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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    14 Feb 2026

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    2nd & 3rd years. Sequel to Hold Me Like Water

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    I, Aysel Bardin, failed Threshing.

    It was almost two years ago now, but the jury’s still out on whether it was worth it.

    There was no choice but to do it twice. Politics. Death. Dragons. At least the second time I was joined by the children of the rebellion—marked and dangerous and getting deadlier by the second.

    Codex says you can’t kill your squadmate. I’ve already learned the hard way that our inviolable rule book doesn’t mean shit, so it doesn’t take a genius to know Codex wouldn’t take “falling for Xaden Riorson will ruin everything—including you” into consideration either.

    Unfortunately, knowing better has never quite managed to stop me.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    “Mic’ing us up? Did I hear that right?” Hunter questions.

    “Someone in PR thought it would be funny to hear the three of you during all of your games,” Coach LeClaire explains, “The idea got out and spread like wildfire.”

    “Huh,” Hunter responds.

    “It would be funny to hear me,” Ilya corrects, “I am funny. The other two are boring.”

    He hears Hollander huff out a laugh and bump shoulders with him as Hunter continues to ask questions. Casually glancing over to the other man, he sees a small smile playing at his lips. His eyes, though, there was a gleam that he hadn’t seen before. He wasn’t certain what it could mean, but it couldn’t be good for Ilya.

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    Or what if Shane had stayed with Ilya that night in Boston?

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    10 Feb 2026

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    What if after tuna melts, whispered names and the Rose of it all - in a post All Stars Game world - Shane thinks the world is finally starting to make sense again to him. Once the ground is firm under his feet - or so he thinks anyway - it's turns out to be less than stable? What if when Shane was getting his hook ups in Mexico and Hollywood - he wasn’t as unnoticed as he had originally thought?

    When Montreal shows it’s true colors sooner, a No Trade Clause is waived and Boston gets an opportunity to build a dynasty that rivals the one of their largest rivals up North.

    What if Shane and Ilya’s worlds are turned upside down and things with their over 8 year long situationship (now maybe relationship?) suddenly got more complicated and somehow simplified at the same time? Shane honestly thinks this is possibly the most ‘them’ resolution to a situation he has ever found. Ilya is just doing his best - he thinks. Maybe.

    Also, the Power Play in Boston is about to be the thing of nightmares, if a certain Russian can stop blocking Shane's damn shot…

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    10 Feb 2026

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    When more than half of the MLH gets stranded during a snow storm, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov find themselves not only roommates, but they get stuck with the one room that has only one bed. Who knows how long they'll have to deal with being stuck with one another, but at least their friends Hayden Pike and Cliff Marlow are also there, right? What could go wrong...?

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    09 Feb 2026

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    “I’m right here. And you are okay, and you are safe, and healthy, and you are at home, yes? It is quiet, and nobody is there, nobody is bothering you. And the world is full of stupid idiots, but you are not one of them. And I am here. When you need me, I am here.”

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    or: The whole world thinks Shane is gay because of some stupid internet rumors, and he doesn't even have to confirm it. He's losing control of his entire life and he needs somewhere to put what little he does have.

    Ilya has open hands.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    What if Shane and Ilya had much more explicit yearning and wanting at their first International Prospect Cup in Winter 2008 and at the draft in Summer 2009? What if this builds and builds to them hooking up for the first time at their second International Prospect Cup in winter 2009 instead of waiting until 6 months later at the CCM shoot? (They are both still 18+!!!) What if there's a blizzard and Shane and Ilya have to share a hotel room? What if they were super super soft lil love sick guys? What if they hook up again at the CCM shoot?

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    Canon-compliant-ish & slow burn-ish & yearning & WANTING & sorta realizing feelings very early on & being love sick lil sweet guys + Bed sharing trope makes me go feral.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    07 Feb 2026

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    This is ART POETRY A FUCKING MASTERPIECE

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    When the unsentimental financial imperative of the NHL sees Shane traded to the Boston Raiders, he and Ilya are thrown into closer extended proximity than ever before. As they adjust to life as teammates, they are forced to contend with the nature of their relationship -and must answer for themselves: is it even a relationship at all?
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    Sliding down the wall, Shane hunched over his untied sneakers, shoved on hastily when Coach had called him in for a meeting after morning skate.

    “Boston wanted you specifically. I’ve already spoken to their GM. You’re flying this evening or tomorrow morning: I’ll confirm once the paperwork clears.”

    “Mom,” Shane managed.

    “Oh sweetie. I know, okay. Those fuckers, how dare they do this! Two fucking cups! Now all of a sudden they decide they want a reset and you’re going to fund it.”

    Shane put his head between his knees and tried to breathe. God, Boston. They hated him there; it was so far away; he was fucking their captain.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    The Ottawa Centaurs go to a bar after a game. There happens to a be a mechanical bull, and everyone puts money on who can last the longest on it. Everyone underestimates just how experienced Shane is at riding.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    “Hey,” Shane said quickly, breathless. “It’s me.”

    “...Hello, Hollander.” Rozanov’s voice was deep and solemn.

    “Are you okay?”

    A short laugh echoed down the phone. “What do you think?”

    Shane cringed at himself. “Right, sorry. Stupid question.”

    “Is fine.” Rozanov sighed. “I am okay, I suppose… I do not know.”

    “I’m… I’m sorry.”

    “Why? You are not the one who sold story.”

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    The coach's son from Ilya's youth sells his story, and Ilya is left to pick up the pieces. Hollander helps more than he could have ever expected.

     

    set early 2016, pre-tuna melt

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    06 Feb 2026

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    04 Feb 2026

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    Barstool Sports Canada reports that Montreal Metros captain Shane Hollander has started learning Russian from new teammate and Russian rookie Sergei Dovonchezky.

    Ilya has some thoughts. None of them are particularly kind.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Someone’s posted a shaky video from the stands, just behind the whole altercation. It’s close enough to catch the snarl on Rozanov’s face as he charges up the steps. He’s so pretty, Shane thinks faintly. The video starts too late to show what set him off, but it catches the tail end of what the man is yelling, the things he's saying about Shane, before pivoting to calling Rozanov a cunt and bitch and a pussy instead.

    Rozanov drops his gloves for Shane. He wishes he could just be grateful, but it feels a little bit like the end of the world.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    "Ilya wanted all of it. He wanted Hollander to unleash it on him, then kiss him and order Ilya to fuck him. Ilya wanted Hollander to overwhelm him until he couldn’t think of anything else." - Las Vegas Remix, Rachel Reid

    Or: A Vegas Fix-it where Shane actually notices how bad Ilya's headspace is, gets his kisses, and takes care of them both.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    “Oh my god,” the intruder says, voice coming faster and higher-pitched. “Shane, what the fuck? Oh my god.”

    “Eeleeyah, come to my cottage,” Ilya mocks, voice muffled by Shane’s skin. “Don’t go to Russia. Come to my house instead. Is so private. No one will know…we will be completely alone. Together.”

    “Oh my god, is that Ilya Rozanov?” the intruder yelps like he's about to start hyperventilating. “Why is Ilya Rozanov half-naked in our kitchen, Shane?”

    “Okay, I know how this looks,” Shane tells Ilya, “But I mean, technically, we are still alone. Together.”

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    At the cottage, Shane and Ilya meet eighteen year old Shane Hollander. This is really only a surprise for one of them. Everyone handles it as well as can be expected.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    "He allowed himself one last moment of anger, and slammed his already broken stick into the edge of his cubby.

    And with that, Shane Hollander walked away from his hockey career."

     

    Halfway through his rookie season, Shane Hollander suffered a concussion that took him out of hockey. Three years later, he returns to hockey as an assistant coach. In Boston.

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    29 Jan 2026

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    “Why are you here?”

    “You see,” Rozanov drawls, “twenty-two years ago, my parents decide they fuck and –”

    “Ugh. Shut up.” Shane scowls. “No, I mean – why here?” why now? 

    The smirk slides off Rozanov’s face. “They want –” he swallows, bringing one arm up to drape over his eyes. “The team I play for. During lockout. They… disagree about rest of season. Tell me I stay.”

    “But they can’t do that!”

    Rozanov gives him a sardonic smirk.


    When Rozanov’s Russian team doesn’t want to let him return to the MLH after the 2012-13 lockout, Shane finds himself pulled into a harebrained scheme to make sure his rival is safe – and it might just work. Now he only has to navigate a secret pretend relationship while also facing the condensed MLH season. But needs must, right?

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    28 Jan 2026

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    25 Jan 2026

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    Lily: i am alive

    Lily: hurt

    Lily: but they gave me drugs it’s nice

    Lily: i want you

    Lily: my hands miss yours

    or; ilya gets injured on the ice. shane can't handle it.

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    23 Jan 2026

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