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    5 times Shane's loved ones beg him to drop the smoking habit he's picked up + the 1 time he decides to say he will.

    AKA: Shane starts smoking in his desperation to remind himself of Ilya during their split. Everyone else worries about it-- Ilya included.

    1. Rose
    2. Hayden + Jackie
    3. Theriault
    4. News article
    5. His parents
    +1. Ilya <3

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    11 Mar 2026

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    The moment Ilya slips the wedding band onto Shane’s finger, it feels like the world goes quiet for the first time in his life.

    Peaceful in a way Shane has never known.

    They’re married. Husbands.

    And Shane is excited for all of the firsts that lie ahead of them as a married couple.
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    OR: A Bunch of "Firsts" from the First Year of Shane and Ilya's Marriage

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    10 Mar 2026

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    Still, he’s felt like absolute shit for weeks, and the idea of sitting in his hotel room, where he would probably masturbate, cry, and have another night of fitful sleep, did not make him feel any better. Getting to be skin to skin with Ilya Rozanov did. And surely Rozanov wouldn’t be demanding Shane make a nest in his damn bed if he didn’t fully intend on actually kissing him in it and keeping him there until morning, right?

    Maybe that would be enough to pick Shane up out of this drop, keep it from happening again.

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    After not sending the "we didn't kiss" text, Shane's omega hormones go into distress mode. Despite trying to hide his symptoms and play through the misery, when Ilya Rozanov finds out what's going on, the alpha Shane's body wants most is determined to fix it.

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    08 Mar 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 45

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    Shane didn’t miss the way his husband looked at him, concern filling his eyes and crowding every inch of his face. But he couldn’t explain to him what was going on, when he barely understood it himself. All he knew is that everything felt completely, intrusively, utterly wrong.

    Or; Shane Hollander has a sensory overload/autistic shutdown and his husband is there every step of the way

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    08 Mar 2026

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    “Did I do something wrong?” Shane asks, his voice cracking on the last word. He detests being vulnerable and asking for reassurance, even from people he’s comfortable with. And he would probably describe this situation as literally anything but comfortable.

    He bites his lip and hopes the blood he draws will distract him from the stinging in his eyes.

    “No, Hollander,” Rozanov answers. “It was not you.”

    “Okay, well, if it’s not me, will you at least look at me?” Shane snaps. “You don’t kiss me all night, except for that one time in that disgusting fucking bathroom, you don’t want to talk to me in bed, and now you won’t even look at me anymore. How am I supposed to think that that’s not about me? Do I really mean that fucking little to you?”

    Or: What if Shane actually sends the text in Vegas?

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    08 Mar 2026