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    The NHL gives Ilya Rozanov one final responsibility before retirement: choose a rookie, train him for a year, and prepare him to inherit everything Ilya built in Ottawa.

    Shane Hollander is twenty-one, gifted, unnervingly observant, and quietly obsessed with Ilya’s career down to the smallest detail.

    Ilya has spent his whole life protecting his privacy, his body, and his control. Shane makes him want to lose all three.

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    15 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 30

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    “It won’t stop,” Shane said to the floor. His hands slid down and grabbed at his crotch, rubbing frantically over his boxers. “I can’t make it stop.”

    They were still in the fucking hallway, and yes, it was six in the morning, but it was not private. Anyone could walk in, from their own apartments or the elevator. And Shane wasn’t exactly being quiet, gasping and groaning as he massaged himself. Viagra didn’t do this. It didn’t make you lose all sense of space, of boundaries, of . . . yourself.

    This wasn’t normal. This wasn’t natural.

    ***

    The morning after Ilya watches Shane and Rose together at the club, he gets a call from Shane. Something is wrong, and Shane says Ilya is the only one who can fix it. Ilya knows it's a bad idea, but that's never stopped him before.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    “Fuck, that’s good. You feel so good,” Shane moans above him.

    He pulls him down again, and this time he holds him there, his hands firm on Ilya’s head. Instinctively, Ilya fights it, his throat spasming around the intrusion, and he tries to pull off, but Shane holds him there.

    “Ah, ah. No. That’s not how you say it’s too much. You tap my leg, remember?”

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    Immediate sequel to 'I Keep Telling Myself, I'm not the Desperate Type'
    Stoner frat boy Ilya x cool, jock Shane

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    13 Mar 2026

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    13 Mar 2026

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    Shane steps closer, standing between Ilya’s legs. “I guess that explains it, hm? You don’t have to be confident or good when you’re packing that, do you? You just let people use your big,” Shane accentuates the word by leaning down and touching Ilya’s cock for the first time, only it’s not a caress or a stroke, it’s a rude poke that makes Ilya’s cock jerk in the air, “cock, however they want to? Is that it? Just a thick, fat cock for people to ride when you get too fucking stupid to do anything else?”

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    Uni AU, loser, stoner frat bro Ilya, pining after popular, jock Shane

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    13 Mar 2026

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    When 18-year-old Shane Hollander—newly drafted to the Montreal Metros and desperately underfunded—meets the mysterious, wealthy Ilya Rozanov at SportChek, his life tilts on its axis. Ilya buys him everything: top-tier gear, a meal, and later, a transaction that becomes something far more complicated than either anticipated.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    11 Mar 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 8

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    Shane Hollander finally secures a job with decent pay, which is hopefully enough to get him out of debt and his bad apartment when his job ends up leading him to a second career option.

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    10 Mar 2026

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    Rozanov is looking at him intensely, mouth pursed in a smirk, eyes alight. “You eat dinner?”

    “What?”

    “Dinner,” Rozanov says, “Is meal you eat in evening. You have it?”

    “You’re asking me if I eat dinner?”

    Rozanov tilts his head. “My English is not so bad, I think.”

    “No, it isn’t,” Shane says, although he’s still confused by Rozanov’s question. After a beat, where all he can focus on is Rozanov’s thick eyebrows, Shane confirms: “Yes, of course I eat dinner.”

    “Good. Me too.” Rozanov is still smirking. Shane’s starting to think it might be his default expression. “We have that in common: playing hockey and eating dinner.”

    Or: Five times Ilya Rozanov tried to ask out Shane Hollander, and the one time he succeeded.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    What if Shane and Ilya are so young and dumb that they accidentally fall for each other like immediately and are too uninhibited to get in their own ways?

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    The people yearn for soft! sexy! hockey! boys!

    (If you want more soft hockey boys this is a sequel to The Early Days, but reading the prequel is not required to jump into this.)

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    09 Mar 2026

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    What if Shane and Ilya had much more explicit yearning and wanting at their first International Prospect Cup in Winter 2008 and at the draft in Summer 2009? What if this builds and builds to them hooking up for the first time at their second International Prospect Cup in winter 2009 instead of waiting until 6 months later at the CCM shoot? (They are both still 18+!!!) What if there's a blizzard and Shane and Ilya have to share a hotel room? What if they were super super soft lil love sick guys? What if they hook up again at the CCM shoot?

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    Canon-compliant-ish & slow burn-ish & yearning & WANTING & sorta realizing feelings very early on & being love sick lil sweet guys + Bed sharing trope makes me go feral.

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    09 Mar 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 74

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    Shane calls a phone sex hotline and gets Ilya crooning unspeakable filth in his ear. It kind of devolves from there.

    aka Ilya is a college student in Boston working on the side as a phone sex operator, Shane is still a hockey player. They have toe-curling, back-cracking dirty phone sex and end up catching feelings along the way.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Rozanov snapped his fingers, pulling Shane out of his stupor. “Hello? Concertmaster?”

    “Yes,” Shane schooled his voice as he stood from his seat, extending his hand out to the other in greeting. “It’s a pleasure to meet you, Ilya.”

    Rozanov gave him a once-over as he stood, the corner of his mouth lifting. “Of course it is.”

    He didn’t take the hand. Shane let it fall back to his side, fighting off a scowl.

    Asshole.

    or, Shane Hollander is the concertmaster of the Orchestre Symphonique de Montréal. Ilya Rozanov, a world-renowned violinist, appears as a guest soloist for their Spring 2017 season.

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    07 Mar 2026

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    “We should do it sometime.”

    “Do what?”

    “Like…it. On camera.”

    Ilya’s eyebrows shot into his hair.

    “You want me to fuck you for my channel?”

    Or, Ilya is on OnlyFans and his husband is a (not so) secret exhibitionist.

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    07 Mar 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 41

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    Obviously, Shane knew— just as his clients —unresolved things were expensive, the longer you let something sit, the more it cost you. And this particular thing had been sitting for longer than last night. It drifted past him before, on many late nights, in other browser tabs closed before they fully loaded.

    male escort services

    The website he landed on after a few taps, consisted of a simple grid of photographs on a black background, the whole thing designed with a discretion that was far from tasteful, almost grimy. He was just looking, anyway.

    (or Shane Hollander has been closeted for like 20 yrs, married for 3, and Ilya Rozanov charges by the hour)

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    07 Mar 2026

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    “But how did you know you liked guys? Like did you think about fucking them or were you just wondering and decided to try it out?”

    “Why do you ask me this?” 

    His brick wall shaped - and minded - friend shrugs, turning his head to look out the window to his right while he speaks noncommittally. 

    “Just, eh, whatever. It’s nothing.”

    “You are thinking overall? Or you have a crush do you think?”

    “Not a crush, fuck I don’t - I don’t know. Forget it.”

    “You make me tell you about my feelings, you can do too. Go.”

    Cliff sighs and dares not to meet Ilya’s eyes. 

    “The other day, when you and Hollander were talking shit to each other. I don’t know. It was sweet. I’ve never seen Hollander act like that with anyone.”

    Ilya waits for him to continue, cogs turning and creaking in his brain as more silence passes by them. He snaps his head towards Cliff, who looks away. It’s almost endearing to see his boisterous friend shy like this - it would be, if it weren’t over his Shane. 

    “You…you want to fuck Hollander?”

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    07 Mar 2026

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    "Now, now," Ilya calls to the room, walking in from the shower, hair still dripping wet. Shane can see the dark spots from where the droplets landed on his shirt. The idiot hasn't even dried off completely, the wet of his body making his shirt stick. He wants to take a towel and smother him. "Do not stress Hollander out. Is bad for baby."

    Luca makes a confused sound from where he's lacing up his sneakers. The angel that he is, he spares Shane the irritation of not joining whatever nonsense the rest of the guys are cooking up. "Huh? What baby?"

    "Him," he goes to his cubby, starts messing around with his bag, his back to the room. "Hollander is baby."

    "Rozanov." Shane is at the end of his rope. This entire team can burn to the ground for all he cares.

    5 times Shane obliviously sits through Ilya’s affection + 1 time he realizes it

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    07 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander comes out before opening night and unleashes Shane Hollander Hysteria across the NHL.
    All-Stars circle like it’s free agency and he’s the only contract available.
    His DMs combust. Rival captains get bold. Hotel rooms get interesting. The league gets possessive.
    The Metros couldn’t care less because Shane keeps dominating on the ice while getting fucked in every time zone.
    It becomes the worst-kept secret in professional hockey: everyone wants their turn.
    Ilya Rozanov is handling this very normally.

    Or:
    Shane Hollander comes out and discovers that freedom can look like a lot of things.
    Sometimes it looks like sex in every time zone.
    Sometimes it looks like queer community forming around him across the league and far beyond it.
    Sometimes it looks like becoming the most confident version of himself he has ever been.
    And somewhere in the middle of all of it, one rival captain starts realizing he may have made a catastrophic mistake.
    Unfortunately for him, Shane Hollander is having a great time.

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    06 Mar 2026

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    “Jesus Christ.” Shane murmured as he held his pay in his right hand, and an extra three hundred fucking dollars in his left. He tucked his money back in the envelope, then placed the extra, along with the two hundred from last week, onto the kitchen counter. He waited diligently for Ilya’s return.

    “Mr. Rozanov. Mila is asleep, has been for about 45 minutes. Um. You’ve given me too much money again.” Shane said awkwardly, blushing as he did, “I uh– left it on the counter. My rate is $25 an hour. Just to... y’know, remind you–”

    “I know.”

    “Oh. Okay. Well that’s... good. Wait.. what?” Shane was really fucking tired and he was pretty sure that Rozanov just told him that he knew how much money Shane charged, knew that he was giving Shane way too goddamn much of it.

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    shane is babysitting ilyas daughter. ilya wants to spoil him

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    4,581

    06 Mar 2026

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    “Yes. I went back to my dorm and answered your boring homework about L’Hopital’s Rule.” Ilya chirped, his usual smirk finding its way back to his face, and Shane couldn't help but reciprocate.

    “Fuck off. They're not boring. It's to help you.”

    “Yes, they helped me fall asleep fast, like a baby.” Ilya continued to tease him more, and Shane shoved him playfully.

    Shane wanted to beat himself for being so easy against Ilya Rozanov. No matter how hard he tries to repress his feelings, just a smile from Ilya and he's already crumbling.

    or a hollanov AU where shane becomes ilya's math tutor

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    22,920

    06 Mar 2026

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