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Tommy’s fingers drummed on his desk, and his lip was bitten in concentration and worry. Wilbur’s icon has a grey dot next to it, and he’s waiting for it to turn yellow.
It doesn’t, and he dropped his head to his desk.
He's planning to come out to Wilbur today.
Strawberry
hey Tom hows it going?
Tangerine
Terrible
Wil isn’t active
Eret what do to do im getting more nervoussss
Strawberry
u need to relax Tommy
Worrying won’t help
Tangerine
I get that ur right
But like,,,
What if he knows what I’m gonna do and is avoiding me??
What if he doesn’t actually like me at all??
Strawberry
Toms
Listen to yourself right now
1.how would he know
2.why would he avoid u?
3.thise’s clips comps like 10 mins long of him saying lgbtq+ rights
Tangerine
Dam ur right
I need to relax
I’ll tell u how it goes once he goes active
Strawberry
U could dm him first?
Tangerine
Mmmmmmmmm
Hard no big e
Strawberry
Mk
Remember i'm here to talk if u need alright?
Good luck Tommy!!
Tommy closes discord and shuts down his computer. MotherInnit calls him down for dinner, and he discusses the project in school.
His parents make a joke about how he’s (they didn’t say he, but Tommy isn’t out to them. He's too scared, honestly. They’ve actively gone against trans people in his neighborhood, and he doesn’t know how it’s going if he came out,) growing up and becoming a woman, and as such these responsibilities should be within his comprehension. But they say it in a joking way, not a condescending way.
It’s more the fact that he’s being misgendered.
He grits his teeth as he feels the urge to curl in a dark space, laughs and makes a joke about how he attracts all the women, and FatherInnit plays it off with an ‘it’s from me, obviously.’
He excused himself once he’s finished and rinses off his dish, throwing it in the dishwahis to wait until his parents are done.
He opens Discord on his phone, leaves the dms with Eret to view Wilbur’s and sees he’s active.
He takes a deep breath, heads to his room, and notifies that the rest of SBI (that’s not the fandom name, but it works so well. Instead, they’re sleepy mates inc, and he hates it,) is active as well.
He double-checks Twitch and Youtube, seeing none of them are streaming.
Techno is the first to notice that he’s active. He gets a dm, asking for him to join, and he accepts.
“Yoooo!!! She’s alive!!” Tommy internally cringes at that, and he huffs.
“Hey, Tara! How’s it goin’?” Wilbur asked. He shrugs, realizes his camera is off, and makes grunt that somewhat sounds like a so-so noise.
“What’s got you down, Tara?” Wil asks.
Tara.
TaraInnit.
She.
TaraInnit the big woman.
He hates the branding.
“It’s, um, that.”
“That?” Wilbur echoes with a hum. He can tell Wilbur’s playing some other game while chatting to them.
He takes a deep breath. He can do it, he’d been practicing this for days ! And Eret’s been hyping him up, only doubling his energy while still ensuring he knows that it’s his right to tell them or not.
“Phil, something’s wrong with your daughter.” There’s shuffling in Phil’s side of the VC, and Tommy screws up his eyes.
Daughter.
He muttered out a half-hearted, “rude,” to Wilbur before they end up letting him drop it with a reassurance that she can talk to them anytime she wants.
“Yeah, thanks mates. Bois of the sleepy variety.”
He chickens out.
Tangerine
i coulabajt do jt
Strawberry
???
Tangerine
I disnt tell themsa
I couslNt doif
Strawberry
that’s perfectly fine
it’s all abt when ur comfortable!!
U don’t owe them anything, alright, Tommy?
Tangerine
But they desveree to jnow
Strawberry
Listen to me
They have no instant right to know everything abt ur identity
That is ur choice alone
When ur ready, u can tell them
U have no obligation to tell them
Tangerine
Okay
Okay thanks eret
Ur a lifesaver
And really, they are. They’re the only reason he’s not broken down by now. They’ve saved him from several breakdowns.
Tommy closes his phone and stared at the bright screen of his computer for a few moments. His face was washed over, accentuating his dark circles, and he let his head fall.
He grabbed his bottle of concealer and his them before starting up a stream.
TaraInnit is now streaming Minecraft
He wished it said Tommy
“Tara, honey? Could you run to the grocery store? We need some milk and also some more ribs for dinner.”
He nods, not correcting his mother on his name.
It’s a pretty good day, he wasn’t too dysphoric about his chest.
Then, at the store, he’s referred to as he, as a lovely young man, and nearly cries.
It’s the best day of his life.
He chats with Phil and Wilbur, Techno having passed out a bit earlier in the day.
He isn't going to correct them. It’s a good day.