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    Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.

    a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism

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    14 Feb 2026

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    Hockey is a rough sport. Everyone knows that. You go down, you get back up. That’s the game. When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane’s relationship first—and decide that instead of letting their captain move to fucking Ottawa, they’ll just kidnap his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Media: Here is the goodest most normal boy.
    Me: Oh so he’s a lil fucked up, got it. Here he is developing a bruise kink on top of everything else going on.

     

    Something’s different, just in general. Like wearing sunglasses, a filter of sorts over everything, but if Shane was in any way honest with himself, he’d know it was more like going without for the first time.

    He’s painfully aware of his body these days; how it looks, how it moves, how it responds to… stimuli. And it is responding, lately. His bruises, too: always just there, so used to them they’d barely registered anymore, but recently there’s been a sort of constant hum of them at the edge of his awareness. It’s a layer of input he really doesn’t need right now, busy as he is.

    But he’s been woken up. Restless. Needy.

    Late in bed, when all his chores are done, fingers travel up to his collarbone, where the newest acquisition is waiting for him.

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    23 Jan 2026

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    Shane claps Ilya on the shoulder, an unabashed grin splitting his face. “Don’t take it so hard, buddy, it’s only the pre-season,” he says easily, the same way he’d try to reassure a wide-eyed rookie, but tinged with playfulness.

    He expects a quip and maybe a shove from Ilya, but instead, Ilya’s expression loosens, surprise flickering in his eyes. He seems…far away, all of a sudden. But the sharpness returns in almost an instant, making Shane wonder if he’d imagined it. The expected shove comes, causing Shane’s grin to creep back.

    “I am not your buddy, Hollander,” says Ilya.

    In Shane’s teasing, he accidentally brushes against something that neither he nor Ilya can quite put words to.

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    21 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    15 Jan 2026