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kiss me like a final meal by blueberrryink
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Jan 2026
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Everybody else on earth was born with a manual on How to Be. A sort of silver spoon already tucked into their mouth.
Shane wishes he had gotten one.
After an exhausting day of masking and overstimulation, Shane has a panic attack. He loses the ability to speak. Thankfully, Ilya is there to help him through.
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13 Feb 2026
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Most of his days are spent staring at his baby while silently willing her to stop crying. To stop needing him. When Ilya is gone, it's far worse. He can keep it together if Ilya is there, because he handles all the major tasks that Shane fears. Even holding her feels impossible, as if one touch to a hair on her head then she is going to break and fall apart in his grasp. While it all comes so naturally to Ilya—he holds her, smells the top of her head and grins like he is the happiest person on planet earth.
or, i saw a post that said "enough mpreg, what about mpostpartum depression" and i took that on as a mission
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12 Feb 2026
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In the End by mar1p0sa_papp1l0n
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Feb 2026
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Shane will be the one to get dementia, in the end, once the disease progresses. He’ll be the one who forgets, in the final stages. It’s unfair, so fucking unfair, but Ilya can’t cry about it in front of their daughters or in front of Shane’s parents. So he gets up from the table and slams the patio door, pats himself down for a cigarette he knows won’t be there until his fingers find his mother’s cross laying heavy against his collarbone.
Or, Ilya and Shane, and Chronic Traumatic Encephalopathy (CTE). A series of vignettes.
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- Part 1 of Remembering to not Forget
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04 Feb 2026
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Eddie knows this part: his head lulls back into the concrete and his arms twitch, keeping a panicked Buck in his sights as the blood pools underneath him.
Their first team up after he moved to the paramedic role comes when a building collapses in downtown Los Angeles. He and Buck are to search for survivors. The rubble is unstable.
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31 Jan 2026
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On good days it was a low pressure system, dull and manageable.
On bad days it rolled in without notice, sharp enough to steal his breath for a second, but never long enough to justify leaving the ice. He felt the creeping increase like the buzz of static in the air before a thunderstorm, the way you could detect rain in the air long before it fell.
There was a quiet pride in that, even if he didn’t like to admit it.
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5 times Shane hides a chronic flare-up, and the 1 time he lets himself get looked after.Series
- Part 7 of hollanov aus
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27 Jan 2026