when bullies show.

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    16 Jan 2026

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    It’s winter in Hawkins, and Mike and Will aren’t speaking anymore. Living in Mike’s house, Will tries to be invisible, spending most of his time in the basement.

    Then the power goes out — and if there’s one thing he dreads more than facing Mike, it’s the cold.

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    Seven nights in which Mike and Will have to sleep in the same bed, even though they’re barely friends anymore.

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    16 Jan 2026