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    “What did I,” his throat clicks, swallowing harshly around the tears that he has refused to allow and fall. “What did I do wrong?”

    Mortification feels like fingers wrapped tightly around his throat, tucking himself closely against the wall and too afraid to even look Rozanov in the eye. There’s a long beat of silence where Shane can practically feel his heart climb into his mouth, his chest aching with a relentless thud. 

    “Hollander.” He can’t read Rozanov’s tone even on his better days, quiet and short of breath. 

    Shane wishes that he could dissolve into the floorboards, eyes squeezed shut and a spike of shuddering cold working its way through him.

     

    Or, Shane drops hard and fast after their hook-up in Vegas. Ilya takes care of him.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Ilya loves being Shane's dog. He hopes he's good enough to earn it.

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    • Part 2 of Dog
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    14 Feb 2026

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    “Should call you the Ottawa Puppies,” says the Toronto centre, Svensson. As an insult it makes no sense, so Ilya ignores it, until he continues, “Hear Hollander keeps you on a short leash.”

    Ilya is the captain, so if anything, he should be holding the leash. In English, you can be singular or plural, but he knows what Svensson is trying to say. He is saying Ilya Rozanov, you are Hollander’s bitch.

    “Only sometimes,” Ilya replies, grinning. He wins the face off.

    OR: Ilya trains himself to be a very, very good guard dog for Shane.

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    • Part 1 of Dog
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    14 Feb 2026

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    “So you’ll do it then?” Shane asked, voice low. “You’ll behave for me?”

    It took Ilya a second to scramble for words, and Shane raised an eyebrow at him, waiting.

    “Da, yes. I will,” he vowed. “I’ll behave for you, Hollander.”

    And thus, Ilya Rozanov behaved (mostly).

    (Or: Ilya Rozanov needs to clean up his act if he and Shane are going to play the long game. Shane has some pretty good motivational tactics, and Ilya just wants to be his Good Dog.)

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    14 Feb 2026

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    When Ilya gets sick days before the Ottawa Centaurs face the Montreal Metros, Shane is forced to lay down some ground rules. The main one is: Absolutely No Touching! Kisses included!

    Ilya would rather die.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    We’re here at Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov’s house in Ottawa, asking them 73 questions before they get on with their day and head off to hockey practice. I was greeted at the door by their lovely dog Anya, and now we’re heading to the kitchen for breakfast.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky.

    Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Ilya turned slightly toward the reporter. “Shane won’t say this, but it’s true. When your captain is calm, you don’t panic. You just… follow him.”

    The reporter blinked. “You’re talking about Shane’s leadership?”

    Ilya’s smile was devastating. “Am talking about my husband.”

    The room sucked in a collective breath. Husband. Said as if they were discussing muffin recipes.

    On the internet: Breaking: Shane Hollander maintains perfect composure while his teammate professes eternal devotion live on air.

    Shane agrees to one post-game interview with Ilya. Ilya is determined to make sure everyone knows how brilliant, beautiful, and perfect his husband is.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Yuna Hollander… got his number from Hayden Pike? Two people he has rarely if ever spoken to, yet who are undeniably important to Shane. Two people who have absolutely no reason to have his phone number.

    His eyes scan back up and snag on that name. Lily.

    She thinks she’s talking to Lily.

    Ilya’s hands move before his brain. He doesn’t bother to worry about where she could’ve heard the name from, not when he knows Shane never talks to anyone about what they do. No one should know about Lily, but Mrs. Hollander somehow does. She is offering him some kind of information, and he doesn’t care what he has to do to get it—pretending to be Shane’s Boston hookup is nothing.

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    Ilya's POV of where nobody knows you

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    12 Feb 2026

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    His father would accuse him of being weak, of letting his heart lead him to stupid places. But for once in his life, Ilya can’t bring himself to care about this. He wants Shane. He wants to coax his boyfriend into ordering takeout from that place they like around the corner from Ilya’s apartment and cheating on his diet a little. Then he wants to blow him on the couch, and he wants Shane to ride him. They can shower afterwards and put some highlights on the TV before falling asleep and ignoring Shane’s alarm the next morning. He wants the peace they had at the cottage during the season, to steal those moments and get to exhale.

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    Inspired by this tweet by @paulasoldestson: ilya actually love having a strict boyfriend. like no his bitch do not let him have friends NO he not allowed to be out past 11 and NO U CANNOT SIT HERE!!!

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    12 Feb 2026

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    After a moment, Hayden pulls back. Then he hands her the phone—Shane’s phone.

    “I grabbed this when I was getting his stuff and I saw, well.”

    He looks away from Yuna, briefly glances at David, then looks away from him too. There’s an oddly guilty look on his face that has Yuna suspicious at once.

    “Um, has Shane told you guys about Lily?”

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    AKA, Yuna and David find out about Lily, Shane’s... girlfriend?, while he's in the hospital. It's a while before they find out about Ilya.

    Featuring:
    - high Shane
    - Ilya angst
    - theories about who Lily could be
    - Yuna & "Lily" texting
    - identity shenanigans

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    “Fuck, look at you,” Ilya breathes. “Ask me for it again.”

    “Hit me,” Shane says instantly, not a moment of hesitation.

    “Is your face not sore? You still want more?”

    “It’s sore,” Shane answers. “Please. I want more.”

    “Fuck,” Ilya hisses, and he extends his arm out, muscular and powerful, and he brings it down hard, harder than any of the previous smacks. This one makes Shane’s head reel, his entire upper half jolting in response to it. Ilya watches in concern and fascination, gauging his reaction.

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    Ilya's playful slap during the Hayden phone call scene awakens something in Shane.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    “Holy shit, dude,” Hayden whispers, too loudly, as he pulls Shane away. “No way you were just talking to Ilya Rozanov.”

    “Uh, yeah. We just met. Wait, did he lie to me?” Shane asks, looking back over his shoulder where Ilya is now standing next to a short but very muscular woman with long black hair. “What does he play?”

    Hayden stops, so Shane does too.

    “You don’t know who that was?” 

    Shane makes a face that says ‘no shit’, and waits for an answer. 

    “Dude. You are so innocent. Ilya Rozanov, ‘Russia’s Greatest Love Machine’?” Hayden says, like it’s obvious. 

    Shane looks at him blankly, and then Hayden laughs. Not like, a chuckle. He full on cackles, bending over like he can’t even contain it. “Man, he’s like prolific.”

    “At what?” Shane snaps, because he’s getting really sick of not being in on the joke. 

    “He’s a porn star, man.” 

    “A-” Shane says, swallowing thickly. “What?” 

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    Ilya is a porn star, Shane is a hockey player, and their paths cross.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Loving Shane Hollander had taught Ilya Rozanov how to slow down.

    They had a plan now. A life that made sense. Something quiet, stable, and boring. For once, Ilya believed peace might be something he could actually have, not just something he pretended not to want.

    Then Troy Barrett arrives from Toronto and starts looking at what Ilya has built like it’s something he might take. Like peace is something might need too.

    Ilya tells himself it’s nothing. A misunderstanding. He plays captain. He plays fair. He plays nice.

    But loathing has always come easier than love, and once everything starts to unravel, Ilya learns there are only so many times you can choose peace before you are forced to show how far you’ll go to keep Shane Hollander to yourself.

     

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    Troy Barrett wants Shane badly enough to burn with the ship. Ilya is determined to get rid of him before everything between him and his freckled love falls apart.

     

    (Ilya’s POV of the series of unfortunate events best called ‘Troy Barrett’)

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    05 Feb 2026

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    “Mic’ing us up? Did I hear that right?” Hunter questions.

    “Someone in PR thought it would be funny to hear the three of you during all of your games,” Coach LeClaire explains, “The idea got out and spread like wildfire.”

    “Huh,” Hunter responds.

    “It would be funny to hear me,” Ilya corrects, “I am funny. The other two are boring.”

    He hears Hollander huff out a laugh and bump shoulders with him as Hunter continues to ask questions. Casually glancing over to the other man, he sees a small smile playing at his lips. His eyes, though, there was a gleam that he hadn’t seen before. He wasn’t certain what it could mean, but it couldn’t be good for Ilya.

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    Or what if Shane had stayed with Ilya that night in Boston?

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    04 Feb 2026

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    When Ilya has a horrific accident on the ice, Shane snaps into action before his heart has even begin to piece together why.

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    The video JJ sent was just captioned oh shit. It jumped straight to a corner battle—Boston’d had a home game against the Nomads last night. Shane had only caught the score, exhausted after his own game, but now dread pooled in his stomach. What did oh shit mean? He could see Rozanov racing after a loose puck and then a Nomad defender came in from the side with a shoulder check. Rozanov caught an edge and pitched forward just as the defender caught Rozanov at the wrong angle, sending him head first into the boards.

    Shane made a high, frightened noise he’d never heard from himself before.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    Hoodies have always been Shane’s go-to clothing item when his brain is on overdrive and scrambling for safety. He even has a designated hoodie that regulates him better than the others. He can't really explain why it provides him with the sense of security it does, it just does, okay? When he wraps his arms around himself and fists his hands into the fabric, his mind slows and unknots itself.

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    Shane loves wearing Ilya's hoodie.

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    03 Feb 2026

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