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    troybarrett if u can read this im free on thurs @censational · Oct 23, 2022
    Ilya Rozanov getting cancelled for having an Asian fetish was NOT on my 2022 bingo but here we are #ilyarozanovisoverparty

    kari ˚⟡˖ ࣪ @pikesplacee · Oct 23, 2022
    the question of “why shane hollander of all players” finally makes sense now I guess… #ilyarozanovisoverparty

    vi @mooncatvi · Oct 23, 2022
    you mean the hockey player I liked isn't a good person? 🥺 you mean the stripper doesn't love me? 🥺 #ilyarozanovisoverparty

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    Shane was gay. That was the entire point of this whole thing. He was a man who loved another man. And he was a man

    He was a professional athlete, nearly six feet tall, just about 200 pounds. But for every single thing about him that he felt like served to qualify him as a man, it was like Ilya had somehow turned the dial up to eleven. 

    And Shane loved it. 

    or, five times that Shane is overwhelmed by his husband's masculinity and one time that Ilya realizes he is not the man of the house. 

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    02 Mar 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    01 Mar 2026

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    Shane wondered if this was how most relationships ended. Silently.

    It was as if his time with Ilya had never happened at all, like a wave washing away footprints in the sand. The absence of evidence was comforting at times, but more often it left him infuriated. Shane felt as though he was being deceived. Manipulated. No pictures, nothing of Ilya’s to return. He didn’t even have Ilya’s contact in his phone. Not really, at least. Not as Ilya.

    Shane wasn’t dumb enough to expect a text, and he certainly wasn’t self-destructive enough to send one himself. But he was foolish enough to wonder if maybe, just maybe, Ilya had reached out in some way.

     

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    Shane doesn't actually get hurt in the game against Boston and Ilya breaks up with him because Ilya's heart had entered into it, and that changed everything.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    A whump fanfiction series that is actually, secretly, a fix-it.

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