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  1. Public Bookmark 5

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    you can say it's just the way you are / make a new excuse, another stupid reason / good luck, babe

    It's been two years since Suguru has last seen his ex, Satoru, with whom he'd broken up over age differences and a pesky, ugly feeling he refuses to name. In order to drown it, he looks for his old lover in women he does not care about, over and over until he can't take it anymore. If Satoru is all Suguru can think about, he'll have to make sure the feeling is mutual. And what better way to do that than to break into his apartment and rape him?

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    06 Mar 2026

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    So Suguru’s moving to kiss him— big deal. His breath smells like alcohol, and Satoru should find it gross but he doesn’t. Suguru turns his chin just slowly enough for Satoru to change his mind, but all Satoru does it comply, letting Suguru’s hand guide him towards him with mischief in his eyes and a small smile, and it’s just not a big deal, they’re just fucking around: Satoru feels fully confident about the lightheartedness of this moment right up until the very second Suguru slots their lips together.

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    Or: One kiss is all it takes to make the dam crumble, to make Satoru ache for things he doesn't understand. All he craves is to keep taking pleasure from Suguru, and he can't seem to put together why Suguru's indulging him.

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    03 Mar 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 67

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    It was stupid. This was stupid. Dazai wasn’t even trying to make it look normal anymore—wasn’t bothering to pretend he was just lying there. His hips were moving in slow, helpless little thrusts, the kind that didn’t require any conscious decision-making at all. Just the friction. Just the pressure. Just the fact that Chuuya smelled like cedar shampoo and said things like “fucking amateur” with his teeth clenched and legs spread like that.

    or: chuuya is playing video games. dazai is grinding in the other sense. one kiss and he’s coming in his boxers. chuuya doesn’t know if he’s disgusted or hard. it’s probably both.

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    28 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 60

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    Chuuya scowled. “I mean, it’s not—what, did you think I’d just—show up with a teddy bear? We’re in the goddamn Mafia. We’ve got blood on our hands. We’ve got—”

    “Right,” Dazai said, nodding too fast. “No, Chuuya is right. It was silly of me.”

    Chuuya’s mouth opened. Closed. He looked furious at the universe.

    Dazai, very carefully, did not let his voice shake. “I’ll go.”

    “Dazai—”

    Dazai stepped back. His body felt far away. Like he was watching himself from the ceiling. Like he was moving through water.

    He had, somewhere in his coat pocket, a folded piece of paper—a card he’d made because the etiquette guide said cards were traditional and because the idea of giving Chuuya something felt like leaving a small, secret piece of himself somewhere safer than his own skin.

    He did not take it out.

    or: dazai reads the rules for valentine’s day and waits for chuuya to follow them. chuuya never knew that there were rules.
    time to fix the heart he accidentally broke.

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    27 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 29

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    At fifteen, Dazai Osamu decided that Valentine’s Day was a ritual.

    This was not because he believed in romance. Or sincerity. Or even holidays, really. It was because Valentine’s Day was selective, and Dazai had recently discovered that this year, for the first time, he qualified.

    Eligibility mattered.

    He did not immediately think of Chuuya. That came later. Inevitably.

    or: dazai tries to make a valentine’s day card. it detonates. chuuya keeps it anyway.

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    27 Feb 2026