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    Shane nuzzles the top of his head before leaning in and pressing his mouth to Ilya's forehead.

    The kiss is brief and feather-light and casual and yet it's everything for Ilya.

    He's quite sure it's impossible for him to smile any wider than he's smiling right now. His heart is fluttering happily in his chest, a content warmth spreading through his body as Shane lingers there, hugging him and humming softly and still placing little kisses on Ilya's temple.
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    Five times Shane gives Ilya forehead kisses and one time Ilya asks for one.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Shane swipes out of a few notifications from the ESPN app, all clickbait about Scott Hunter’s speech at the NHL awards. He can’t deal with those right now, his brain is not online. Then he sees the Snapchat notification, from Ilya.

    Shane puts his phone down and blinks a few times. He picks it up and checks the display again. The notification is still there.

    He hasn’t gotten a Snap from Ilya since the end of the season back in April, after they crashed out of the Frozen Four without making it to the final. Shane saw him a few times after that, at team meetings and at the annual sports awards dinner, but he’s pretty sure Ilya left campus before the end of the semester. Shane wasn’t expecting anything from him until the fall, when he’s back at school.

    He rubs his eyes and rolls onto his side, swiping the app open. It’s a video.

    or, the boys are in college, featuring self discovery, russian diminutives, and (to ilya's chagrin) the scott hunter of it all.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    Lovely ❤️

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    Shane and Ilya grow up and grow older in hockey locker rooms, where communal showers and homophobia are simple facts of life. This is a love letter to the experience of closeted queer puberty, and to all the weird parts about growing up as an athlete.

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    14 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Finir après tlg

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    Shane’s immediate reaction is to say that he doesn't know when it started. He doesn’t know who his soulmate is. This is what he’s been telling himself for years, because if he stops for more than a second to think about how long he's been collecting little pieces of Ilya Rozanov, he thinks he'll spiral out of control.

    He'll hit the deck like a firecracker dropped unceremoniously onto the sidewalk, burning wildly and spiralling haphazardly, until he's fizzled out with nothing left to show for himself but smoke, ashes, and the knowledge that his soul is bound to Rozanov's.

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    shane hollander spends twenty-five years not thinking about his soulmate. the drawer in his apartment filled with cigarettes, toothpaste, and awful t-shirts says elsewise.

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    07 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Finir après spoilers TLG

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    Ilya and Shane soulbond with a handshake in a freezing parking lot in Saskatchewan. It actually doesn’t change very much, until Shane’s concussion drives everything haywire, forcing them into close proximity and an earlier confrontation with all the feelings they’ve been trying to ignore.

    Or: as it turns out, it’s easier than you’d think to be in someone’s head and still not know how they feel.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    After Rose helps Shane realize his sexuality, he decides he needs to come out to the important people in his life. He's not ready to be out publicly, but he needs friends in his corner.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    31 Jan 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 89

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    Shane Hollander returns from his rendezvous with Rozanov wearing a gutted expression and a shirt that isn’t his.

    OR: Hayden Pike finds out the truth. Sort of.

    A/N: Title from the Adele song.

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    25 Jan 2026

  9. Public Bookmark 29

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    The entire day got to him. Shane showed up in his brown jacket, looking impossibly soft and terribly addicting, and then Ilya immediately took him to bed. There was no other choice when Shane Hollander was in your house looking like that. It did things to Ilya’s heart that he had yet to dissect, hadn’t wanted to examine for very specific reasons.

    He didn’t mean to say it.

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    24 Jan 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 14

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    Five times Yuna and David worry about Shane’s love life over the years and one time they don’t.

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    24 Jan 2026

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    During his weeks at the cottage the only people Shane usually had to interact with were his parents, and it was always so—nice. Such a relief. To not have to be a person, for a couple of weeks. Or, at least, to not have to be the kind of person other people seemed to think that he was, or that a hockey player was, or that a hockey player had to be. It wasn’t just about pretending he was straight. Sometimes, despite doing his best to ignore the jabs, Shane was forced to confront the fact that he really did often feel like a robot, and that the cottage was—for lack of better phrasing—his recharge time. And now—now Ilya was here. And Shane knew how to kiss him, how to play against him, how to be fucked by him, but there was no rulebook for this.

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    shane does not like change. he does not like shifts in the status quo. he also honestly doesn't really like when people are in his house.

    however. shane does like ilya. maybe enough that none of that matters.

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    24 Jan 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 9

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    24 Jan 2026

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    24 Jan 2026

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    24 Jan 2026

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    22 Jan 2026

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    He drives to the airport with an unshakeable urge to pull over and turn around. He smokes four cigarettes in a row before he boards the plane, then chews an entire pack of gum on the flight to try and cover the worst of the smell.

    He exits the airport half-hoping that Shane has chickened out of the whole thing. Then he spots him, tapping his fingers against the steering wheel in the most boring suburban dad car Ilya has ever had the misfortune of laying his eyes on, and he’s so happy to see him that his legs feel unsteady beneath his weight.

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    Or, the cottage, Ilya's version: an extended ep 6 featuring my take on what happened in the gaps we didn't see.

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    17 Jan 2026

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    Shane turned back to Ilya. “You say things to me that make me feel the same as when you kiss me,” he spoke softly, accentuating his words with motioning arms, “like the earth could give out from under you and you wouldn’t give a shit, because that way you could stay in the sunlight all the time. You love when it’s sunny.” He drew in a long, steadying breath. “And it makes me think you might love me like you love the sun.”

    Ilya thought his chest may burst open with the sheer force his heart beat with. “It was sunny today, yes? Did not make me feel like this. Not even close,” Ilya offered Shane his hand. Shane took it and Ilya dragged him to his chest. He pressed their intertwined hands against his heart. “Feel that? Only you, no sun. Would not want the earth to collapse. It would take you away, too. What do I do with just the stupid sun, if you are not there to block it out?”

    or; Shane visits Ilya when the Voyageurs are in Boston. They are down horrendous for each other. Also very much in love. So, pretty canon.

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    14 Jan 2026

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    A collection of all my Heated Rivalry fic to make it easier to find. Please notice that I update the order a lot because I'm not always writing them chronologically!

    Originally, these stories weren't intended to fit together, but they (mostly) do, so now I consider this a sort of miniverse of its own. There may be a few minor inconsistencies here and there, but I generally try to make them work. You will encounter Megan Rapinoe. You will see the same OCs in multiple fics. You will get to journey with them from pre-series to beyond the events established in canon (as of Jan 2026 when Unrivaled has not yet been published).

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    14 Jan 2026

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    14 Jan 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 39

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    “Having a crush on a straight man is no good, buddy.” Oh, Shane Hollander was perfectly aware that it was a bad idea. After years of secretly pining over Ilya Rozanov, who everyone knew was with a different girl in every city he played, he should have known better. But apparently, there were plenty of other things he didn’t know.

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    14 Jan 2026

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