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    “You’re dying.” he whispered. It wasn’t a question. He knew in his gut that Ilya was dying. His body was giving up. And Shane would have to live with himself knowing the last words Ilya ever heard were him asking if Ilya would choose him over hockey.

    He moved to his forehead, kissing him lightly once, and finally down his lips, kissing him deeply for the last time. “Ya tebya lyublyu.” Then, in english, “Say hi to your mom for me.”

    Or the one where Ilya's plane crashed and Shane has to come to terms with the possibility of losing the love of his life.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Plane crash

  2. Public Bookmark 21

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    After the altercation between Shane and Ilya in Part 1, “Fragments of Us,” both men make choices that feel necessary in the moment and devastating in hindsight.
    A public incident becomes a private fracture. As fallout ripples through locker rooms, press offices, and empty spaces where certainty used to live, Shane and Ilya respond in opposite ways: one absorbing the damage, the other trying to contain it.
    Distance becomes policy. Silence becomes damage. And by the time Shane decides to stop waiting and start moving, it’s no longer clear whether what they’re fighting to preserve can survive the pressure.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    06 Feb 2026

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    Absolutely amazing fic

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    And Eddie asked him. Asked him if he was sure, assured him that he wasn’t imposing or putting him out or whatever other frankly incredible things Buck’s brain might’ve been telling him. He double triple quadruple checked if Buck was sure he wanted to move into a glorified sardine can, to which Buck responded, beggars can’t be choosers, I’m not exactly swimming in it, Eddie! And yeah. Fair. But there was just. There was no reason for him to leave so quickly, that’s all.

    Eddie hates this apartment.

    Buck moves out. Eddie tries to cope.

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    18 Nov 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 62

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    Buck taps the base of his glass with one finger. “Okay, ground rule addendum.”

    “This is a dangerous amount of structure for two people ordering potatoes,” Eddie says.

    “Shut up,” Buck says, affectionate. “Addendum: if we hit a grief pocket, we don’t pretend it’s not there, but we also don’t drown in it. Say ‘grief pocket’ out loud and we change the angle.”

    Eddie stares at him and then laughs, the kind that sneaks up and shakes something he didn’t know was a fist. “Grief pocket?”

    “Like hot pockets,” Buck says, too fast, the joke covering something fragile. “But sad.”

    “Do you hear yourself?”

    “Constantly,” Buck says. “It’s a nightmare.”

    OR Three years after Bobby's funeral, Eddie and Buck finally talk.

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    04 Nov 2025

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    Beautifully written