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  1. Public Bookmark 39

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    “I just…” He picked at the edge of the sheet, his voice croaky and wet, eyes prickling with heat. “I don’t know how to talk about it…about what I’m feeling. Because it feels wrong, I feel…wrong for feeling it.”

    Eddie shifted himself a little closer. “For feeling what?”

    Maybe it was the crease in his eyebrows, or the perfect strand of hair that floated over his forehead, or the bright toffee glow that radiated warmth that unraveled him, but Buck was unable to keep it inside anymore. It bubbled out of him like an overflowing glass of water, the contents having no where else to go when too much was being poured in.
    Buck buried his head in the pillow, tears burning more harshly into his eyes.

    “For feeling this destroyed about Bobby,” He choked out the words like he was dragging a serrated knife across his heart, catching on the jagged edges as he went.

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    months have passed since the funeral, and everyone is well into their healing journey, except Buck who is still drowning in it all...

    my version of a fix it fic in some ways, and how Buck dealt with Bobbys death and all the things he didn't say.

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    21 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 92

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    He stands behind Chris, gently wrapping the tie around Chris’ neck.

    “Did Dad teach you then?”

    The door softly opens, Eddie padding into the room.

    “Chris, I could’ve tied that for -”

    “It’s fine,” Buck interjects. “I don’t mind doing it for him.” He turns his focus back to Chris. “Um, no, Bobby taught me how to do it, actually.”

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    Buck struggles to come to terms with Bobby's death.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Six times someone at the 118 realizes that Buck had a difficult childhood and helps him figure out that they’ll always have his back.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    "Why are they even here?" Eddie asks. "They don't fucking belong here." Eddie growls as he sees Phillip and Margaret slowly trailing behind Maddie.

    "They are his parents Eddie" Hen says as if that's an acceptable answer.

    "This bullshit facade they are putting on won't last. I guarantee it." Eddie says.

    "You think so? They seemed to be trying at dinner the other night. They were better behaved than my dad was."

    "Mark my words. If they stick around, I'll walk on one of Chris' Lego sets. Barefoot." Eddie responds.

    "I'll take that bet." Hen says. "But I want video proof of you walking on a Lego set."

    "Same stakes?" Eddie asks, and Hen nods. "Done!" Eddie says, smirking at Hen.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Eddie whirls back on him, “I get it; they were your family first. But I’m the one who is leaving, I’m the one who has to say goodbye. I have to pack up my life, move across the country, and go to a place I hate, and try to make peace with people who have abused me my whole life. I’m the one who is losing all of you, and all they are worried about is protecting and babying you. And I’m fucking doing the same thing. I’m here scared out of my mind, and all I am worried about is you being upset.” Eddie shakes his head. “I’m the one who has to walk away from you,” he said, looking directly at Buck, his voice trembling.

    “Eddie…” Buck says, his voice breaking.

    “Don’t … Buck don’t…”

    “Don’t what, Eddie?”

    "Don’t let me leave like this,” Eddie whispers, his voice barely audible. His hand, trembling slightly, reaches out to Buck’s uniformed chest. With a gentle, yet determined motion, he slides his finger between the buttons, tugging Buck closer. Buck's heart races as he instinctively wraps his strong arms around Eddie's tense frame, pulling him into a tight embrace. The two friends find solace in each other, holding on to each other if they were the other's lifeline.

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    18 Feb 2026