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    Hockey is a rough sport. Everyone knows that. You go down, you get back up. That’s the game. When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.

    Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane’s relationship first—and decide that instead of letting their captain move to fucking Ottawa, they’ll just kidnap his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    Under the leadership of Ilya, the Rozanov Syndicate exploded onto the international drug and finance scene right around the time FBI-hopeful Shane Hollander was caught up on the periphery of a Russian mob hit. It's an opportunity for the FBI to get a man in deep cover. It's an opportunity for Shane to do something great, write history (like he was supposed to do in hockey). It's all perfect.

    But sometimes the stars don't align for the reasons you suspect, and loyalty looks a lot different when you're down in the trenches with the man you love.

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    An undercover Shane/crime boss Ilya AU. There will be violence, there will be emotional pain, and there will be yearning.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is not a small fucking guy; he is all muscle, with big, calloused hockey-player hands and eyes nearly pretty enough to disguise the violence hidden in breadth of his shoulders.

    Alexei is impressed.

    Not a bad get, for someone fished out of a pool of hockey men who look like thumbs, their noses like squashed tomatoes and ears like boat sails. If it could not be beautiful, nosy bitch Svetlana, if it has to be a man, if it has to be a hockey player, then rich as God Shane Hollander isn’t the worst Ilyusha could have pulled.

     

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    or Alexei is in deep shit. He can’t get to Ilya, so he tries the next best thing.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    “Wait, Mr. Raiders fan,” Rozanov calls.

    Constable Sullivan pauses.

    “I get a phone call, yes?”

    “Sure.” He pulls out his own phone. “Do you know the number?”

    Rozanov nods. The numbers all come out in a rush, as though he’s memorized it in one long string and can’t think of any of them separately.

    It’s a Montreal area code, the constable notes, as he types it in. As the phone rings, he puts it on speaker and asks Rozanov: “Who is it?”

    “Shane Hollander.”

    “Fuck off. Who is it really?”

    Or: in the midst of the Rose breakup, the Raiders win a game in Montreal. Unable to do what he normally does after Montreal games, Ilya goes out to a club, gets super drunk, and ends up getting picked up by Montreal police for public intoxication. Sitting in a holding cell, the only number he can remember is Shane's.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Neil decides he wants to let loose a little and get drunk with the upperclassmen, so he asks Andrew to keep him from doing anything too stupid.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Andrew has a nightmare about losing Neil, so Neil spends the rest of the night in Andrew's bed. The next morning, no one can find Neil and Andrew is no help.

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    12 Feb 2026

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    After a moment, Hayden pulls back. Then he hands her the phone—Shane’s phone.

    “I grabbed this when I was getting his stuff and I saw, well.”

    He looks away from Yuna, briefly glances at David, then looks away from him too. There’s an oddly guilty look on his face that has Yuna suspicious at once.

    “Um, has Shane told you guys about Lily?”

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    AKA, Yuna and David find out about Lily, Shane’s... girlfriend?, while he's in the hospital. It's a while before they find out about Ilya.

    Featuring:
    - high Shane
    - Ilya angst
    - theories about who Lily could be
    - Yuna & "Lily" texting
    - identity shenanigans

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    12 Feb 2026

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    - Marlow Has Added Jane to the Conversation -

    Marlow: Please don't tell Roz

    Jane: O.O

     

    - Hayden Has Added Lily to the Conversation -

    Lily: What the fuck is this?

    Hayden: Oh-

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    11 Feb 2026

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    An open door was hardly an invitation for a man like Shane—someone who navigated life by second-guessing, who agonized over every choice laid in front of him.

    But maybe that was the point

    Maybe that was Ilya’s part in his life—Shane’s reckoning with letting go.

    Or an AU in which Shane and Ilya are roommates, Ilya has an OnlyFans, Shane works at the boxing gym, and everyone around them thinks they’re already married.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    [Tweet] @roz81: I am coming moi malyshi. do not get into any strange white vans in meantime

    [Tweet] @roselandrysmistress: Why does he sound like my mother

    [Tweet] @TroyBbaby: Years of practicing and perfecting

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    or the young Centaurs players have made it a goal in life to stress Ilya and Shane out at all times.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    He wasn’t ready for this.

    Maybe he never would have been, not in two, or five, or ten years. Maybe he would have spent the rest of his life holding this secret inside, not telling a single soul about the way his heart beats for his biggest rival. Or maybe, in a year or ten or once he’s retired, he might have come out publicly. Might have shared his truth with the world.

    But that was supposed to be his choice. To tell or not to tell, to hide in the shade or step out into the sunshine. It was supposed to be his decision, and now it’s been taken from him.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    “Maybe—maybe Lily is sleeping,” she says. Bargaining, she realizes numbly. She’s bargaining for more time. And for whatever is unfolding here to stop unfolding and in fact fold itself back up. Her thumb shifts away from the call button. “And you should be sleeping too, mister.”

    “He’s not sleeping.” Shane flares his nostrils—another gesture Yuna hasn’t seen in so many years. “He’s waiting for me to call a third time. Mom. Please. He’s—he’ll be so worried.”

    Yuna shifts her thumb and lets it drop. Is Yuna a bad mother if she hopes "Lily" doesn’t pick up?

    -x-

    or: Shane needs to call someone the night he's laid out by Marlow, and Yuna reflects on her quietly, obsessively devoted son.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Hayden would maintain to the end of his days that it was all Rozanov’s fucking fault.

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    After accidentally losing a ‘keepsake’ from Jackie in Shane’s bag, Hayden was determined to get it back quietly. So he did what any normal person would and sneak into his best friend’s hotel room.

    Unfortunately, that was also the day Ottawa (formerly Boston) Lily was visiting.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    “Holy shit, dude,” Hayden whispers, too loudly, as he pulls Shane away. “No way you were just talking to Ilya Rozanov.”

    “Uh, yeah. We just met. Wait, did he lie to me?” Shane asks, looking back over his shoulder where Ilya is now standing next to a short but very muscular woman with long black hair. “What does he play?”

    Hayden stops, so Shane does too.

    “You don’t know who that was?” 

    Shane makes a face that says ‘no shit’, and waits for an answer. 

    “Dude. You are so innocent. Ilya Rozanov, ‘Russia’s Greatest Love Machine’?” Hayden says, like it’s obvious. 

    Shane looks at him blankly, and then Hayden laughs. Not like, a chuckle. He full on cackles, bending over like he can’t even contain it. “Man, he’s like prolific.”

    “At what?” Shane snaps, because he’s getting really sick of not being in on the joke. 

    “He’s a porn star, man.” 

    “A-” Shane says, swallowing thickly. “What?” 

    ---

    Ilya is a porn star, Shane is a hockey player, and their paths cross.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    It’s been 6 months since Shane Hollander was rejected by Ilya Rozanov in an ice rink in Sochi. Shane’s bruised ego has pushed him to resent Ilya. So, when Rozanov propositions him in a backstage bathroom, Shane takes the opportunity to tell Rozanov to go fuck himself.

    Shane is proud of himself for giving Rozanov a taste of his own medicine, but it doesn’t quiet the turmoil he feels from his continued attraction to the Russian man.

    When Shane steps out of the after party to get some air and finds Rozanov with a black eye and busted lip, any resolve to stay away from him is gone. Shane finds himself right back in the hurricane that is Ilya Rozanov, and seeing a side to him that he didn’t know existed.

    OR

    Alternative scene where Shane rejects Ilya in the Vegas bathroom, only to find himself wiping blood from his face later and asking who was responsible.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Gang leader Ilya Rozanov had all but vanished from the public eye, and this was his first public appearance in months. That was one reason this was special. The other was a personal goal Joey had set himself the last time they’d met.

    Tonight, he was going to make Ilya Rozanov his.
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    Mafia AU featuring gang leader Shane Hollander and his attack dog- Ilya Rozanov

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    10 Feb 2026

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    Pummel: Fuck Jane

    St-Simon: nah…

    St-Simon: i dont think shes done anything wrong…

    Pummel: youre right

    Pummel: Sorry Jane

    Pummel: FUCK ROZANOV

    Varkov: FUCK ROZANOV

    Connors: Hey guys did you see this article about Rose Landry and Shane Hollander?

    Carmichael: Bad timing, man.

    Connors: Oh

    Connors: Give me a second to read back.

    Connors: Oh….

    Connors: FUCK ROZANOV

    [Or, how the Raiders---in particular the long suffering Cliff Marleau, dealt with the Great Jane Debacle of 2016, told in a series of texts, posts, and Cliff being the best Bostonian friend Ilya could ask for]

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    10 Feb 2026

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    09 Feb 2026

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    Alexis: Considering how he throws Hollander around on the ice, I’m worried about you girl 😂

    Jane: Oh, he does love to throw me around.

    Jane: Haha.

    Or,
    Ilya’s decision to fuck with Shane backfires spectacularly. And Shane gets a support system along the way.

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    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
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    5,444
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    197,716

    09 Feb 2026

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