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  1. Public Bookmark 42

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    “You might just have dealt the final blow.”

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    For years, Shane and Ilya spent their nights in the shadows.

    Just stolen nights, longing stares, and almost-confessions.

    When Shane finally asks for more, Ilya walks away first. It’s safer that way. Kinder, even. Or so he tells himself.

    But hockey is a cruel sport, and hearts are even crueler.

    One hit on the ice forces every truth to the surface, and Ilya must face the possibility that the final blow wasn’t the breakup—it was never saying I love you when he still had time.

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    Currently a WIP.

    Timeline may not be canon.

    Title is from Taylor Swift's "You're Losing Me". Tags will be updated as chapters are published.

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Shane has never been religious. But he found himself praying, to something, to anything, to the wind that can anchor every wish he had for Ilya—to keep him safe, to keep him healthy, to make him happy again. 

    He thinks of Ilya’s cross on his necklace, and thinks of his Mom. 

    Is he going to meet her now? Will he get the chance to tell her how wonderful her son grew up to be? Will he be able to tell her that he tried to love him for the both of them the best way he knew how? 

    Or: what if it's Shane's plane that almost crashed?

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    02 Mar 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 4

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    Shane dies just before competing in the International Prospect Cup and is trapped in the living world, unable to move on. Naturally, he starts haunting his would-be rival.

    Ilya acts like he doesn't even appreciate being alive, despite dominating the MLH and fulfilling all of Shane's dreams, so Shane can't help but thwart Ilya's ever present death wish any chance he gets.

    Continually ripping open the veil between the life and death has consequences, and things get a little complicated when Ilya starts being able to touch him back.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    David Hollander never made it to the cottage, leaving Ilya and Shane to enjoy the summer exactly as they’d imagined, but fate has a crude way of ensuring that what is meant to happen will happen, no matter what.

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    01 Mar 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 35

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    Shane was about to go back to drying his hair when another huge crash came from downstairs, oddly sounding like glass. Shane felt himself flinch, heart kicking once in surprise.

    That was..odd. ''Anya?'' he called. Nothing and nobody answered him. Usually she barked back. Or whined, giving her best puppy eyes that would have Shane caving in in record time.

    Or
    That was not Anya

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    26 Feb 2026