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"Hey, sorry about that, I was just—Eddie?”
Eddie’s head shot up at the sight of Buck, frozen halfway towards his seat. “Buck?”
Buck let out an awkward chuckle and glanced around. “There must be a mix-up, I’ll go ask—”
“No!” Eddie practically yelled the word, and then he winced at the desperation in his own voice. Belatedly, he realized it was possible that people who were interested in men were supposed to be sitting there. But Buck was watching him with wide eyes, still paused leaning on his chair, so Eddie added, “I could use a six-minute break. You know, from finding out how many siblings every woman in this bar has.”
Buck’s eyes glinted in the dim bar lighting. He finally took the seat and asked, “oh, so you don’t care about how many siblings I have?”
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Eddie and Buck finally go on a date. It just takes them three times to realize it.
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so life won't pass me by by camerasparring
Fandoms: IT (Movies - Muschietti), IT - Stephen King
14 Apr 2022
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“You’ve been through a lot,” Mike says quietly, comforting. “You have to give yourself a break. That’s what the doctor said, didn’t she?”
“Yeah,” Eddie involuntarily agrees. “She also said my life would be irreparably different and that I’d been through a huge fucking trauma.”
“Don’t think she used—”
“And what the fuck am I supposed to do, Mike? Go to some shitty support group for divorced men, or disabled men or- or what? Men who’ve been victimized by a weird fucking space clown? Cause I don’t think those exist.”
“No one is suggesting that, I’m actually suggesting—”
“I know what you’re suggesting, Mike. And it’s a huge fucking decision.”
Mike clears his throat. “It is.” He pauses. “And I gotta say, Eddie, I think the fact that you’re fighting me so hard on it is because you think it might be the right one.”
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Or; Eddie buys a farm, comes out, makes a lot of stupid mistakes, and learns what it's like to finally have a life of his own, but definitely not in that order.
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28 Feb 2026
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feel it in my body, know it in my mind by youabird (nevulon)
Fandoms: IT (Movies - Muschietti)
22 Dec 2021
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Anyway. Richie's not planning on mentioning it again; he figures Eddie will bring it up in his own sweet time. It's not like Richie has any complaints about their sex life.
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23 Feb 2026
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He’s never had that. He’s never asked for that. Myra made it clear that she found it degrading, and he never pushed. Maybe in moments alone he would touch himself and imagine a mouth—not hers, not anyone’s really—closing around him, swallowing him down.
But now Eddie has a specific mouth in mind, and that mouth is awfully close to his dick, and he needs to get out of there fast.
Richie is still looking up at him. He smiles.
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18 Feb 2026
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The Grindr pictures are nice, just two good ol’ Eddie K headshots the likes of which Richie has more than a few saved on his own phone. One is without a smile, one with. Richie likes the second one more. He does have that one saved, he's pretty sure. Or one just like it.
Richie reads Eddie's description. It's pretty short. Name, age, weight, height. Body type: Toned. The sexual health section is extensively covered, he's even got a list of vaccinations like he's a shelter dog up for adoption.
Vers, it says under Position. Okay, Richie thinks. Okay.
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Richie helps Eddie out with his Grindr profile.
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17 Feb 2026
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send me something I'm afraid to lose by moichi
Fandoms: IT - Stephen King, IT (Movies - Muschietti)
19 Nov 2021
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Richie's therapist had told him when he kept joking at one of their first meetings, “It’s just you and me here. There’s not always an audience to perform for," and at the time he’d laughed it off, of course, rolled his eyes, What a groundbreaking observation, a comedian seeking validation, but sometimes when he’s alone it creeps up on him: Are you performing right now? Who are you performing for? Are you performing right now?
“I go to therapy now,” he blurts out.
Eddie looks up from his phone, clearly surprised.
“Oh.” He nods, blurry in the corner of Richie's eye. “Me too.”
“Dope,” Richie says, popping the p hard. The conversation halts.
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After Derry, Eddie comes to visit. Richie handles it as well as he can.
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16 Feb 2026
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After Derry, Richie and Eddie start hooking up in secret. Richie knows it's never going to be anything serious—and he's fine with that, really—but sometimes Eddie makes it too easy to pretend otherwise.
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- Part 11 of Clowntown Kinkmeme Fills
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15 Feb 2026
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“So, uh,” Richie leans heavily into the door, running a hand through his hair. “I think I’m finally drunk and exhausted enough to – ” he takes a deep breath, paired with a markedly awkward laugh. “To ask. Did you uh – So. So. In like 1997, my improv group from Rochester did a guest thing at NYU? And after – ”
“Yes,” Eddie interrupts, realizing what Richie is asking with a sear of heat across the back of his neck. “That was me.”
“Oh,” Richie intones, though it comes off as more like a choked exhale.
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15 Feb 2026
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“So you’re still in, though, right?” Richie fidgets in his seat, eyes darting in Eddie’s direction a couple times and never staying. “The plan?”
The plan.
Eddie has been planning for the majority of his life. Meal prep for the week, rigid gym schedules, biweekly meetings, trackers, calendar notifications. He’s so goddamn sick of planning, he thought.
But this one. This plan, the one where Richie asked Eddie to fuck off to California with him and Eddie said yes, feels different.
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15 Feb 2026
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“He really does look like Mike,” Lucas breathes, as he gives Mike’s twin a scan, head to toe.
“Yeah, if Mike were way hotter and a knight?” Max chips in, and Will can vaguely hear Mike muttering again. “He looks so medieval, like he’s from Camelot or some shit.”
“I am Michael,” the knight begins to plead again. He turns his doe eyes back to Will, returning to his side like a diligent guard, even going as far as to reach out and take his hands. “Please, you have to believe me. I would never lie to you. Have I ever broken our oath? Let me prove it.”
Will was a bit preoccupied with gazing into the knight’s eyes, his cheeks flushing under the intense stare and the way his hands were held so gently. Mike had no issues ruining their moment.
“And he’s weirdly obsessed with Will.” Mike sounds even angrier than he did in the woods, and his sharp tone is enough for Will to snap out of his hand-holding to step a respectable distance away from the knight. “We need to send him back to wherever he came from.”
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Mike the Brave ends up in Hawkins and sweeps Will off his feet. Mike has a lot of Feelings™ about it.
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14 Feb 2026
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On a quiet weekend, Eddie surprises Buck with a drive up the coast to see elephant seals. The road is long, the air is salty, and the space between them feels different when there’s nowhere else to be.
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10 Feb 2026
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He should be glad of it. He doesn’t want people to know he’s struggling, and they don’t. But why doesn’t Buck know? He’s always known, always seen through Eddie’s carefully constructed walls and carved himself a door into them. Even when Eddie resisted, even when he pushed back, Buck ducked his head and shoved through and found the tender hurt Eddie was guarding, cupped his hands around it and held until it didn’t ache so much.
And now Eddie’s bleeding internally, swollen with regret, and Buck doesn’t say a thing. Eddie can’t ask him to. If he opens his mouth, he might just start screaming.
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There's distance between Eddie and Buck. Eddie isn't falling apart. These are two equally true statements.
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09 Feb 2026
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That was good, right? Alex, smiling. Eddie was so out of practice in this sort of thing. And even when he had been in practice, he was a disaster at flirting and dating and not having a mental breakdown at the mere idea of commitment. But Alex was smiling at him and joking with him and she hadn’t run off screaming. Yet.
That was as good an omen as anything.
Eddie mustered up all his courage. “Would you like to get dinner with me?”
(In which Eddie Diaz asks a woman on a date and then kisses the love of his life)
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04 Feb 2026
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Buck just wants to see Hen smile. That's all this is.
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04 Feb 2026
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“Eddie,” Maddie says. “I know our kids are different ages, and our situations are different, but — it kind of sounds like you need something else besides your kid and work, too.”
Well, I used to have a best friend, Eddie thinks, then pushes the thought away. “I … I have other things. But Chris and the job are definitely the most central right now.”
"You know, you can’t put yourself last all the time, Eddie.” She laughs a little. “Straight from my therapist’s mouth to your ears! Ooh — you know what? I’ve got a great idea.”
“Oh?”
“You should come to book club. It’s something I do with my parent friends. We take turns hosting, and it’s my turn!”
Sometimes the best part about reading is getting to learn more about yourself.
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02 Feb 2026
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“Eddie. Dude.”
That, finally, does the trick. Eddie pulls off with his eyebrows in his hairline.
“Dude?” he rasps.
“Sorry,” Buck gasps. “I– I’m gonna come, just. Just, it’s not– you don’t want that in your mouth.”
Eddie looks… amused, of all things. Relaxed. Wetting his lips, he says, “Why not?”
“Uh.” Buck blinks. “It’s– do you?”
“Yeah,” Eddie says, unimpressed. “Dude.”
“I–” Buck seizes when Eddie falls right back down on his cock, the wet heat of his mouth engulfing him again. “S-sorry,” he grits out. “Baby, I’m– I’m so close, you’re gonna make me come, you’re–”
Eddie groans around him, eyes squeezing shut as he presses himself down, down, down, taking Buck deep.
“Oh, fuck–”
Or: Buck and Eddie go camping. Things spiral from there.
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01 Feb 2026
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“Can you see a window?” Buck asks.
Eddie glances around. Nothing. Just darkness. “Ceiling caved in where a window probably used to be. No other doors. I’m—” he rests his head against the cement between them, sighing. “I’m stuck, bud.”
Silence ensues. For a few long seconds, neither of them says anything. Eddie is so tired of not saying anything. If he’s going to die here, he’s going to say the shit he’s been pushing down for years, even if Buck hates him for it. Buck deserves to know. Eddie deserves to have said it. Just once. Just fucking once.
He can’t die a coward. He already lived like one.
“I love you,” Eddie says, voice too quiet. On the other side of the wall, Buck’s breathing stutters. Eddie squeezes his eyes shut, heart hammering. “I love you. I’m sorry I— I’m sorry I’m telling you now. Like this.”
Or: in what Eddie Diaz thinks are his final moments, he finally confesses.
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- Part 2 of cjo + 911
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01 Feb 2026
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please leave a message by subcorax
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.Jackie
Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.Jackie has added Lily to the conversation
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what is thisOr: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.
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- Part 1 of You Have (81) Unread Messages
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“I’m trying not to make it about me.”
The words seem to stop Eddie in his tracks—but only for a fleeting moment. Then, “Okay, then let me.”
Buck blinks, ignoring the feeling of a single tear fighting past the edge of his lashline. Instantly, he swipes it away. “What?”
“Let me make it about you. Talk to me. I want to know what’s going on with you. I’m not gonna be able to focus on this god awful dinner if I’m worried that you’re alone, and upset, and—”
“I miss you,” Buck confesses, abruptly, because anything else he wants to say right now is too raw, too real.
Eddie exhales into the microphone of his phone. “Yeah. Yeah, I—I know. I miss you, too.”
“No, I miss you. More than I’m supposed to, I think.”
“I’m your best friend, bud,” Eddie tells him. “I think you’re supposed to miss me. We’re eight hundred miles apart.”
Miserably, Buck shakes his head. “Not like this.”
Or: Buck finally unpacks and stumbles across a box Eddie left behind, full of sketchbooks that Buck didn’t know he owned. He’s confronted, suddenly, with the fact that his best friend has been drawing him for years.
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- Part 4 of cjo + 911
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01 Feb 2026
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“What do you want from me, Eddie? What do you want?”
“I want to know why you’re leaving.”
Buck’s eyebrows twitch, mouth tugging downward. “I can’t sleep in your bed anymore.” Fiddling with his napkin, he adds, quietly, “What am I supposed to do when you get a girlfriend? Sleep on your couch for the rest of my life?”
Eddie does not understand. What does any of that have to do with Buck?
“I’m not seeing anyone, Buck.”
“Yeah,” Buck says, voice fraught. “You’re not.”
Eddie gets the feeling he’s missing something. He stares at Buck, searching his features, looking for what it is. What will make Buck stop looking at him like this, like Eddie’s being mean on purpose? Like he’s saying all the wrong things?
Or: Eddie has changed. Buck likes him like this, too.
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- Part 6 of cjo + 911