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Despite their brightness and happy color, yellow carnations have a long history of being the method by which someone rejects the love of another — sending them a bouquet to wordlessly communicate their negative emotions.
Daffodils symbolise rebirth and new beginnings. It’s one of the first flowers to bloom at the end of winter, announcing the beginning of spring and signifying the end of the cold, dark days.
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“I don’t want to leave. I… I want to help, I said.”
And that’s when it hits him. Ezreal’s blushing cheeks, his sheepish look and awkward way of sitting on the edge of the bed. Ezreal knows.
He knows it’s a rut.
As if on instinct, in fear of being tempted and hurting the popstar, Kayn retreats again, further and further away until his back hits the bed’s headboard, his legs open and moving fast as he uses them to push himself away.
Kayn is too worried for Ezreal to notice the popstar’s eyes slowly looking down, following the scale-like pattern from his face to his neck, then a bit down his chest, until his human flesh is back again on his stomach, a trail of dark hair helping Ezreal’s eyes to find their way down… there.
“O-Oh.”, Ezreal coughs, his eyes unable to look anywhere else, “You… You have both… in this form..?”
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“Hm? What’s this?”, Kayn says out loud as he leans down to get the pillow that Ezreal threw, standing in front of Ezreal’s trash can.
Shit shit shit shit–
Ezreal jumps from his bed and runs to try and grab the box that Kayn now has a strong grip on. The rapper’s arm is way too high for Ezreal to take it away but he still tries and jumps around, until Kayn grabs ahold of him too by the waist, pushing Ezreal’s body against him to make him stop.
“G-Give it back!!”
“Why would I?”
“You weirdo– Looking at people’s trash– I said give it back it’s mine!!”
“Yours? But there’s my name on it.”, Kayn states, turning the box around, his arm still raised, “Look, here, it’s written. Is it chocolates?”, he teases with a smug smile, “For Valentine’s?”
Ezreal's prank ends up backfiring on him, leading to rushed confessions and sex. Yay!
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"Just for your info, I'm not wearing any underwear.", Ezreal sighs, closing his eyes and leaning into Kayn's neck.
No underwear.
"Why are you telling me this? I don't even get the surprise?", Kayn chuckles, trying to sound nonchalant but his heart starts pounding in his chest.
The close proximity with the popstar always does a number on him. It's uncomfortable in the best way to be able to feel his warmth and smell his shampoo.
"I'm telling you so depending on what you choose I'll be able to know if you're an idiot or a pervert."
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“General–”, he tries to call.
The palm spreads against his forehead, the skin cooling his fever. He sighs in a simple relief, the visions slowly fading away, leaving him in this silent and dark world of his. He opens his eyes.
Nothing changes.
The hand slides down his face in a caress, thumb pressing gently at each stop; his temples, the corner of his eyes, under his cheekbones, against his lips…
“Moze? Is that you?”, he whispers the question, unsure.
Silence answers. And the touch flees.
Jiaoqiu has nightmares, but Moze is here to take care of him.
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'Mydei?' Phainon mouths silently, cautious. Confused. The expression Mydei is wearing must be a severe one, because Phainon's concern remains even when Mydei pulls back Phainon's chair and makes to climb underneath his desk, kneeling on the ground, before drawing him back in by the hips.
He watches Phainon's cheeks color, his eyes widening and his pupils dilating. Phainon's soft lips part—opening and closing wordlessly a handful of times.
"Keep playing," Mydei instructs, voice low as he reaches for the waistband of Phainon's sweatpants and unceremoniously tugging them down. Not teasing. Not performing. "Don't stop."
Phainon helps Mydei destress the only way he knows how.
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- Part 2 of Streamer!Phainon x CEO!Mydei
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19 Feb 2026
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a dash of honey by katraa for starsneverlanding
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
27 Jan 2026
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“What is that?”
Oh. Oh no.
“What is what?” Kaveh asks, quickly. Far, far too quickly.
“That.” Alhaitham reaches forward, then. He grabs Kaveh’s chin and directs the other man’s gaze towards three hearts that have drifted off to Alhaitham’s right.
“O-oh,” Kaveh chokes out, torn between mortified and exceedingly overwhelmed. He has some explaining to do.
Kaveh temporarily suffers from a strange illness where hearts appear whenever his emotions are at a high. Lucky for him, those hearts seem to have a thing for Alhaitham. Go figure.
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31 Jan 2026
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When Aphelios accepted Sett's offer to join a band, neither of them could have predicted how profoundly their lives would change, how they would find true love in Heartsteel. But things that seem too good to be true often are. The deeper they fall in love, the more intently the world seems to want to pull them apart, and only time will tell if they can withstand the pressure, or whether they'll take Heartsteel down with them.
Illustrations by @lordmegi. Weekly updates every Friday!
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27 Jan 2026
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Mydei pays their bickering no mind. Instead, he turns to the rapidly approaching group of five and says, “My friends, I want you to meet them.”
Hephaestion. Perdikkas. Leonnius. Peucesta. Ptolemy.
Phainon greets them with a smile. Or tries to. He’s not sure it lands. He knows them. After all, he’s met them before, countless times actually—some rare cycles here and there where they didn’t meet their ends early.
They’re friendly if not wary. Pleasantries are exchanged, words of joyous occasion, but Phainon’s mind is elsewhere, off on a different plane of existence.
Because Mydei smells like them, and Phainon doesn’t like it.
Mydei returns from Castrum Kremnos smelling like foreign alpha. Phainon reacts.
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26 Jan 2026
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Something So Indecent For a Birthday by GalaxyOx
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
31 Oct 2025
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When his birthday comes, all Flins receives is absence of Varka, but a package arrives: a bizarrely crafted tech toy, molded precisely to the shape he knows too well, linked through the leyline.
Something so indecent for a birthday, it probably shouldn’t have worked as well as it did.
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09 Jan 2026