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    Nothing feels right or good. Not the weight of his pads or the glide of his skates over fresh ice. Not the crispness of the rink air or the roar of a sold out Montreal crowd. Not his teammates’ triumphant shouts when he sinks a goal or cool water in his throat after a hard workout or well wishing texts from his parents before every game. It’s all just… faded.

    Grey.

    Empty.

    Shane doesn’t know how to bring color back into his life. Not when he leeched it out himself with every step he took away from the only person who has ever truly, honestly seen him.

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    After Shane walks away, his life falls apart one piece at a time.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    “I didn’t break the cup.” He said more intently, picturing the mug whole and unbroken, the radio station logo that was plastered on the side uncracked.

    And as he willed it, it was. 

    He blinked and the glass was gone like it had never been there, and there was a whole coffee mug sitting on the table in front of him when he looked down. It was sitting on the table like it had never left, the wet pool of cold coffee from before was gone and in its place was a rich brown cup of coffee, steaming lightly in the nighttime chill.

    “What the fuck?” Someone said, disbelief coloring their tone and all Mike could do was stare downwards, a fresh wave of blood leaking from his nose.

    “I didn't break the cup.” He echoed himself emptily, words a tad disbelieving.

    He looked up then, taking in the stunned and worried faces that were surrounding the table and by proxy, him. 

    He pressed his fingers to his nose, eyes slipping downwards to look at the wet red that stained his fingertips and looking back up. 

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander has built himself around routine, his life blood is hockey. Struggling to understand his team off the ice and the people around him, he carves out a few silent hours to himself. It's just him and his skates. But the hard fought peace is fragile, like cracks in too thin ice. It only takes a slight impact to shatter. Shane is fighting to hold his team and himself together as everything comes crashing down around him.

    Someone hacks into Rose Landry's phone in a club, they then release the images of Shane's texts online and all hell breaks loose. Shane is left to pick up the pieces. Ilya makes some choices in the aftermath that change everything where as Shane decides to stop hiding and Ilya is a possessive asshole who makes it everyone else's problem. With far less reason to hide himself anymore, Shane begins to show more of who he really is behind the polite, media worthy façade. Maybe he can have both Hockey and Ilya. The world will just have to deal with it.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    - Marlow Has Added Jane to the Conversation -

    Marlow: Please don't tell Roz

    Jane: O.O

     

    - Hayden Has Added Lily to the Conversation -

    Lily: What the fuck is this?

    Hayden: Oh-

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.

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    31 Jan 2026