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Cody stares at the message for a long moment. He commed Fox because Obi-Wan's unconscious, Wolffe's shit at words, and Rex has his hands full with Tano. He commed Fox because he can say fucking anything to Fox, and he couldn't even collect their dead, and one of these days he is going to snap.

He's got no idea if voicing half the shit chasing itself round his head will help, but his alternative is punching a few more holes in the wall, and he has to work out if Obi-Wan'll feel that before he does it again.

Notes:

this continues to be just decadently self-indulgent.

the setup here is cody & fox did CC training together and had roughly the clone equivalent of a high school relationship that they broke off when they left kamino, and now they're not dating but also they're not? not dating? they need their Main Person to be other people but they are also inseparable

mando'a translations in hover text / end notes; mobile shld have working hover text thanks to this CSS script. i did make up words this time. title again from ani difranco's falling is like this

cw for offscreen minor character death & an offscreen minor character implied to be suicidal

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Felucia is, of course, a shitshow. Cody should probably ask if the bond means he's inheriting Obi-Wan's prescience.

They're limping back to Coruscant, now, down too many vod'e [troopers] and fuck all to show for it, and Obi-Wan's in the medbay with a hole in his side, ruining all of Cody's post-battle plans. He's done a round of the barracks, the training salle, the bridge; he's been firmly kicked out of inventory by Spec; he doesn't trust himself to spar. Retreating always winds him up like this, all the anticipation of the fight and no payoff.

He ducks into the medbay, one last time, and is met at the door by an exhausted Kabu.

"I sedated him," Kabu says, too tired for inflection. "You're as bad as each other, he was gonna fuck up his stitches."

"Right," Cody says. He can see Obi-Wan – he's always in a bed near the door; finding any possible reason to swing past the medbay while Obi-Wan is inside isn't a habit unique to Cody. He can see Obi-Wan is very much unconscious. He can see Kabu does not need to put up with his bullshit. "Alright. Wouldn't sedate me, would you?"

"We do not get nearly enough supplies to support anyone developing a dependency," Kabu says, the standard medic line. Then adds, very much not the standard medic line, "Waxer's got that rotgut, still. Get addicted to something we can brew up ourselves, like the competent man I know you are."

"There's several things wrong with that sentence," Cody says, and lets it serve as a goodbye. Kabu's, thankfully, just as shit with niceties.

He goes, for lack of anywhere else, back to his bunk.

Then, because they lost too many fucking men and his thoughts won't stop chasing themselves in circles, he gets up, and goes to Obi-Wan's bunk. It's essentially the exact same room, as Obi-Wan has just as few personal effects and, also, gave up his fancy officer bunk for one closer to the men. But the bedsheets smell like caf and sweat and woodsmoke, and there's a Jetii [Jedi] poem carved into the wall right where it's easy to trace over with his fingertips, and it settles Cody. Settles the buzzing under his skin.

Not so much he can sleep, of course.

He sighs, heavily, and gets out his comm.

 

Cody: you up?

 

The reply takes a couple minutes, as always, but there's no auto response. Which is good. Cody has no fucking idea what time it is on Coruscant.

 

Vice Chancellor Fox: it's 1106, cod'ika [little cody], the fuck you think

Cody: well bastard it's 0041 here and seeing as we're limping back to lick our wounds and we let the seppies take the planet i think im allowed to not bother working out the time difference

Vice Chancellor Fox: osik [shit]

Vice Chancellor Fox: your jetii [jedi] alright?

Cody: gaping wound in his side he made worse by ignoring and had to be sedated so he wouldn't immediately pull out all his stitches

Cody: and tano made a bad call and it's fucked her up so fucked skywalker up so fucked obi-wan up obviously. very excited for the failure of the whole campaign to become his fault somehow

Cody: oh and he fucking bonded us in the force. vos tell you they do that?

Vice Chancellor Fox: i need you to understand your jetii is an outlier and they do not all give impromptu lectures for fun

Cody: your jetii is a spy

Vice Chancellor Fox: i know that already

Vice Chancellor Fox: i don't know what the fuck being bonded in the force means

Vice Chancellor Fox: do i need to steal quin's good knives

 

Cody makes a delighted noise, unbidden. He doesn't touch base with Fox as often as he'd like – back on Kamino they'd rarely go a full day without talking, in a way that drove most of the trainers up the wall. Now, of course, they're at the whims of comm transmission strength, active battlefields, all the endless busywork Cody's half-convinced the Senate invents just to stop Fox stabbing anyone. So he isn't, tragically, getting the play-by-play of Fox's romance with Vos he deserves.

One of these days Fox'll admit he doodles Vos' name on his forms, and oh, Cody is going to gloat.

 

Cody: quin?

Vice Chancellor Fox: pretty sure you're about to tell me kenobi jetii married you, shut the fuck up

Cody: yeah but wasnt me who spent two months complaining about the cocksure bastard jetii who wouldnt take anything seriously, kept trying to ply you with gifts which was apparently greatly offensive, and also hes not even that attractive you swear

Cody: i went into this saying im gonna fuck obi-wan. and i did.

Vice Chancellor Fox: because i fucking dared you to

Cody: to do it NOW, yeah

Cody: i didnt wanna fuck up my working relationship with a man who could order my death so sue me

Cody: vos isnt even your CO youre just so fucking repressed

Vice Chancellor Fox: stop dodging already

Cody: not dodging, i brought it up

Cody: im giving you your due

Cody: as is my right as your trial run

Vice Chancellor Fox: kote [glory; cody's original name] i swear to fuck

 

Cody thinks about winding him up further, but it's just not as fun when Fox can't throw him against a wall.

 

Cody: so a force bond is a telepathic link out a shitty holodrama on steroids

Cody: yknow how theyre empaths?

Cody: i have no fucking idea how they ever kill anyone

Cody: his feelings ARE my feelings its fucking insane. and if i can concentrate i can hear his thoughts. we were touching at the time but i dont think we need to be

Cody: theres this space in my head where he is

Cody: been there a while i just didnt notice. thats the other thing tho, he did it on accident

Vice Chancellor Fox: Excuse me?

Cody: pretty sure it only works if its, yknow

Cody: mutual

Vice Chancellor Fox: You're pretty sure?

Cody: not exactly had time for a full sitrep

Cody: but he is giving one. gonna interrogate his jetii medic batchmate, too

Vice Chancellor Fox: she's got a sweet tooth

Cody: that was me giving you pertinent intel not fishing for leverage

Vice Chancellor Fox: i don't understand you

Cody: thats why you sneak around eavesdropping on senators and i punch droids, yeah

Vice Chancellor Fox: stop fucking punching the droids

Cody: no

Vice Chancellor Fox: did you just comm me to make my stress ulcers worse? was that your goal?

 

Cody stares at that for a long moment. He commed Fox because Obi-Wan's unconscious, Wolffe's shit at words, and Rex has his hands full with Tano. He commed Fox because he can say fucking anything to Fox, and he couldn't even collect their dead, and one of these days he is going to snap.

He's got no idea if voicing half the shit chasing itself round his head will help, but his alternative is punching a few more holes in the wall, and he has to work out if Obi-Wan'll feel that before he does it again.

 

Cody: well i cant spar kabu kicked me out medbay and wouldnt give me sedatives its another two days of hyperspace we lost twenty eight men for no fucking reason and left them there to boot and waxer's sat with jure cuz this was his second fucking engagement and now hes last man standing

Cody: and tano nearly fucked the extraction not wanting to give up the chase and i keep thinking i shouldve gone with her least then we wouldve fucking accomplished something and obi-wan just very casually mentioned if anything happens to skywalker he will fucking lose it

Cody: cept of course he doesnt just mean skywalker and the chances of all of us making it are so fucking slim so really that means none of us are making it we're a karking house of cards and i dont fucking trust anyone else with ghost

Cody: cuz even if the war ends sith knows the senate'll never give us citizenship and whats it even matter how many vode make it when theyll be sold to the highest bidder at best

Vice Chancellor Fox: Kote, where are you?

Cody: obi-wan's bunk

Cody: im not a fucking suicide risk. benefit of hitting full fucking codependence, if i die obi-wan will fucking follow me

Cody: i want to break something.

Vice Chancellor Fox: As all that's currently available is your own self I'm gonna veto that

Vice Chancellor Fox: Did you know Quin trained Secura?

 

That jars Cody out his head. Jars him into startled laughter.

 

Cody: are you fucking bly's riduur'buir [father in law]

Vice Chancellor Fox: More like Bly's riduur'ori'vod [older brother in law]

Cody: but also his riduur'buir

Vice Chancellor Fox: he doesn't know

Vice Chancellor Fox: knowing shit is his whole job and yet he has this blindspot where he refuses to realise secura is fucking her commander because in his head she's still an ori'cadet [teenager]

Vice Chancellor Fox: it's so fucking funny

 

It is. Fuck, it really, really is. Cody's sides hurt.

Cody knows, from Obi-Wan's occasional diatribes, that most civvies do not get Jetii relationship dynamics. And they don't quite match up with the be'vod'e [troopers'], sure, but Cody's not an idiot, and he's spent a lot of time with Obi-Wan and Skywalker by now.

Vos isn't Secura's buir [dad], not in any way that matters. But when he finds out she's fucking Bly, he will definitely react like her buir. And then she'll beat the shit out of him for it. Fuck, he hopes someone vids it.

 

Cody: wait does bly know you're fucking vos

Vice Chancellor Fox: why exactly do you think me fucking quin is common knowledge

Cody: you comm me every time you take a shit. forget you're not like that with everyone

Vice Chancellor Fox: sith fucking hells could you imagine

Vice Chancellor Fox: i would be dead ten times over

Vice Chancellor Fox: you remember opsec classes, right? i'm starting to think they were a weirdly vivid dream

Cody: i remember you breaking multiple laws to reconfigure this channel before you'd say fucking anything in it

Vice Chancellor Fox: you try and fail to explain if people are trying to kill you then you can't give out your full karking address and also the codes to your damn office to anyone who asks nicely, six separate times before midmeal, then tell me i'm being paranoid

Vice Chancellor Fox: anyway you distracted me i'm not done talking about quin

Vice Chancellor Fox: he's fucking insane. why are they all insane

Cody: no, obi-wan's batch is insane. mace and plo are bad but they're not that bad

Vice Chancellor Fox: is it age? is that it? if i make it to thirty will quin mellow out? at this rate i'm not making it to thirty

Vice Chancellor Fox: he wants to infiltrate the fucking sith

 

Cody closes his eyes, takes a moment. Thinks, as he often does, of baiting their Jetii into the Temple creche, never difficult, then locking and barricading all the doors. They're wily, but between Ghost and the Guard, Cody's sure they'd be outmatched. And maybe then Fox'd stop going fucking grey.

 

Cody: wish that surprised me

Vice Chancellor Fox: you know dooku used to be a jetii? quin wants to fake going dark and become his apprentice

Vice Chancellor Fox: except faking going dark is not actually possible and what he means is he wants to go dark enough to convince dooku he's full dark and then keep that up for however long it takes to work out who dooku answers to

Vice Chancellor Fox: even though A) the only thing stopping him actually going full dark would be sheer force of will B) he will have to actively aid the sith C) we don't even know if dooku knows who he answers to D) dooku already has a karking apprentice and she's fucking dangerous

 

It's a pity, that giving Fox shit for how unbelievably gone on Vos he is wouldn't go well at all right now. Maybe when they get back to Coruscant, Cody'll swing by the Guard barracks with some decent drink.

 

Cody: hear me out

Cody: let's go AWOL and elope

Cody: swear i wont ever put my life in active danger for very minimal gain if you wont

Vice Chancellor Fox: yeah, alright. there's still real mandos in the mandalore system somewhere, right?

Cody: did i ever mention satine kryze is obi-wan's fucking ex

Vice Chancellor Fox: No You Fucking Did Not.

Cody: the order sent him to bodyguard her when he was a padawan and she wasn't in charge yet

Cody: the pacifism is apparently a symptom of childhood battle fatigue

Cody: anyway he despises her choices obviously so their dynamic now is indescribable. somehow worse than how he is with ventress. never go dar'manda [no longer Mandalorian]

Vice Chancellor Fox: don't worry i think jango would kill me first

Vice Chancellor Fox: but we could blackmail kryze, huh?

 

Why does Cody like Fox so much when he's such a fucking spy.

 

Cody: i am not going AWOL just to get neck deep in different fucking politic osik [shit]

Vice Chancellor Fox: you don't think you'd make a good mand'alor?

Cody: oh fuck you

Cody: i know you just want me to be your figurehead and that doesn't make it less hot. i hate you

 

Cody doesn't have to see him to know the exact insufferable look on Fox's face right now. It's deeply aggravating that he can't punch it.

 

Vice Chancellor Fox: you opened with fucking kenobi and you keep changing the subject

Vice Chancellor Fox: i want to hear about fucking kenobi

Vice Chancellor Fox: i don't ask for much

Cody: asking him to spill about fucking vos was my opening gambit

Cody: rex feels smug right now and he's no idea why

Vice Chancellor Fox: no he doesn't, because it's not that we're the same person, it's that i have you very well trained

Cody: oh you do?

Vice Chancellor Fox: telling me all about it first chance you get, aren't you?

Cody: it's not fair to say that when i can't bite you

Vice Chancellor Fox: and yet here you are anyway

Vice Chancellor Fox: go on, then. where were you? in his bunk?

 

Cody has to take a moment again, to get his shit together. To mourn, just for a moment, that Obi-Wan isn't here. That they're doing this over comm texts, and he can't even hear the low rumble of Fox's voice.

He's definitely paying a visit to the Guard.

 

Cody: officer's lounge

Vice Chancellor Fox: fuck, did you get caught?

Cody: no

Vice Chancellor Fox: pity

 

That hadn't even occurred to Cody, little gods.

 

Vice Chancellor Fox: what did you do? quin's talked up his mouth an unreasonable amount

Cody: fuck, i came down his throat

Cody: he begged me for it

Vice Chancellor Fox: he begged?

Cody: you are the only person in the galaxy i roll over for and you damn well know it

Vice Chancellor Fox: oh i had no doubt he'd be on his knees for you

Vice Chancellor Fox: but quin made him out to be a brat

 

Cody thinks, again, of the look on Obi-Wan's face. The noises he made. Desperate, but not demanding. Happy to take whatever Cody wanted to give him. Whatever Cody decided he deserved.

 

Cody: im sure for vos he is

Cody: he melted for me

Cody: you should ask vos about bonds. they're useful

Vice Chancellor Fox: i'm starting to see the appeal

Cody: i can pull on it. like pulling on his hair

Cody: he likes that too

Cody: but the bond's more direct. think i could get him to come untouched, like that

Vice Chancellor Fox: fuck i'd like to see that

Cody: i'll vid it

Vice Chancellor Fox: shabuir [asshole]

Vice Chancellor Fox: wish i could hit you for that

Cody: yeah?

Vice Chancellor Fox: tie you up first. quin got me a flogger.

 

Fucking hells.

 

Cody: ah

Vice Chancellor Fox: yeah, thought you'd like that

Vice Chancellor Fox: your hand on your cock yet?

Cody: mean

Cody: how'd you expect me to think now

Vice Chancellor Fox: because i'm asking you to, cod'ika

 

It's infuriating, how quick Fox can get his blood up. Especially like this, just words on a screen. Kark, he is well-trained.

He's still wearing half his damn armour. He gets just enough out the way he can get a hand in his blacks, and it makes him think of Obi-Wan undoing it all without even a flourish of his fingers, like it's easy. Like he could do it anytime.

It takes him longer to type, now he's doing it one-handed.

 

Cody: fuck

Cody: he got my armour off with the force, fox

Cody: i didnt even know how hot that was till he did it

Vice Chancellor Fox: oh that is hot

Vice Chancellor Fox: easy access, huh?

Vice Chancellor Fox: i'd like that. get my hands on you whenever i want, wherever i want

Vice Chancellor Fox: you're thinking about coming by, aren't you?

Vice Chancellor Fox: you've got leave. you could spend the day. you'd fit under my desk so nicely

Vice Chancellor Fox: not that we're talking about me. keep going, then. what else did he beg for?

 

It takes him a moment to remember how to think.

It's not the first time they've done this – even when they're in the same room, Fox likes to talk, likes to sit there and make Cody do all the work while he watches. They've been fucking too long. Fox knows all of Cody's buttons, likes pushing all of them at once. Somehow, it still catches Cody off-guard.

 

Cody: wanted me to choke him

Cody: bond's a direct fucking line into his fantasies

Cody: had him in my lap. he kept thinking about rubbing off on my leg

Cody: and me marking him up

Vice Chancellor Fox: damn, cod'ika, did you wish very hard?

Vice Chancellor Fox: need to tell him to bite back, though

Vice Chancellor Fox: can't be walking round with just my teeth in you, now. that's not fair

 

Cody pushes, briefly, at the scar on his hip, wishes it still ached to the touch. Obi-Wan didn't notice it – it doesn't look quite like a bite any more, since Cody wasn't quite full grown when Fox finally dug his teeth in deep enough to draw blood. The first time Fox drew his blood at all.

He thinks, suddenly, of the way Obi-Wan's orgasm ran back down the bond. How he could feel, almost, the weight of his own cock in Obi-Wan's mouth. How he might, maybe, taste his own blood, too.

 

Cody: close

Cody: fuck, vod'uur [trooper romantic endearment]

Vice Chancellor Fox: yeah? gonna come all over yourself for me?

Vice Chancellor Fox: maybe i won't let you clean up

Vice Chancellor Fox: that'd be a nice surprise for kenobi, wouldn't it, if he knows from the first sight of you what you were doing with me

Vice Chancellor Fox: what you were doing in his bunk

Cody: fox

Vice Chancellor Fox: that's it, cyare

Vice Chancellor Fox: gonna ruin you later. gonna make you cry.

Vice Chancellor Fox: and right now you're going to come just from thinking about it, just because i told you to

 

Cody loses his grip on the comm. Can't keep his eyes open, shaking, feeling it in his toes. He can hear the words, Fox's voice low and pleased and possessive, and he thinks of what it might be like if Obi-Wan was here, if both of them were here, talking to him, and that's what shoves him over the edge. He has to bite at his knuckles to keep quiet.

 

Cody: fuck

Vice Chancellor Fox: good boy

 

Kriffing hells.

 

Vice Chancellor Fox: cancelled a meeting for that, hope you're happy

Cody: wait. for real?

Vice Chancellor Fox: well i assume it still happened but i sent thorn

Cody: i am gonna fucking

Cody: eat you

Vice Chancellor Fox: love you too

Vice Chancellor Fox: quin's likely turning up soon to pretend his timing is a complete coincidence and also he was just in the neighbourhood but hey while he's here do i want to get midmeal

Vice Chancellor Fox: you good? or am i telling him to go kark himself?

 

Fox has a reputation, somehow, for being a cold and uncaring bastard. Cody has never once understood it. Sure, yeah, Fox cultivates it intentionally, but he's transparent as shit.

 

Cody: im gonna pass the fuck out

Cody: thanks

Vice Chancellor Fox: anytime, vod'uur

 

Cody drops his comm on the shelf above the headboard, where Obi-Wan's inexplicable collection of rocks lives. He isn't, actually, going to pass out immediately, because he hasn't written the AAR yet and he has neuroses, but sleeping at all seems possible now, in a way it didn't an hour ago.

He can spend tomorrow in the medbay, sitting on top of Obi-Wan if needs must. And when they get back to Coruscant, he'll run damage control on Tano, get all the Jetii to spend time in the garden room and the crèche both, see if he can have his conversation with Bant over an actual meal. Sleep in the Temple with Obi-Wan, in a bed that cost more than twenty credits. And sic Thorn on Fox's schedule, get him an actual evening off.

Yeah. Yeah, okay, that's manageable. That gets the anger to actually, finally fade. And he didn't even need to punch anything.

Notes:

vod'e - troopers
cod'ika - ika is a diminuitive suffix, usually added to a name as an endearment; little cody
osik - shit
Jetii - Jedi
kote - glory; cody's original name
riduur'buir - literally spouse-parent; 'father in law' but without the connotation a marriage is legally binding
riduur'ori'vod - literally spouse-big-brother; 'older brother in law'
ori'cadet - literally 'big cadet', trooper equivalent of 'teenager'
be'vod'e - troopers'
buir - dad
dar'manda - literally 'no longer Mando'; having lost your connection to Mando culture, Not Good
shabuir - asshole
vod'uur - 'uur as in riduur / lover/spouse; trooper romantic endearment

fun bonus lore: fox is the only person who gets to call cody 'kote' without getting punched, fox's comm nickname was set by cody. also whenever i reference anyone doing rounds i mean physically going round checking up on the troopers in all the various places they might be. do have a lot of thoughts abt ghost company's command structure & it is mostly redundant, but cody & obi-wan both Need to see their men are alright for their own peace of mind. i genuinely forget this isnt canon.

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