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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    01 Mar 2026

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    “You’re going to Boston.”

    Long after Farah hangs up, the words keep echoing in Shane’s head. If he had thought his thoughts had been chaotic this morning, when his biggest problem had been his rival potentially fucking him when he came to Montreal in two weeks, that’s nothing compared to the code-red panic that started the instant he found out he was being traded to Rozanov’s team.

    Rozanov, who was supposed to be his great career rival. Rozanov, who he’s hooked up with twice now. Rozanov, who had been planning on coming to Shane’s apartment in Montreal to fuck him the next time they saw each other. God, how on Earth is Shane going to walk into his locker room in Boston in a few days time?

    The impending awkwardness of dealing with Rozanov is almost enough to eclipse the hurt he’s trying to ignore. The knowledge that Montreal values him so little that they’re willing to dispose of him only six months into his rookie season. Almost, but not quite.

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    Or, Shane gets traded to Boston AU.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Tomioka Giyuu has already written his ending. Every mission is a countdown, every sunrise borrowed time he never asked for. He carries the weight of the dead like stones in his pockets, resigning himself to repaying that debt the only way he knows how: by meeting the death he should have met years ago. He walks into battle like he's walking into the ocean: calm, purposeful, with no intention of coming back up for air.
    Sanemi Shinazugawa wasn't supposed to notice. Wasn't supposed to care. But there's something about the way Giyuu takes hits he could dodge, the way his eyes stay distant even in victory, the way he speaks about himself like he's already a ghost. It pisses Sanemi off because he recognizes it; that quiet resignation of someone who's decided they don't deserve to be saved.
    So Sanemi does something stupid: well, he tries. He picks fights to keep Giyuu sharp. Shows up uninvited. Watches his blind spots. And somewhere along the way, irritation becomes devotion. He's fighting not just demons but Giyuu's guilt, his conviction that he's already dead.
    The problem is, Sanemi doesn't know if love is enough when someone's already let go.

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    a sanegiyuu character study (inspired by mitski)

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    12 Feb 2026

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    When a picture of Katsuki with pop idol Dekiru's merch goes viral on the internet, it gives the hero a chance to reunite with his childhood friend.

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    10 Jan 2026

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    The long and tumultuous road to finally becoming okay again.

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    06 Jan 2026