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    "Fuck, Andrew, what’s going on? This... This is real? Am I going crazy?"

    "Neil," Andrew said, his voice low but firm, "this is real. I don’t know how or why, but I’m here with you. So, stop freaking out, okay?" He pulled Neil until their foreheads touched. "I need you to listen carefully," he began, waiting for Neil to nod before continuing. "I’ll go with the coach and Kevin to Palmetto, but I’ll come back as soon as possible to find you. We need to get these drugs out of my system. And meanwhile, you’ll grab your fucking bag and rent a decent hotel room to rest until your classes are over. You won’t run, and you’ll buy a damn phone. Got it, bunny?"

    "Got it," Neil whispered, trying to absorb Andrew’s firmness; trying to believe in that absurd and ridiculous possibility. He closed his eyes for a moment, taking a deep breath, letting the feeling of Andrew’s touch anchor him in reality. "I trust you. I’ll do what you said."

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    After almost a decade together, Neil and Andrew travel back in time to Neil's first year at Palmetto. Now, they must relive demons from the past. But at least they still have each other.

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    22 Feb 2026

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    “It’s a little difficult to think clearly with a knife pressed to his jugular, but Neil manages to wonder if he should’ve let the FBI send him to jail instead of here.

    It makes sense, unfortunately, that after finding Neil bruised, burnt, and bleeding out on the cold cement floor of his father’s basement, Special Agent Todd Browning might have had some concerns for Neil’s health.

    Neil just didn’t expect that concern to include his mental health, too.

    Browning had offered Neil a choice that day - after listing out, like, fifty reasons why he thought Neil might benefit from some therapy.

    Life in prison or a sixty day stay in a psych ward, followed by freedom.

    Neil thought the answer was obvious, but his new roommate still hasn’t removed his blade from Neil’s throat - which Neil is now realizing isn’t actually a knife, but a razor blade taped to the butt of a toothbrush - so he’s rethinking that answer a bit.”

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    The one where Neil and Andrew meet in Easthaven.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Alex was the most irritating person Andrew had ever met, with his easy compliance, stupid face, and suspiciously well-thought-out plan for running away after accidentally killing a rotten Soc, but Andrew kept finding himself by Alex’s side anyway.
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    Alex (or Abram—the secret name the boy whispered to Andrew one night) is the new kid at Andrew's school, and Andrew is partnered with him for an English project about The Outsiders: Andrew and Abram have to come up with a runaway plan that would work out better than Johnny and Pony's. They think the project is utterly pointless at first, but it turns out to be a lot more useful than they ever would have expected when, less than two months later, Andrew and Abram find themselves with blood on their hands.

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    Upon Mary Hatford's death, Nathaniel Wesninski makes the call to his uncle Stuart rather than continuing on the run and ending up in Milport, Nevada.
    Upon graduating university, Andrew Minyard turns down all offers of a professional Exy career and muddles through a 'normal' life, until the boredom and inanity of it all wears him down and he accepts an offer of a break to spend some time with his cousin Nicky in Stuttgart, Germany.
    There he meets Abram Hatford, a handsome and broken young man who has more in common with Andrew than he suspects, and nothing's normal anymore.

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    Neil Josten, a former runaway, finds an unexpected refuge with the influential Hatford mafia family in London, transforming from a streetwise survivor into a confident figure. Under the guidance of Stuart Hatford and his fearless daughter Emma, he gains stability, luxury, and a sense of belonging.

    But despite his new life, Exy still calls to him. Joining the Palmetto State Foxes, Neil finds himself caught between his past and present, forming bonds with teammates who are more like family. As danger looms on the horizon, Neil must decide if he can protect the people who have become his home—or if his secrets will destroy them first.

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